Chapter 8 — Mirror, Mirror
Aug 25, 2004 – Los Angeles, CA (North Beverly Park Suburb) – The Home of JT and Justin Poole-Tanner – JT’s Den
“Well, are you gay?” Nikki asked, looking Joshua in the face.
“No, I’m not gay!” Joshua exclaimed, throwing his hands up as he moved away from Nikki. “I’m not gay damn it!”
“If you’re not gay, then what in the hell is going on here?” Nikki asked, looking at Joshua and then at JT and Justin.
“I’m not gay, but—but I fooled around with guys in the past,” Joshua stated as he sighed and then sat down on the sofa in the room. “Those two seem to think that I’m jealous of them because I’m not with a man right now.”
“You are jealous, damn it!” Justin snapped.
“Justin, be quiet, damn,” JT said as he shook his head. “Nikki, we’ll leave you two alone here, so you can talk or whatever and we’ll be down the hall in another room. It seems I need to talk to my husband about manners.”
“Oh no you don’t JT! You two aren’t going anywhere damn it!” Nikki snapped as she looked at JT, grabbing him by the arm, stopping him from leaving the room. “You knew about this shit and you didn’t say anything about it to me, why?”
“First of all, it—it wasn’t my place to tell you, being that it’s not my business,” JT replied as Nikki shook her head. “Secondly, I don’t know what Josh has or hasn’t done in his life since we were kids. People do change or something.”
“So, his missing around with guys in the past is why you two have always got into arguments and such?” Nikki asked as JT nodded his head. “Did—did you two fool around when you were younger?”
“Hell no!” JT snapped as he moved away from Nikki, making a face as he coughed and then wiped at his mouth. “That’s just all kinds of wrong.”
“What in the hell is that supposed to mean?” Joshua asked as he turned and looked at JT. “Are you trying to say I’m not good enough to be with?”
“That’s just furthering the damn issue right there,” Justin said as he shook his head as Nikki pointed her finger at him.
“And you—you just had to keep on pushing this issue, why?” Nikki asked as she shook her head. “Why is this bothering you all of a sudden? It’s one thing to take offense to somebody causing a problem between the two of you, but what in the hell…”
“It bothers me because my so-called friend kept this secret from me for so long. It bothers me because my so-called friend used to give me hell about being with men. It bothers me because my so-called friend used to do everything in his power to talk shit about gay people and to find out, he’s fucked around with a few!” Justin snapped as JT’s eyes widened.
“He’s fucked around with a few, who?” Nikki asked, looking at Justin and then spinning around to look at JT. “JT, what’s he talking about?”
“I don’t know,” JT replied, looking at Nikki and then at Justin. “Justin, what are you talking about?”
“He knows what I’m talking about!” Justin snapped, pointing at Joshua as he walked out of the room as JT watched his retreating form leave.
“Justin, come back here!” JT called out as he shook his head again.
“Josh, what in the hell is he talking about? I want to know everything right now, or we’re finished!” Nikki yelled, stomping her feet like a child would. “You can forget about having me and your daughter in your life!”
“Baby no!” Joshua screamed out as he dropped to his knees in front of her.
“Tell me what in the hell is going on! Now!” Nikki snapped as she pointed her finger in his face.
“Okay, I’ll tell you everything,” Joshua replied as Nikki looked at him.
In JT and Justin’s Bedroom
“Justin,” JT said as he walked into the room to see Justin sitting on the bed, crying. “Justin, what’s gotten into you? Why did you do that back there?”
“That bastard deserved it,” Justin replied as he sniffled.
“Justin, what’s going on here? Why are you crying?” JT asked, walking over to the bed and sitting down next to him. “What’s going on?”
“I—I let my emotions get the better of me,” Justin replied as he laid his head on JT’s shoulder. “I shouldn’t have done that back there, but—but at the time, it—it felt so poetic.”
“It felt poetic, why?” JT asked, looking Justin in the face.
“How do you think Mom found out about me,” Justin said with a frown. “I sure as hell didn’t tell her I like dick and ‘man ass’.”
“Josh outed you to Lynda,” JT said as Justin nodded his head and then sniffled. “I’m sorry baby.”
“It’s not your fault baby,” Justin replied as he and JT kissed. “Just goes to show that when Josh doesn’t get what he wants, he tells their secrets.”
“Wait a minute, hold up,” JT said as he stood up. “What are you talking about here?”
“It doesn’t really matter baby,” Justin said as he grabbed JT’s hand, pulling him back down to sit on the bed as he rested his head back on his shoulder. “Josh has always been an evil prick. Back on the show, he found out that I was gay, and he did everything he could back then to use it against me. How do you think he got the best parts on the show?”
“That bastard,” JT said as he shook his head.
“Yeah, that bastard, but that’s in the past and neither of us can change that,” Justin said as he sighed.
“And we can’t change the fact that you opened a can of worms for Nikki and I don’t think that’s going to turn out well,” JT said as there was a knock on the bedroom door. “Come in.”
“Hi guys,” Nikki said as she walked into the room.
“Hey girl, are you all right?” JT asked as she walked around to stand in front of him and Justin. “Do look on your face says no. Please tell me that you two didn’t break up. Did you kill him?”
“No, we’re not broken up and I didn’t kill him,” Nikki replied with a frown. “I’m just shocked what I’ve found out here today. All the years that I’ve known him, I didn’t know that about him.”
“How do you feel now that you know?” JT asked.
“The same way I felt when I found out about you,” Nikki replied as she pointed at JT as he frowned. “It’s one thing for him to hide that part of him from me for so long, but it’s another thing when he felt it didn’t matter for him to tell me. It felt—feels like I don’t even matter to him.”
“Well you matter to me Nikki,” JT stated as he got up and hugged her. “You are one of my best friends, but I had my reasons for not telling you or anyone else, mainly because of the way I got treated. Josh played a role in that and so did others. I learned at a young age that when someone knows the real you, they use it against you and treat you differently.”
“I can only imagine,” Nikki replied with a frown on her face.
“I got treated like crap on the show by Josh and others. I was fired from the show when the big wigs found out about me and Marc. Hell, things got so bad, that when I went to auditions for certain companies there were the whispers, stares and the damn pointing,” JT stated as she sighed and then shook his head. “As you know, our very own manager did his best to take advantage of that secret when he found out and even tried to rape me. When people know the real you, that can sometimes lead to unnecessary stress and drama.”
“Baby, are you trying to defend Josh?” Justin asked, looking over at JT. “That last part sounds like you were trying to explain why he didn’t tell Nikki about his double dickings.”
“Lawd, this man’s tongue is going to make me spank him today,” JT said as he shook his head. “I’m not trying to defend Josh, I’m just saying why I didn’t tell many about my secret. I don’t know why Josh didn’t tell her and besides, that’s not our business.”
“For your information, he said he didn’t tell me because he was ashamed of that part of his life and that kind of life didn’t allow him to have what he wanted,” Nikki stated as JT and Justin looked at her strangely.
“What was that he wanted?” JT asked.
“His words, a family,” Nikki replied as JT looked at her and then shrugged his shoulders.
“Bullshit,” Justin said as he shook his head. “Nikki, we’re a family here and we’re raging homos.”
“Speak for yourself,” JT said as he raised an eye at Justin. “I’m not raging at the moment.”
“We’re a family here, so I don’t know what in the hell he’s talking about, not being able to have a family,” Justin said as he sighed. “You got Big Daddy JT, Papa Justin and our little sweet baby bear, Caleb. So again, that’s bullshit.”
“Justin, just let it go,” JT said as he sighed. “One, the way Josh lives his life has nothing to do with us. Two, his private life is his life, not ours. You were wrong for doing to him, what he did to you.”
“He did the same thing to you and you’re mad with me,” Justin said as he shook his head.
“Yeah, but that didn’t mean you had to turn right around and do the same thing to him,” JT said as he frowned. “You don’t do evil for evil.”
“Well regardless of any of that, what time are you guys leaving for Toronto?” Nikki asked as JT looked at her. “Me and Summer will be joining you guys, regardless if my stubborn, confused husband wants to show support for your friends or not.”
“We’re heading out Friday evening, probably right after school lets out, unless there’s a problem,” JT answered as a phone rang in the room.
“It’s my cell,” Justin said as he rolled over on the bed and grabbed his cell phone and opened it to answer. “Hello. What? What channel? Okay, thanks for calling.”
“What’s going on?” JT asked, looking at Justin.
“Turn the TV on, apparently my baby mama drama has been caught for the whole world to see,” Justin stated as he shook his head.
“Baby mama drama?” Nikki said, looking at Justin strangely.
“Some woman claims that Justin is her baby’s father,” JT stated as he turned on the TV, flipping channels. “What channel am I going to?”
“It doesn’t really matter, it’s probably on all of them,” Justin replied as he sighed. “I don’t need this drama added to what’s already going on.”
“Apparently I missed something,” Nikki said with a frown.
“Caleb had a play date yesterday and we went out to eat last night with Chad Faulk and we got ambushed in the restaurant. Later on, in the parking lot, some strange woman approached the car and said Justin was her baby daddy,” JT explained as Nikki’s eyes widened. “So, apparently that’s hit the news now.”
“Justin, do you have a child too?” Nikki asked, looking at Justin as he glared at her. “Sorry, was just checking.”
“I don’t have any kids, except for Caleb,” Justin replied as his cell phone rang again. “Great, that’s Ma.”
“Go ahead and clear the air with her,” JT said as he shook his head as he stopped flipping the channels, ending up on one of the music channels. “If I didn’t know any better, I’d think she had something to do with getting that woman to say that crap, just to try to break us up.”
“I don’t think Mama would stoop…” Justin said as the phone beeped, indicating that he had a voicemail message. “I guess I’ll listen to what she had to say.”
“Well apparently it wasn’t a long message,” JT said as he shook his head as he turned up the volume on the TV.
= To recap the news story at the top of the hour, is it a boy for Justin Tanner? An anonymous source reported that Justin could be the father of a little bouncing boy. That’s right, the ‘Starz’ bad-boy front man is growing up and it seems very quickly. It seems Justin has been very busy this year. As some of you already know, Justin came out of the closet a few months back when he and JT Poole, his ex-cast mate from the Mouse performed an up-close and personal, very seductive song together at one of JT’s shows. And then, before the start of summer, Justin and JT got married in a private ceremony in Toronto with their close friends and family. With this new development, what else does this year hold for Justin Tanner? Are the rumors true about this ‘bouncy baby boy’ or is this just a new hoax following the rumors that trail behind Justin and JT’s relationship… Tune in tonight to find out when that source is revealed. =
“What in the hell is going on?” JT asked as he looked at Justin. “We’ll find out that information when they reveal the source. How are they going to reveal information that hasn’t been confirmed yet? Is there already proof that the child is yours Justin?”
“They don’t have any proof because I don’t have a child with a woman,” Justin stated as he sighed and then shook his head. “This is really pissing me off. When this is said and done with, I’m suing somebody! Someone is going to pay for causing this drama.”
“More power to you on that one,” JT said as he sighed. “It’s almost time to go pick up Caleb. Are you coming with me?”
“Yes, I’m coming with you,” Justin answered as he got up.
Albany, NY – The Home of James Poole — James’ Bedroom
For the last couple of days, the sir hasn’t been feeling well. I don’t know what’s going on with him, but I think he needs to see a doctor. Each time that I’ve checked his temperature, it’s been rather high. I’ve tried suggesting that he go to the doctor or to the hospital, but he yells at me to mind my own business. When it comes to him, he is my business. I’m doing my best to honor his wishes, but pretty soon, I’m going to have no choice to but to disobey him and call an ambulance to come here and get him.
I don’t really know his full medical history, but I think what’s happening with him right now has something to do with the injury he sustained a few months back. He’s been walking around here, clutching at his side and at his chest. Each time I say something, he gives me that look. I don’t know what to do about any of this, but I fear if I don’t do something quick, I won’t have him around in my life.
“Boy, what are you doing?” He asked as I walked across the room to put away some of his clothing.
“I’m putting away your clothing sir. Is there something you need or require?” I asked, turning to face him.
“Have you started dinner preparation?” He asked as I nodded my head in the negative. “Good, that means I can make changes.”
“What would you like for tonight’s meal?” I asked.
“We’re going to go out,” he replied as I looked at him, wondering if he was making a good decision. “I think I would like to have some Italian food this evening.”
“Yes sir, do you have a place in mind?” I asked, waiting for his answer.
“I think LaBella’s, the little restaurant across town would be a great place for us to dine tonight,” he answered as he closed his eyes as I noticed he was holding his side under the bed sheets.
“Sir,” I said as he opened his eyes and looked at me strangely. “Are you okay?”
“I’m fine boy,” he replied as he started breathing heavy. “Call LaBella’s and make reservations for us. Go handle that right now!”
“Y—yes sir,” I responded, walking out of the room quickly as I headed down the hall to the home office to get the phone book, so I could do as I was told.
Getting into the room, I walked over to the desk and picked up the phone book. Flipping through the pages quickly, I found the number, picked up the phone and dialed the number for the restaurant, waiting for someone to answer.
“Hi, LaBella’s, may I help you?” The person asked.
“Hi, do you make reservations?” I asked of the person that had answered the phone.
“Yes, and for what date and time?” The person asked.
“Tonight, for two,” I replied as I heard what sounded like pages turning.
“Yes, we have a table available for tonight,” the person responded.
“Great,” I said with a smile. “Could you reserve that under the name Marin?”
“Yes,” the person answered. “I have put you in the book. Are there any special requests?”
“No, there aren’t any,” I answered. “Thank you very much, is there a certain time that we have to arrive?”
“Your reservation will stay in effect until we close sir,” the persons stated.
“Cool, thank you again,” I said with a smile. “You have a great afternoon.”
As I hang up the phone, I turned around to see the sir, standing there watching me. Damn, how long has he been standing there? He’s being sneaky this afternoon, I didn’t even hear him come into the room. Is there something wrong?
“Sir, is there something wrong?” I asked, looking up at him and then nodding my head.
“Yes, there’s something wrong,” he replied, looking at me with that look that told me that he was ready for action. “I need something from you boy.”
“What is it that you need sir?” I asked as he walked over to where I stood and then pulled me close, kissing my lips. “Sir?”
“You know what I need and want boy,” he said as he pushed me backwards on the desk, pressing his body against mine, grinding against me as I felt his hardness, moving against my leg.
What’s going on with him? This is highly strange of him to be kissing me like this. The way he’s acting, he must be horny. I can feel the thickness of his member, throbbing against my leg.
“Take ‘em off boy,” he said, breathing hard as he looked me in the face. “Assume the position, you know what I want and how I want it.”
“Yes sir,” I replied, hurriedly taking off my clothes as he demanded.
As I lay atop the desk, I looked up at the ceiling as I felt him fingering my ass. He slid one and then two fingers into me and then he pushed my legs towards my chest. Looking at him, he smiled that all-knowing smile that told me I was about to get worked over again. Closing my eyes, the next thing I felt was him entering me, all in one swoop. Oh God, had I not already been lubed up from our earlier session, that would’ve hurt like hell. Hell, his huge dick had already unloaded deep inside me an hour earlier, so I guess he needed seconds.
“Mmmm,” I moaned as he pumped my ass, holding my hips as he established his pattern of fucking. “Oh Sir… I… God… You…”
“That’s right boy, take your daddy’s big dick!” He snapped as he pulled me up a bit, kissing my lips. Damn, what in the hell is going on with him? He’s hardly ever been a kisser, but today, he—he’s been doing it a whole lot. “You like that boy?”
“Y—yes Sir,” I replied as he continued to ram into me, hitting my spot.
Damn! I don’t know how much more of this I can stand. Several minutes have passed and he’s till plowing the hell out of me. Normally, he would’ve shot his load by now, but he’s still going, acting as if he were a damn energizer.
“I bet you wish you could jerk that little dicklet boy,” he said, pounding harder into me as I so wanted to jerk off, but the cock cage prevented me from doing so. When he unlocks me, I’ll have to make up for lost time.
Damn, he hasn’t show his load yet. Looking him in the face, he’s sweating a whole lot. Maybe he needs some encouragement from me, to get that load out. Which one of our roleplay scenarios do I need to use?
“C’mon Big Daddy, I know you have another load in you. Your dick is rock hard, throbbing in my ass. C’mon Big Daddy, coat my insides with your seed!” I screamed as he wiped his brow and started pumping faster and harder into me.
“Yeah boy, you want more of your daddy’s cum. You want me to knock you up with my precious seed, don’t you?” He asked, breathing hard now as he smacked at my ass and continued thrusting deep inside me.
“Oh yes Daddy, I want you to knock your cute little white boy up,” I replied as I could feel some wetness on my dick. Oh God, he’s fucking the pre-cum out of me. “Oh God Daddy, I want you to breed me!”
He pulled his cock out until just the tip was at my opening and then he slammed back into me, sending tremors throughout my body. Oh God, what is he trying to do to me? I don’t know how long we’ve been at this, but my ass is starting to feel raw and the friction is starting to get intense.
“Get ready bitch, you asked for it and I’m about to give it to you!” He screamed as he started to shake a bit as I could feel his dick pumping his seed into me. Thank God, he’s shooting his load.
“Thank you very much Sir for the present,” I responded as he continued breathing heavy as he got his breathing under control and then leaned in close and then kissed my mouth again.
“That was good boy,” he replied as he smiled and then pulled out of me. “Go get us a bath ready so we can get cleaned up for our evening out.”
“Yes sir,” I responded, sliding off the desk, making sure to keep the contents of his seeding inside of me as he smiled and then walked out of the room.
Damn, where in the hell did that come from? I guess he just needed to rest up to get his energy. The first session we had earlier wasn’t that long and it sure as hell wasn’t that rough. This session is one I’m going to remember for the next couple of days.
To Be Continued…