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If I Ain’t Got You – Chapter 15

Chapter 15 — Not Exactly The New Year

Dec 31, 2002 – Orlando, FL – Florida Hospital – The Emergency Room’s Rape Trauma Unit – Kasai’s Room

“Calm down baby, he’s going to be okay,” Mark spoke, hugging JT.

“I can’t calm down Mark.  My baby has been violated and you’re telling me to calm down!”  JT snapped, pushing Mark away from him.  “I’m not going to calm down until I find the men that did that to him!”

“Baby no, let the police handle that.  You need to stay right here with me, so we can make sure that our boy is okay,” Mark said, kissing JT on his forehead as he cried.

“I knew I recognized that voice.  Well, if it isn’t the faggot better known as John Poole,” Mark and JT heard as they turned around to see a light-skinned black woman standing in the doorway to Kasai’s room.

“Baby, who in the hell is that?”  Mark asked, turning to look at the woman.

“I don’t need this crap right now.  Valgina, I’m in no damn mood to deal with you or your fucked up crap, so take it elsewhere,” JT stated, turning away from the woman as he hugged Mark again.

“This is just a touching scene.  Why are you down here, instead of working in your office?”  The woman asked, walking further into the room.

“Look lady, can’t you see that we’re in the middle of a private family moment here?  Please leave,” Mark said as he glared at her.

“Who in the hell are you?  I know you’re not his boy-toy Steve,” the woman stated as she got up in Mark’s face.

“Look woman and I say that very loosely, I don’t know you and you sure as hell don’t know me.  I think you should just walk out of here, before you bite off more than you can actually chew,” Mark stated, pointing his finger at her.

“Excuse me, you’re not the boss of me,” the woman stated, waving her hand dismissively in Mark’s face.

“No he’s not, but I am,” JT stated, turning around again as he wiped at his eyes.

“Yeah, like you have the guts to do anything to me.  You were a punk ass bitch in high school and you’re probably a punk ass bitch now,” the woman stated with a smirk on her face.

“I have more than guts right now Valgina.  I’m not a child anymore, so get the fuck out of here!”  JT snapped, pointing his finger at the door.

“I…” The woman stated before Mark interrupted her.

“You heard what my husband said.  Get the hell out of here, before you write a check that your ass can’t cash.  Get to steppin’, you skanky body part.  What kind of name is Valgina anyway?  It sounds like your parents wanted to name your skanky ass ‘pussy’, but were too afraid you would get used by a lot of pricks,” Mark stated as he waved his hand at her as he grabbed his sides, laughing at the expression on her face as she turned and then stomped away out of the room.

“Thanks baby,” JT stated, kissing Mark on the cheek.  “I don’t think I’ve ever seen that woman leave a room that fast before in my whole entire life.”

“Serves the ho right for coming in here.  Our son isn’t doing okay and she was only causing us more stress,” Mark said as he sat down in the chair next to Kasai’s bed and then pulled JT into his lap.

“I just wish there was a way to take all of this pain away from him,” JT said as he sighed.  “No one should ever be raped. We could’ve done something to prevent this.  Something we could’ve done to keep him from being hurt like this.”

“Baby, things happen.  We can’t control what happens in his life all the time,” Mark said with a frown as he hugged JT.  “I grounded him to keep him from that sort of trouble, but he snuck out of the house to go have fun instead.  I’m not saying that this is his fault, but if he would’ve just stayed home, like I told him to, he probably wouldn’t be here right now.”

“Baby…” JT said as Mark cut him off.

“I’m telling the truth and you know I am.  If he would’ve just stayed home, he wouldn’t be here right now,” Mark said as JT hugged him.

“I know, I just don’t know what to think right now,” JT said as he wiped at his eyes again.  “Too much shit happening, all at once.”

“Things are going to be okay baby, trust me,” Mark said as he kissed JT on his forehead as Kasai’s hand moved.

“Come on son, wake up, we miss you.  I know I was rough on you, but I love you buddy.  Come on back to us.  We miss you very, very much,” Mark said as the tears streamed down his face.

“Come on Kai, you can do it buddy.  Daddy’s right here, waiting for ya,” JT said as the tears streamed down his face.  “Please son, wake up for me.  Come on, I know you can do it.”

Late Evening – The Hospital’s Prison Ward

“Evening Jack, what’s with the new guy down the hall?”  A doctor asked, walking through the double doors that led into the ward.  “What’s the deal with him?”

“He’s been comatose like that, since he was brought into the infirmary,” the police office replied as the doctor walked over to a counter and picked up a chart.

“What happened to him?”  Eric Jones, the prison ward doctor asked, flipping through some pages on the chart.

“He was raped by another inmate in his cell.  The other inmate beat him pretty badly before any of the officers got to him.  He lost a lot of blood and…” The police officer rambled on as the doctor interrupted him.

“What?  Can you run all of that by me again?”  Dr. Jones said, looking at the officer strangely.

“He lost a lot of blood.  When we got to him, he was already unconscious,” the officer stated as the doctor shook his head.

“And you guys are just now bringing him here to the hospital?  What kind of jail are you people running over there?”  Dr. Jones asked, looking at the officer like he was crazy.

“Look man, I followed proper protocol and procedure first.  The doctors at the jail couldn’t figure out why he was still unconscious and it came down from the chief to go ahead and transfer him here to you guys,” the officer stated as he signed some papers on the clipboard and then handed them to the doctor.  “He’s your responsibility now.  Someone will be back later on to record his condition and advise the court of his condition.”

“What’s he in for?”  Dr. Jones asked.

“He raped someone in this very hospital,” the officer stated.  “Again, he’s your responsibility now.”

“Oh, that’s just preachy,” Dr. Jones stated as he sighed and then pressed the speakerphone button as the officer walked through the double doors and then entered a code into the security panel as a different set of doors opened to the rest of the hospital.

“What’s up Eric, what do you have?”  Dr. Tripp’s voice rattled through the speaker of the phone.

“Hi Andrew, I have a… Hold on a sec, let me look… Let’s see here, I have a Brian T. Lang up here.  He needs to be added to the admissions log,” Dr. Jones stated as he read through the rest of the chart.

“The name sounds familiar.  That’s it, he’s in a band.  Dang, we have a lot of celebrities in this hospital,” Dr. Tripp stated.  “Okay, just e-mail me his information or send the chart down and I’ll add him to the log.”

“I’ll do that,” Dr. Jones stated as he shook his head.  “Oh yeah, he’s a rape victim.  I think Danielle or JT might need to talk to him, once he wakes up.”

“Sorry guy, Danielle doesn’t work here anymore, she resigned,” Dr. Tripp stated.

“Say what?  Damn, she was a hot one.  I guess I won’t get the chance to go out with her now,” Dr. Jones stated as he sighed.

“Nope my friend, you won’t get a chance to do that.  She left to move out to California.  She’s going to marry her long-time sweetheart,” Dr. Tripp stated as Dr. Jones shook his head.

“Well that’s a double damn.  I guess I have to find another chick to score with.  She was totally hot,” Dr. Jones said as he sighed and then rubbed his crotch.  “So, who’s taking her place?”

“Some woman named Valgina Wililams,” Dr. Tripp stated as Dr. Jones looked at the phone, shook his head and then cracked a smile.

“Did you say vagina man?”  Dr. Jones asked, putting the clipboard down.

“No, I said Valgina,” Dr. Tripp replied, laughing.  “Val-gina, get it, Valgina Williams.”

“Damn man, that’s funny as hell.  You make it sound like we’ll have a big ass pussy, working here in the hospital,” Dr. Jones said as he shook his head, laughed again and then stopped when he noticed Brian moving around on his bed.  “Look Andrew, I have to go.  It seems Mr. Lang has awakened.”

“Okay man, keep me updated with information and don’t forget to send me that chart,” Dr. Tripp stated as the speaker made some clicking noises and then it turned off.

“Yeah yeah, it’s one hassle after another one.  I hope this Valgina woman is a looker like Danielle, if so, I’ll have my scorecard filled really soon,” Dr. Jones said as he turned his attention to Brian.

Down in Nick’s Hopital Room

“Where have you been Nick?”  Janet asked, standing at the window in Nick’s room as Steve and Nick walked into the room.

“I was in a counseling session with JT and Steve,” Nick answered, sitting down on his bed.

“You’ve been gone most of the morning and afternoon.  I didn’t know you had a session that early.  No one told me about it,” Janet stated as Aaron walked into the room.

“Dang mom, I told you about his session earlier when you were on the phone,” Aaron stated as he sat down on the bed next to Nick and then hugged him.  “Hey bro, how are you holding up?”

“I’m doing good, I think,” Nick replied, ruffling Aaron’s hair.

“Hey hey, watch the hair,” Aaron said as he laughed.

“Oh whatever, it’s just your hair.  I’m your big brother, I have a right to mess it up if I want to,” Nick said as he laughed as the doctor walked into the room.

Downstairs – The Emergency Room – The Nurses’ Station

“Where are you going?  It’s not time for you to get off yet,” Angela said, walking behind the desk as she watched Steve clock out.

“Look Angie, I’m not in the mood right now.  I just ran into that bitch Valgina and… and I’m going home for the rest of my shift,” Steve stated as the tears streamed down his face.

“What—what did she say Steve?”  Angela asked.

“She said enough to make me want to quit this bitch,” Steve said, shaking his head as he wiped at his eyes.  “I think—I think I need a drink.”

“No Steve, you don’t need a drink.  Just go home and chill out.  I’ll come over and cheek on you later on,” Angela stated as she hugged him.  “Don’t let Valgina get you down.  I don’t think she’s going to be around here long.”

“I hope she isn’t, I don’t know how long I can last if she is,” Steve stated as he walked past Angela, heading out the door as Kevin walked in with Joshua following close behind him.

“Oh, what in the hell is this?  He’s with that guy again,” Angela said to herself.  “I think something’s going on between those two.”

“Hello Angela,” Kevin spoke, walking up to the counter as Angela glared at him and then looked back down at the chart she was reading.

“What is it that you want Kevin?”  Angela sarcastically asked.

“I—I wanted to see how you were doing and to find out whether or not you were free for dinner tonight.  Can we go on that dinner date we had scheduled for the other night?”  Kevin asked.

“Why would I go to dinner with you Kevin?  Can you answer me that?”  Angela asked.

“Because…” Kevin said and then stopped speaking.

“Because what Kevin?”  Angela asked, looking back up at him as she flipped a page in the chart.

“Because I like you and I want to go out with you,” Kevin replied in a soft voice.

“You can’t like me, it seems you spend all of your time with that man over there,” Angela said as she pointed at Joshua.  “Are you seeing that guy there?”

“Ah…” Kevin stuttered.

“Are you?  If you are, I have no use for a gay man Kevin.  I’m not the type of woman that likes to be strung along, around someone’s finger, with my emotions being played with,” Angela stated as she side-eyed Kevin.

“Well I ah…” Kevin stammered.

“Just be quiet Kevin.  I already have my answer,” Angela stated, picking up the chart and walking away from the counter.

“Wait a minute Angela, give me a chance here,” Kevin called out, shaking his head as he moved away from the counter.

“Why should I give you a chance Kevin?  It’s obvious you’re not the man for me,” Angela said as she shook her head.  “Just tell me the truth Kevin, be honest with me, be honest with yourself.”

“I like you Angela, I really do.  The truth is, I was confused once and I fooled around with Josh in the past, but I don’t want him, I want a woman in my life,” Kevin stated as he reached for Angela’s hand and she let him take it.

“You were confused?  If you don’t want him, then why is he still around you?”  Angela asked, looking over Kevin’s shoulder to see that Joshua was still standing around.

“He—he’s trying to convince me that he’s what I want and need, but I think differently about that,” Kevin said as he shook his head.

“I’ll go out to dinner with you, but I have to think about this, so don’t expect anything else to happen besides dinner,” Angela stated.

“That’s cool with me.  All I ask for is a chance to show you me,” Kevin stated as he kissed Angela’s hand.

“Fine, but if you screw up or I catch you with him again, this is over Kevin,” Angela stated as she pointed her finger at him, poking him in the chest.  “There will be no ifs, ands or buts about it Kevin, completely over.  You will be out of my life, faster than marijuana in the hands of a pothead.”

“I understand Angela.  I’m going to do everything in my power to do right by you,” Kevin said with a smile.

“You do that,” Angela stated as Kevin kissed her hand again.  “I’ll see you around seven.”

“I’ll be here,” Kevin said as he looked at his watch.

“Good,” Angela said as she smiled and then walked off.

Late Evening – Downtown Orlando – A Trendy Night Club

“Hey man, what can I get for you?”  The bartender asked as Alex McCall walked over to the bar and then took a seat.

“Yeah man, let me get a shot of tequila… better yet, just bring me the whole damn bottle with a glass,” Alex said as the bartender looked at him strangely, did as he asked and then placed the bottle on the counter in front of him.  “Thanks.”

“Welcome,” the bartender replied as Alex placed some money on the counter, grabbed the bottle and glass and then walked away.

“Hey, watch where you’re going man,” Steve spoke up as Alex bumped into him.

“No, you watch where the fuck you’re going guy,” Alex said as he pushed Steve backwards.  “You bumped into me retard.”

“No jerk, I didn’t bump into you, you bumped into me!”  Steve snapped, grabbing Alex by the collar of his shirt and pushing him up against a table as the bartender and a bouncer rushed over to the two of them.

“You two, break it up or I’ll toss you both out of here on your asses,” the bartender stated, pushing both men apart.

“He started it,” Steve whined, trying to get a hold of Alex again.

“I don’t care who started it, it ends right now, got it!”  The bartender snapped, looking between both men.  “If I hear anything else from either of you, your asses will be tossed out on the street like trash, you feel me?”

“Fine,” Steve replied, calming down as he turned away from the bartender.

“Yeah fine, I got it,” Alex said as the bartender pointed his finger at both men and then walked away with the bouncer.

“I—I know you.  You were at the hospital this morning.  I saw you leaving a patient’s room,” Steve said, looking at Alex closely.

“Yeah, so what,” Alex said as he waved his hand at Steve dismissively.

“Look buddy, I don’t know what your…” Steve said as Alex cut him off.

“I—I’m sorry dude; I’m having a really bad day.  I didn’t mean to take it out on you,” Alex said, looking down as he sighed.

“It’s okay, we both seem to be having one of those,” Steve said, walking over to a table and then sitting down.  “Would you like to join me?”

“Sure, as long as you let me buy you a drink,” Alex said as he looked at Steve with a smile on his face.

“That’s a deal,” Steve replied, smiling at Alex.

“What would you like?”  Alex asked as he placed his bottle of tequila on the table.

“Whatever you’re having, is totally fine with me,” Steve replied, smiling again.

“As you can see, I have this bottle of tequila,” Alex said, tapping the bottle and then winking his eye at Steve.

“You must be really having a bad day, to have the whole bottle,” Steve said with a frown.

“It seems like this whole day has been one big mess,” Alex said with a frown on his face.  “What got you down, on this hectic, but lovely last day of the year and all?”

“Someone from my past returned and that’s a very bad thing,” Steve replied as he looked down and then sighed.

“Yeah, I know how that goes,” Alex replied as he shook his head.  “I kept a very bad secret from my friends and it ended up causing one of them a great deal of pain.  If I had told my friends about what was going on, I wouldn’t be having such a bad day right now.”

“Does this have anything to do with Mr. Canton?”  Steve asked.

“Mr. Canton?  Oh, you mean Nick.  Yeah, it involves him,” Alex replied as he poured another glass full of the liquid and knocked it back as Steve’s eyes widened.

“Does your secret have anything to do with the person responsible for him trying to hurt himself?”  Steve asked.

“I—I guess so,” Alex replied, sighing as he knocked another glass full back.

“Are—are you the person responsible for what happened?”  Steve asked, watching Alex closely.

“No!”  Alex snapped, covering his mouth quickly as he looked over his shoulder to see if the bartender or the bouncer heard him.  “I’m not the person responsible for that, but I could’ve prevented it… I could’ve stopped him before it got to…”

“How so?  How do you figure into all of that?”  Steve asked, still watching Alex closely.

“It’s a long story,” Alex replied, looking down at the table.

“Well I have nothing but time this evening,” Steve said, pouring himself a glass of the liquid pacifier.

“Well, it all started…” Alex started, telling Steve how he and the other members of the Fifth Avenue Boys met and how Nick ended up in the position he’s currently in.

“I understand your position here Alex, but he’s your friend.  You should’ve told the others what was going on.  I know you said you didn’t want to get involved in their relationship, but I would want JT, Mark or Angie to tell someone if my boyfriend was hurting me,” Steve said as he looked down.  “Not that I would have a boyfriend like that… Regardless, I wouldn’t allow myself to get into that kind of relationship.”

“So, you’re gay too?”  Alex said, smiling weakly as he looked over the rim of his glasses at Steve.

“Ah yeah, I’m gay too,” Steve replied, watching Alex for any signs of a reaction and then he looked down at his hands.

“That’s cool,” Alex responded as he looked over at Steve.  “We’ve been sitting here for a while now.  How about we go someplace else and chill out and have something to eat?”

“That sounds good to me,” Steve said as he and Alex got up from the table and then walked out of the bar.

A Few Hours Previously – Florida Hospital – Justin’s Hospital Room

“I love him Momma, there’s nothing more to say about it,” Justin said, shaking his head.

“I know you do son, but his mother doesn’t want you two being together,” Lynn stated, rubbing Justin’s back as he cried.

“If I can’t have him in my life, then I wish I were dead,” Justin declared, sniffling as Lynn shook her head.

“No son, don’t talk like that,” Lynn said as Jamie, Christina and Joey walked into the room.

“What’s poppin’ around here?”  Christina asked, walking over to Justin and then sitting down in his lap.

“That damn Janet Canton is taking Nick away from me,” Justin replied as Christina looked at him strangely and then up at Lynn.

“What?  Why is she doing a thing like that?”  Christina asked as Jamie looked at Lynn also.

“She doesn’t want her son being with me because I’m a fucking cripple,” Justin replied.

“We’ve told you over and over again to not talk like that.  You’re not a cripple.  You’re just walking challenged right now,” Christina stated, getting up out of Justin’s lap as she got on her knees in front of him.  “Don’t let Janet Canton make decisions for you or Nick.  If you two have feelings for each other, then you should do what you can to not let her change those feelings.  Tell Nick, tell him how much you care for him Justin.”

“He—he knows how much I care for him already Chrissy.  It’s not him, it’s his damn mother that doesn’t care if I care about him or not.  She’s determined to keep us apart,” Justin stated as Lynn shook her head and then took his hand.

“What brought all of this up?”  Jamie asked, looking at Justin and then back to Lynn.

“He’s scared because Nick’s going to be released from here tomorrow.  Once he leaves here, he and Justin won’t be able to be together.  Janet has already told the doctor that she’s going to take him back to Tampa and get him some help there,” Lynn explained to the others in the room.

“Apparently, she doesn’t know it’s not wise to interfere in the lives of other people,” Joey stated as he folded his arms across his chest and then shook his head.  “She’s a real bad bitch.”

“Watch your mouth young man,” Lynn spoke, chastising Joey as she shook her head.

“Come on, we’re talking about Janet Canton here.  You know, the same woman that plotted and schemed to get her husband killed and tried to steal money from her other son.  Janet’s a heartless woman.  She can be downright ruthless,” Jamie stated as he shook his head.

“She’s a heartless woman, but we have to do something to keep her from taking Nick from me,” Justin said as the tears streamed down his face.  “Please guys; please don’t let her take Nick away from me.  I can’t bear it if he’s not here with me.”

“I—I’ll see what I can find out, but if the doctor is releasing him, then there’s really nothing more that can be done, unless Nick himself, chooses not to go with her,” Lynn stated with a frown.

“Where’s the JT guy?  I haven’t seen him since you left this morning,” Jamie stated as he looked back at Justin.

“Something happened to his son, so he’s around here somewhere,” Justin replied, shrugging his shoulders.

To Be Continued…

Celebrity Fantasy – It’s Your Birthday

Title: It’s Your Birthday (1/1)
Author: JT Poole
Starring: JT Poole, Wes Ramsey, Tyler Posey, AJ McLean, Melissa Benoist and Julie S.
Rating: Who Knows
Disclaimers: I don’t know any of the celebrities mentioned.  I don’t know anything about their sexuality or any other bit of information about the people mentioned.  This story is all fiction, for entertainment purposes only.  It’s not real, so don’t take it for real life people.  Again, this is for entertainment only.  Nothing written in this little work of fiction isn’t meant to imply anything about the celebrities mentioned.
Warnings: ‘Love For All Seasons’ sang by Christina Aguilera.  I don’t own the song and I didn’t write it.



June 5, 2017 – Manhattan, NY – Club Synergy

I must’ve been out of my damn mind, agreeing to come out to this club when Julie suggested it.  I know it’s my birthday and all, but I could’ve just stayed home.  That was the problem, she didn’t want me staying home.  She claims that since she’s known me, all I do is spend all of my time at home when I’m not working.  In her words, “Every year on your birthday JT, you do the same thing, you stay home with Jinxy and that’s not how you’re supposed to celebrate a birthday.”  After all, she was trying to do her friendly duty to get me out of the house to have some fun.  So, to stop her from whining and poking at me, I agreed to go out with her and her other friends.


After a half hour ride on the subway and a short walk, we arrived at this strange place called the Synergy Club.  It didn’t take us long to get in, the bouncer looked at Julie, smiled and ushered us right on in.  I thought only celebrities got into clubs that quick, but oh well, here we are.  I’ve been sitting at the bar, knocking back sodas for about an hour while Julie was out on the dance floor, dancing with her friend Chip.

So far, so good.  Nothing bad has happened to me and I’m not being picked on or harassed by anyone.  I guess I can take that as a good sign and just go with the flow.  This place seems like a nice place to hang out, but I would rather be home, relaxing with Jinxy.  Turning around to get the bartender’s attention, I spotted Julie dancing with this cute blond-haired guy.  Damn, the guy was all up on Julie like he was trying to be a new part of her body or something.  My mother always told me that if you dance like that, a baby would be sure to follow.  Well, being that I’m gay, I don’t have that problem.  Finally getting the attention of the bartender, I got my drink and knocked it back.  I guess this is a good way to celebrate a birthday as any.

The DJ was spinning some cool tunes that had me bopping my head to the beat.  As I took another sip of my drink, I looked around and noticed a guy standing across the room, watching me.  Feeling a bit self-conscious, I grabbed my glass and moved to the other side of the bar, hopefully getting out of his line of sight.

“Hey JT man, come on and dance with us,” Julie said as she grabbed my hand, smiling widely as I looked over her shoulder to see the blond-haired guy waiting for her to come back.

“What happened to Chip?”  I asked.

“Chip is dancing with his friend, I’m dancing with my boyfriend AJ.  Come on JT, stop being a bore and come on, hit the dance floor with us,” she said as I caught another glimpse of the guy from the other side of the bar, watching me.

“I guess I can,” I said as an up-beat techno song started playing.  “Who’s that messing with your friend?”

“Oh hell naw, that’s that ho Melissa I was telling you about,” Julie replied, surely changing into diva bitch mode.  “She best be getting away from mah man before I have to kick that ass.”

“Julie,” I said as she held up her hand, stopping me from talking as she moved away from me quickly and the next thing I knew, I saw her pulling the woman by the hair and pushing her face into the floor, over and over again.  “Julie, girl you better stop before the bouncer gets over here.”

“Tiny’s a good friend of mine, he’ll probably help me beat this ho down!  Look at the SuperGirl wannabe beach.  You ain’t so super huh!”  Julie snapped as the bouncer walked over and pulled her away from the woman as she struggled to get away from him.

“Come on Jules, leave the heffa alone.  I’m sure she’s had enough,” Tiny, the bouncer said as he helped the woman named Melissa up off the floor and then escorted her off the dance floor.

“Julie baby, I need you to calm down,” the guy named AJ said as he wrapped his arms around her and then kissed her cheek.

“I’m calm now baby.  I just can’t stand to stomach the thought of Melissa putting her hands on you again,” Julie stated as a strange white guy walked over to the three of us.

“Hey Jules, the VIP lounge you requested is ready for you and your party,” the man said as he hugged her and then shook AJ’s hand.

“Come on JT, we’re about to celebrate your birthday,” Julie said, grabbing my hand as we followed the guy through the crowd of dancing people as I noticed that strange guy from earlier, that was watching me, was moving in the same direction.


What in the hell have I gotten myself into?  I’m at some club I’ve never been to before.  Julie’s kicking ass and I have some strange guy following me around.  This is turning out to be a strange birthday for me.  Since we’ve come into some light, I notice that Julie’s mystery boyfriend is AJ McLean of the Backstreet Boys.  Talk about someone leading a secret life.  I never knew she was rubbing elbows with celebrities.  Knowing how Julie is, who would’ve known that?  So I wonder what else my friend is hiding from me.

Since we came into this VIP Lounge, I’ve met AJ, his band mates, Grant Gustin, Alex O’Loughlin, LL Cool J, Chris O’Donnell, Eric Christian Olsen, Candice Patton, Danielle Panabaker and Carlos Valdes.  I was shocked that Julie hung around these people all the time.  You learn something new about your friends every day.  As I turned around to head towards the door, the guy that had been watching me from the dance floor walked in and AJ walked over and shook hands with him.  Stopping in my tracks, AJ led the guy over to me and introduced him as Wes Ramsey.  I knew he looked familiar when I saw him the first time; I just didn’t make the pieces fit.  It’s the hair; he looks nothing like he does when he’s on TV.

After an hour of socializing with most of the people in the room, I was ready to call it a night and go home.  Almost laughing myself to death watching Alex O’Loughlin get sauced was a good enough birthday present for me.  I bet that’ll end up in one of the tabloids soon.  As I made my way over to Julie and AJ, I noticed that Chip had come back into the room and he had Tyler Posey with him.  When I saw Tyler, I almost died right there.  Damn, the guy is hot… Even in a night club with drunk people around, he’s still hot.  Regardless of all of that, he can maul me anytime he wants.

“Hey Julie, I think I’m going to call it a night,” I said as she grabbed my hand and stopped me from walking away.

“Come on JT, please stay here with us.  The party isn’t over yet,” she said, looking at me closely as Chip, Tyler and Wes walked closer to us.

“Hi there, so you’re the birthday boy,” Wes said as he extended his hand to me.  “Are you enjoying your birthday?”

“I can say it wasn’t boring like all the others over the last couple of years,” I replied, not looking up at him.

“Maybe we can do something to make up for all the other years,” Wes said as he took my hand.  “Why don’t you join me on the dance floor?”

“I… Ah… Well…” I stuttered as I saw his hand move towards me as he lifted my hand to his mouth and kissed the top of my hand.

“Come on, I think you’ll have a better time with me, Tyler and Chip,” he said as he pulled me closer to him.  “I think us gay guys need to leave these hetero freaks alone.”

“I… Ah… I guess so,” I replied as Julie smiled at me as she went back to kissing on AJ as I allowed Wes to escort me back out to the dance floor.


Damn it, I couldn’t take it much longer; I had to have him in me and in me right now!  We had been teasing each other since JT’s party in the VIP lounge and I’m sure he was just as horny as I was.  When JT left with Wes, I had nothing more to worry about, well except for getting some and that is what I plan on doing and I’m going to do that right now.

I grabbed AJ’s hand and planted a huge kiss on him.  Our lips locked and our tongues began their sexual, lust-filled duel as I’m sure that was all that was needed to wake up what I wanted from him.  As I laid back on the leather seat in the back of the limo, I lifted my arms and took off my shirt, while he loosened the belt to my pants and snapped the button.  Breathing hard, I tried to get his shirt off as I kissed his mouth again, not caring that we had barely gotten the door shut.

“Oh God AJ, I really need you baby, I can’t take it any longer,” I breathed out as he leaned down and kissed me hard as he got my pants down and my bra off.

“Oh God Jules, you’re so hot!”  AJ exclaimed, attacking my neck as I started working with his pants.

I enjoyed the heat of his mouth on me.  I always loved the feel of any part of him in contact with me.  As he continued working me over, I could feel the shivers shooting up and down my spine.  At that very moment, I felt his hand move up my leg and he was rubbing my clit.

“Oh God!”  I screamed as he closed his mouth over mine to muffle my screams.

He began to move his hands down more but once he brushed my spot again, I knew I wanted him to keep doing that.

“Don’t stop AJ, don’t stop!”  I yelled, turning the tables on him as I pushed him down in the seat as I got his pants down his legs, leaving them hanging around his ankles as he leaned up on his elbows, looking me in the face.

“Jules, I can’t wait, I need to be inside you and now,” he said, looking at me with lust and desire in his eyes.

“What are you waiting for baby, you know what to do,” I replied as he pulled me close, attacking my breast as I shank down on his lovestick, feeling him slide quickly into me.


We had been dancing for a while when Wes pulled me close and then kissed me.  To say the least, I was shocked to hell.  What did he think he was doing?  He just made a big mistake and that’s a mistake I won’t let happen again.

“I’m sorry, I have to go,” I said, looking down at the floor as I moved away from him and then walked away.

“JT wait, where are you going?”  Wes called after me as I started moving faster, trying to put some distance in between the two of us.

“No, I’ve had enough of this.  I’m going home,” I replied, getting to the door as Tiny looked at me strangely.

“Is there a problem JT?”  He asked.

“No, I’m just leaving.  If you see Julie, would you tell her I went home?”  I asked, not looking up at him as he patted me on the back.  “Thank you and have a good night.”

“Goodnight JT,” Tiny replied as I got outside, heading towards the subway terminal.

“JT!  JT wait!”  I heard Wes call out, still walking behind me.

“What is it that you want?  You had your fun, now it’s time for me to call it a night,” I said as I looked away from him quickly, not wanting him to see my anger and my sadness.

“I’ve had my fun?  What about you?  Didn’t you have fun too?”  He asked as he reached out to touch my hand as I moved back from him.

“Yeah I did, a little bit too much,” I replied as I turned around and started walking again.  “Thanks for the fun, good night.”

“Good night?  I’m not ready to call it a night yet!”  He yelled behind me as I ignored him and kept on walking.

“Whatever,” I said, shaking my head as I continued walking.

“JT, don’t leave!”  He yelled as I stopped for a second and let a few tears fall before I let my heart knock me back into reality and I started walking again, heading for the subway terminal.

Just keep on going JT, he’s not going to follow you forever.  When I make it home, I can take a long hot bath and forget that this night ever happened.  That’s what I need, a nice hot both.  That should do the trick.

“JT please, I’ll just keep on following you,” I heard Wes say as I looked up to see that he was almost behind me.

“No you won’t man.  I know how to walk into a police station or somewhere and wait until you leave me alone,” I said as he frowned and then stopped walking.

“Did… Did I do something wrong?  I—I thought we were having a good time together,” he spoke as I noticed the tears in his eyes.

“We were having too much fun, the kind of fun that I don’t need!”  I snapped as I took a breath and then took off running for the subway terminal.

“Wait!”  He yelled, making a mad dash to catch up to me. “Will you just stop and tell me what I did wrong!  Can you at least tell me that?”

“You didn’t do anything wrong at all,” I softly spoke as I leaned up against the railing of the terminal entrance.

“If I didn’t do anything wrong, why are we both out here crying then?  It’s your birthday and I’m trying to help you celebrate it, but instead, we’re out here, shedding tears.  We should be somewhere happy, together,” he stated, stepping closer to me again and then lifting my chin as he kissed my lips.

Julie’s Condo

Damn, I’m surprised we made it into her place without drawing attention to ourselves.  I’m sure we did enough of that back at the club.  I’m sure someone heard her scream a few times while we were fucking around there.  I’m sure she had came at least two of three times before the car started moving to bring us back here.

When we arrived here I was shocked that we could run out of the car, get through the lobby and into the elevator without being spotted in our half-dressed condition.  As soon as we got in here, she pushed me up against the door and we got started again.  I thought I was the horn dog, but she’s an animal.

As soon as we were in her bedroom, she commanded me to sit on the edge of the bed and to pull my briefs back off.  As I sat there, doing what she wanted, she threw her pants and shirt across the room someplace and then she sat down in my lap, pushing me down on the bed.  Before I knew it, she was rocking her hips, back and forth, teasing my cock the way she was.

“Make sure you have some leverage baby,” she said, easing back a little bit more as I slipped back into my rightful place inside of her.  “I’m going to ride you like you were one of those horses on JT’s uncle’s ranch!”

“Oh shit yeah baby, you’re mind!  Whose ass is this?”  I asked, smacking her ass playfully as she licked her lips and then kissed my mouth.

“You know whose ass it is.  It’s been yours for the last year or more, but who’s counting,” she answered as she rocked her hips faster and harder, causing my orgasm to approach a little quicker.

“Stop that baby before it’s all over with,” I whispered in her ear as she took that as a sign to rock faster anyway.

“Do it baby, do it!  I want to feel your love!”  She screamed as someone banged on the walls.  “Mind your own fucking business!  I’m fucking my man over here!  Damn crazy ass neighbors!”

“Baby, you’re an animal,” I said as she rocked on top of me frantically this time as I knew she was climaxing.

“Oh God!  Oh God!  That’s it!  Yeah baby, that’s it!”  She screamed as she collapsed on my chest, breathing hard as I started to shoot my load as I held her tighter to my body.  “Oh Damn, that was so awesome baby.”

“Damn right it was awesome baby,” I said, kissing her as I could feel myself harden again.  “I think I need another round.”

“You need another round?  Uh oh,” she spoke, closing her eyes, knowing what I was about to do.  “Let me catch my breath first baby.”

“No time,” I said as I flipped us over on the bed as I placed her legs on my shoulder and then thrust into her missionary style.  “Shit yes baby, I love it like this.”

“Oh God, I think… Oh yeah baby… Shit yeah… fuck me baby, fuck me!”  She screamed as the banging on the wall started again.


“Look, I know something is upsetting you, but why don’t you just tell me what it is.  I’m sure we can solve the problem” I spoke as he looked at me and then looked down at the subway entrance.

“Look Wes, I’m just a normal guy.  I don’t just get into situations like this with…” He said as I kissed his mouth again.  “Wes…”

“Is t the celebrity thing JT?”  I asked.  “Are you scared this might turn into a one-time thing or something?”

“Yeah, that’s what you celebrities do.  You love and leave ‘em and I’m not really in the mood to have my heart broken again,” he said as he looked away from me as I could see more tears falling from his eyes.

“JT please… I’m not that kind of man.  I’m not going to love you and leave you.  I would like to love you and stay,” I said as I lifted his chin so he could see my face.  “It’s like love at first sight with me JT.  When Julie said that she knew someone that I would like, I thought she was pulling my leg, but you’re the most handsomeness man I’ve seen in a long time and I surely believe you have a nice heart.”

“You know nothing of my heart!  You hardly know me damn it!”  He snapped.

“That’s because we’ve been wasting our time with you running away and me having to chase you.  Please JT, will you please come back with me?”  I asked as he looked away, making a move to move as I grabbed his arm, stopping him as I started to sing to him.

Hey there boy did ya happen to know
Wherever you go I’ll follow
Ooh baby like a cool breeze
On a summer day

When you’re near me
I don’t know what to do
I feel like a fool
Like a school boy
A true blue boy
Who wants to know
Can you come out and play

You make me feel the way
A man is supposed to feel
Let me show you
Show you that my love’s for real

“I—I know that song,” he said as he looked up at me strangely.  “That’s Christina Aguilera’s song, ‘Love For All Seasons’.  I know you can sing and all, but you can’t be biting her song like that man.  That’s a beat down in the making.”

“I’m not trying to bite her song JT, it’s not like I’m going to rush into the studio and record it for myself or anything.  That was the only song I could think up to convey what I’m feeling for you right now,” he said as he smiled and continued singing.

I’ll be the rain in your summer
The chill in your fall
I’ll be watcha want
Anything at all

I’ve got a love for all seasons
A love for all time
I’ll be the fire in your winter
The sun in your spring
I’ll do what you want
Give ya everything
I’ve got a love for all seasons
A love for all time

“Oh really?  What’s to say that you won’t grow tired of me by daybreak?”  He asked as I shook my head at him.

“If I was going to grow tired of you, I would have done so back there when you made that mad dash down here.  I may not be older than you, but that run took it out of me.  How old are you anyway?”  I asked as he looked at me, looked down and then shook his head as I grabbed his hand.  “Age is nothing but a number, remember that.”

“I’m 42 and how about you?”  He asked.

“I’m 39, not that much of a difference,” I said as he looked up at me.  “I was shocked when you took off the way you did.  I wasn’t expecting you to do that.”

“I’m capable of doing a whole lot of things that you wouldn’t expect,” he said as I moved closer to him, hoping he wouldn’t push me away as he took my hand and held it in his own.

“I’m sure you are,” I said as he looked down again.

“I’m not looking to get hurt,” he said as he looked up at me again, looking like a little child would.  “I’m taking a big chance here and I don’t want to regret this.”

“I don’t want to get hurt and I don’t want you to regret anything either JT.  I feel the same way you do.  So I ask of you the same thing you ask of me,” I said as he pulled me in and then kissed my lips.  “Why don’t we go back to the club now?”

“No, I think we need to go to my house,” he said as he kissed my mouth again.

JT’s House

When we arrived at my place, the first emotion I felt was fear.  What if this does turn into one of those one night stands?  I know what, I’d be crushed is what!  As we stood in the living room, I started to get self-conscious about every part of my life and myself.  What in the hell does a big-time celebrity see in me anyway?  I would be some nameless person to add under his fucking belt is what I would be!  Damn JT, what in the hell have you gotten yourself into here?

Alright JT, calm down.  You haven’t done anything with him, you haven’t lost anything yet.  Just bow out gracefully and call it a night.  I don’t need to get my feelings hurt because I can’t hang with the rest of the world.  What am I saying here?  He’s Julie’s friend too.  She would probably ream me for this one if I do something to hurt this man.

“JT, are you okay?”  Wes asked, stepping closer to me as I tensed up a bit.

“Yeah, I’m okay Wes.  I’m just trying to work some things out in my mind is all,” I replied as I looked down at the floor as we moved closer to the bed.

“This is so cute, it really is,” he said as he kissed me on the cheek.  “JT baby, we don’t have to do anything you don’t want to.  This is our time.  Whatever we do, we do because we want to.”

“True, but I don’t know what I want to do to you… Oops, I can’t trust my emotions right now,” I said as he smiled at me.  Lawd, if I could blush, I was probably doing it.

“So, what is it that you would want to do to me JT?”  He asked, stepping closer to me as he kissed my mouth again, this time unbuttoning my shirt and then pulling it out of my pants.  “Does it involve something like what we’re doing right now?”

“Y—yes it does,” I stuttered as he nibbled on my ear as he pushed my shirt open and over my shoulders, allowing it to fall to the floor as he worked on my belt buckle next.

“How about this here?”  He asked, his hand resting over my crotch.  “It seems like that’s a growing spot.”

“It is,” I answered, my breathing picking up as he massaged my manhood through the cloth of my boxers, since he had slid my pants down my legs.  “I feel so underdressed here.”

“Why don’t you help remedy that situation,” he said, kissing my mouth again as I unbutton his shirt and then pulled it off him as I quickly moved to his belt, working hurriedly with his pants.

Damn, if he didn’t think of me as an aggressive person, I’m sure he’d changed that view by now.  Within seconds I had him completely naked, while I still had my boxers on.  He looked down and then smiled as he reached over and pushed my boxers down my legs as he stepped closer to me, allowing our cocks touch.

Oh God, this feels so fucking good!  It’s been a long time since I’ve gotten this kind of action.  Come on JT, get a grip man (no pun intended), don’t go showing your nervousness, now isn’t the time for that.  Just go with the flow and show him that you’re happy and enjoy the THINGS he’s doing.

“That feels so good,” I said as he eased me back on the bed and then sat down on top of my hips.

“Yeah, it does feel good JT.  I think it would feel better if it was exercising within me right now,” he said as he leaned forward, kissing my mouth hard.  “I want you JT, I want you to make love to me.”

Damn, this was getting intense and going a little bit further than what I had planned in my head.  The passion that was building between us for the whole night was being released now.  I sat up on the bed and then moved the covers away, sitting there admiring the man in front of me.  My heart skipping a few beats, I thought of a life of having this man with me all the time…


with the look of fear and excitement on his face, I’m sure I was moving things a little bit fast for him, but I knew he wanted it as much as I did.  I wanted to feel every inch of his body connected to mine and to start, I wanted the two of us to make wild, passionate, monkey love.

I pushed JT on his back and then climbed on top of him, straddling his hips.  Facing him, I leaned down and kissed his mouth as my ass lingered inches away from his cock as I gyrated my hips, feeling his cock rub teasingly on my ass.  Damn, I was so hot for his body.  I’m sure the love making is going to be spectacular.  Please God, please don’t let this end badly.

Moving things along, I felt his stiff cock teasing my ass and lower back again.  I leaned down and kissed his lips again as I wrapped my arms around him, holding him close as we continued to kiss.  Taking the hint, he wrapped his arms around me, bringing us even closer, or in my mind we were closer.  Damn, his manly scent is driving me crazy, making me hotter by the second.  God, if we don’t do something now, I might just shoot my load without him.  I don’t think I’ve ever been turned on this much.

Thank you God for allowing me to find such a beautiful black man that has so much love and emotion in his heart, that he’s scared to let it out.  Oh God, just let him fuck me and make me his.  I don’t know if I can take much more of this.  Sliding my ass down so that his cock would press harder against my back door, I kissed his mouth more and touched him to occupy my mind until things started happening.  With each touch of his cock to my ass, sent shiver after shiver up and down my spine.  Oh God, he doesn’t know what he’s doing to me here.

“Oh God JT, I need you baby, I really need you inside of me,” I said, moving my ass a little bit more urgently as he moaned.

I eased my body downward, letting his cock slide across my cock as he moaned a little louder.  As I moved down his body, I started paying attention to his neck, his shoulders and his nipples.   As I slid past his bellybutton, I used my tongue to lick around his navel quickly as he laughed at that as he ran his fingers through my hair.

Thinking of the song I sang earlier, those words were replaced with something by ‘2 Live Crew’ that would surely get things going here, but I held my composure enough not to do that.  This is his birthday and our first time.  We can save that ghetto ass stuff for another night.  Tonight is totally different and it’s going to be all about making him happy on his birthday.  I’m going to be making love to my—my new boyfriend.

Oh thank you God for allowing us to be lying here, touching and exploring each other this way.  I’m totally in control of things right now and I like this.  I’m liking this just as much as he is.  He seems to be happy with what I’m doing and that’s totally okay with me.  As long as I have him here, I’m going to act out a few things I’ve fantasized doing with the person I would fall in love with.

“Don’t be afraid to ask me to do something you want me to do, I’ll do it you know,” I said as he nodded his head as he opened his eyes.

Looking up at me, I saw that lustful look in his eyes and I knew he was thinking about some of the things I wanted to do.  This guy is really out for my heart.  The closer I got to his dick, I would tease him by touching his balls or going back up to kiss his mouth quickly, causing him to tremble a bit.  As I got back up to what he was begging me to get to, I held his cock in my hand and then licked the precum that had settled at the tip of his dick.

“Oh God Wes, do it, I need that so much,” he whispered, urging me to keep going with his hands on my head and his thighs, rubbing my chest.

I knew he wanted me to suck him, his eyes told the whole story for him.  Watching him, I went down on his dick and then came all the way off of it quickly as he gasped.  Not taking my eyes off his, the look on his face said that he wasn’t happy with what I just did, but he wasn’t angry either.  The sounds coming from his mouth told me that he was really in need of me pleasuring him and he wasn’t in the mood for more of my teasing.  Kissing the side of his leg, I decided to give him what he wanted.  Using my tongue to lick teasingly around the head of his cock, he moaned out and then grabbed the sheets as he thrust his hips upward.  Taking him fulling into my mouth, I sucked his dick and played with his balls.

“Oh God yes!”  He exclaimed, his voice ringing throughout the room as he pounded his fist into the mattress.

Massing his dick with my tongue, I made love to his dick as he thrust his hips upward, fucking my mouth.  Not wanting him to cum, I pulled off of him and paid some attention to his balls and his taint.  Opening his legs more to give me access, he allowed me to use my tongue and fingers to play with his ass.

“That feels so good Wes.  Don’t stop, please don’t stop,” he moaned as I caressed his legs.

Upon my return to his cock, I found it covered with more precum, which had oozed out and down the side.  I knew that it was now time to give him what he really wanted.  Tapping his legs to get his attention, he looked up at the smile on my face.

“Are you ready baby?”  I asked.

“You know I’m ready baby,” he replied, smiling widely as the realization hit that we needed some lube and a condom.

Rolling around on the bed, he opened the nightstand drawer, pushing things around inside the drawer, finding the lube and a condom and then returning to his original position.  Positioning myself over him, I stroked his dick a bit while applying the condom and the lube.  Getting everything ready for our first time, I crawled back up the bed to kiss his mouth as he wrapped his arms around me and then pulled me down to him.

Damn, I’m so starting to like this more and more.  I’ve been craving this for a long time now and I have it.  As my mind was occupied with things of the future, I hardly noticed his manhood sliding into my ass as he thrust into me and I felt his pubic hair on my ass.  In one big swoop, he was all in me, all seven and a half inches of him.  God, this feels so wonderful.  It’s been a while since I gave myself to anyone like this.


I awoke to some strange noises outsides of the bedroom and the smell of coffee.  I crawled out of bed and searched the floor for any signs of my underwear.  As I walked into the bathroom to handle my morning ritual, I wondered to myself was last night all a dream.  Sighing, I took a piss and then washed my face.  Looking at the reflection of myself in the mirror, I sighed again and then brushed my teeth as the smell of eggs, grits and bacon filled my nostrils.  Strolling into the kitchen, I spotted Wes cooking breakfast and saw Julie sitting at the table with a cup of coffee in one hand and the newspaper in the other.

“Well look who decided to wake up.  How you doing sleeping beauty?  Did you sleep well?”  Julie asked, looking over the top of the paper at me.

“I hope he slept alright, he had me to keep him company in that big boring bedroom,” Wes stated as he turned the gas off and then walked over, kissing my mouth as he playfully smacked my ass.

“Yeah, I slept all right,” I said with a smile as he walked back over to the stove.

“I hope you didn’t mind me raiding the refrigerator and cooking us some breakfast,” he said as he smiled and turned his attention to stirring the grits.

“No, I don’t mind at all, I’m starved,” I replied as Julie winked at me and then placed her hand on top of mine.

“Happy Birthday JT,” she said as she leaned over and then kissed me on the cheek.


The End