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If I Ain’t Got You – Chapter 17

Chapter 17 — Ringing in the New Year

Jan 1, 2003 – Orlando, FL – Florida Hospital – The Emergency Room’s Rape Trauma Unit – Kasai’s Room  

“Get away from me!  Don’t come near me!”  Kasai screamed as Mark rushed into the room.

“I’m here buddy, I’m here.  Shhh it’s going to be okay,” Mark spoke, doing his best to comfort Kasai as he wrapped his arms around him, hugging him to his chest.

“Daddy Mark, he’s here, he’s here!”  Kasai screamed out.

“I know, I know.  Just calm down, it’s going to be okay baby boy, it’s going to be all right,” Mark spoke, rocking Kasai back and forth.

“Is JT coming down Mark?”  Dr. Tripp asked, looking around quickly.

“Yeah, he’s on his way down.  I think he was getting into his chair when I left to come down here,” Mark replied.

“Just so you know, when he gets down here, do what you can to keep him calm.  This is all going to explode beyond this here,” Dr. Tripp stated with a frown.

“What do you mean Andy?”  Mark asked, looking over at Dr. Tripp strangely.

“Let’s just say that one of the guys responsible for hurting Kai, he has some very powerful parents,” Dr. Tripp stated as he looked down.

“I don’t care if his parents have power or not!  This guy hurt my boy and he needs to be punished for it,” Mark said, shaking his head as Dr. Tripp sighed.

“I know that Mark, but I’m just saying that this could possibly get pushed under a rug somewhat and never be heard about again,” Dr. Tripp stated with a frown.

“This will be heard about until the creeps responsible are punished for what they did to him Andy,” Mark said as JT’s voice could be heard outside the room.

“Hey Jared,” JT said as he rolled into the room.  “Officer, where is the person that hurt my child?”

“Ah JT,” Dr. Tripp said, motioning with his head as JT looked at him strangely.

“Andy, where I the guy?”  JT asked, looking around and then back at Dr. Tripp.

“He’s right there, you just passed him,” Dr. Tripp replied, pointing at the young man identified as Jared.

“Where?”  JT asked, looking around again.

“Jared’s the guy,” Dr. Tripp replied, sighing.

“What!”  Mark screamed as he jumped up from where he sat on the bed and then grabbed the kid, slamming him into the wall.  “You hurt him!?  Why did you hurt him?”

“Mark stop!”  JT screamed as the officer and Dr. Trip both tried to pull Mark off the kid.

“Get the hell off of me!”  Mark screamed, holding the kid by the neck as he continued slamming the boy into the wall.  “I’m going to kill him!  He needs to die for hurting Kai the way he did!”

“Daddy Mark stop, please stop,” Kasai softly spoke as he cried.

“Oh baby,” JT said, getting up from his wheelchair as he walked over to Kasai and held him in his arms.

“Daddy, stop him before it’s too late.  I need both of you,” Kasai said as the tears streamed down his face.

“Mark Walden, let the kid go,” the officer said, trying to pull Mark away from the kid.  “Let the kid go, you’re killing him!”

“I’m going to kill him!”  Mark screamed.

“Release my boy Mark!”  Larry Tanner screamed, rushing into the room.

“Your boy raped our son!”  Mark screamed as the police officer and Dr. Tripp tackled him down to the floor.

“Let the police handle this Mark, you’ve done enough man,” Dr. Tripp whispered into Mark’s ear.  “Come on, let’s take a walk.  JT can take care of Kai.”

“I’m not leaving out of here!”  Mark screamed.  “Not until that little bastard pays for what he’s done!”

“Andy, would you please take him somewhere and let him cool down.  Once he’s done that, then bring him back,” JT suggested as Kasai cried harder in his arms.

“Are you okay Jared?”  Larry asked, helping his son up off the floor.

“My—my head hurts Dad,” Jared replied, crying as he rubbed at his head.

“What’s this all about?”  Larry asked, looking back and forth between JT, Dr. Tripp and the police officer.

“It’s very simple Larry, your son raped my son,” JT replied as he looked up at the man.

“What?  That’s not possible, my son isn’t a fag,” Larry said, putting his hands on his hips as Dr. Tripp sighed and then shook his head.

“Excuse me!”  JT snapped.  “I said your son raped my son!”

“I heard what you said and it’s not possible!  My son is straight, he doesn’t sleep with other boys,” Larry said, shaking his head.

“Apparently he does.  He raped my son and the police officer there has the DNA evidence to prove it!”  JT yelled as Kasai covered his ears.

“Daddy, please stop, don’t get angry,” Kasai softly said.

“That’s it, everyone out!  Everyone get out now!”  JT snapped as everyone stopped in their tracks, turned around and then exited the room.  “Baby, everything’s going to be okay, I’m here with you.”

“It’s not going to be okay.  Daddy Mark’s mad, you’re mad.  I shouldn’t have snuck out of the house,” Kasai said as he shook his head, sniffling as he rubbed at his eyes.

“Don’t you worry about that baby, just think about something else,” JT said as Dr. Tripp came back into the room with a sad look on his face.

“I gave Larry the report, he read it for himself and now the police have taken Jared into custody.  Jared told the officer who the other guys were that helped him.  They’ll pick them up too and they’ll be arrested,” Dr. Tripp stated as JT looked up at him.

“Good,” JT responded as he hugged onto Kasai.  “Where’s Mark?”

“He—he left.  He said he needed to go home,” Dr. Tripp replied with a frown.

“Oh God and you just let him go in his current state of mind?  Andy, can you stay here with him?  I need to go get Mark,” JT stated as he sat back down in his wheelchair and then left the room.

Down the Hall – The Emergency Room Waiting Area

Angela’s POV

It’s the start of the new year and it feels like it’s just an ordinary day.  For the start of the new year, too much crap has already happened.  Lord, please don’t let the rest of the year go like this day.  Sighing, I look around the area and see the woman that came in an hour ago with her husband.

I feel so sorry for the woman.  She’s been sitting here, all alone, probably wondering what’s happening with her husband.  Sighing, I shook my head and then looked around again.  Am I being watched or what?  Looking back over at the woman, I thought about how things would be if I was married right now.  If I was married and my husband was brought here, I would like to be back there, where he was, while the doctors worked on him.  I can sympathize with the way she feels right now, but I also know what’s going on behind those doors.  She’ll just have to wait until the doctors are done working with her husband and then she’ll possibly be able to see him.

Another hour has passed and I’m sitting here, placing paperwork back into the folders where I got it from.  It seems every time I try to organize these files, something happens to stop the progress on the organizing.  Stopping, I felt eyes on me as I looked around to see that damn ho Vagina, oops, I mean Valgina, standing in the doorway, watching me.  What the hell does the bitch want?  I just know she’s going to cause problems for us while she’s here.  I just wish JT could go ahead and fire her and the hospital finds someone else to take her place.  It’s not like she’s been here long to have tenure or anything, he’s her boss now, he should be able to get rid of her skanky ass.

Why in the hell is she watching me like that?  What in the hell does she want?  Better question, why in the hell did she come here?

“Hello Valgina, is there something I can help you with?”  I asked as she walked over to where I sat.

“Oh no Angela, I was just getting acquainted with where everything was.  There’s no need to worry your silly little head about me,” she replied with a smirk as she looked like the cat that stole the canary.

“Look ho, don’t come down here, starting any shit with me.  You haven’t started working here yet, so I suggest you step the fuck off and leave me the hell alone Vagina, oops, I meant Valgina,” I said, getting up from my chair.  “If you know what’s good for you, you’d take a hint and leave from ‘round here.”

“You fucking slut!  How dare you call me that!”  Valgina snapped, rushing over to where I was and smacking me in the face as I dropped the folders I just sorted.

“Oh hell naw!”  I yelled, lunging towards her as I pushed her up against the wall, punching and kicking at her.

“Get the fuck off of me you lesbian bitch!”  She screamed as I continued punching and kicking her as she tried to get away from me, but fell into the file storage room instead.

“You started this shit bitch!”  I snapped as I kept kicking her as she laid on the floor in the fetal position.

“Someone help me!  Help me please!”  She screamed, moving around, trying to block the kicks.

“Sorry ho, no one can help you now.  You should’ve thought about that shit when you walked into the work area, bothering someone, that wasn’t bothering you!”  I snapped, picking up a file box and slamming it down on top of her, knocking her ass out.  “I bet she’ll think twice before bothering me again.  What a way to start a new year.”

The Poole-Walden Estates – JT and Mark’s Bedroom

JT’s POV

“Are you okay baby?”  I asked, walking into the bedroom to see Mark lying face down on the bed.

“Go away,” he replied, sniffling.  “Just go away, go back to the hospital or something.  I don’t care where you go, just leave me alone.”

“Talk to me baby.  What’s going on?”  I asked, sitting down next to him as I kissed the back of his head.

“Do you really want to know baby?”  He asked, turning to face me as he sat up on the bed as I slid a bit to hold him in my arms.

“Yes, I want to know Mark,” I replied, rubbing his back.  “Just tell me what’s going through your mind.”

“I’m mad baby.  I’m mad as hell right now!”  He exclaimed, scaring me a bit.  “If I hadn’t grounded him, he never would’ve snuck out of the house.  If it wasn’t for me, he never would’ve been raped.”

“That’s not true Mark,” I told him as he shook his head as he cried on my chest.  “You’re not responsible for what Jared and those punks did to him.  You didn’t tell any of them to do what they did to him.”

“No, I didn’t tell them, but Kai never would’ve left the house to be put in that situation, if I wasn’t so hard on him,” he said as he cried harder.  “It’s all my fucking fault!”

He continued crying for a few minutes and then he shot up, getting out of the bed as he rushed out of the room.  In his current state of mind, I don’t know what to think about what he might do.  I got up, grabbed my crutches and moved towards the door, trying to find out where he was headed.

“Mark please!  Baby stop!  Don’t leave this house!”  I called out as I heard the front door open and then slam shut.

As I got to the bottom of the stairs, I heard him cursing, a car starts and then a few seconds later, tires were screeching out of the driveway.  Hell, he’s gone now and I’m here all alone.  Sitting down on the stairs, I felt the tears sliding down my face.  What am I going to do now?  I have a child that’s been raped, Valgina fucking Williams has returned to my life, to haunt and cause problems for me and my friends and now my husband is stricken with guilt that isn’t his own.  What can I do to fix all of this?

Florida Hospital – The Emergency Room

“I don’t believe it girl, you knocked her ass out?”  Tamara, one of the ER nurses asked, looking at Angela with a shocked expression on her face and then shook her head.

“Girl, I had to beat that ho down,” Angel replied, punching her fist into her hand.  “You don’t believe me, that ho still in the file room, on the floor, sleeping that ass whooping off.”

“I know you’re not just going to leave her in there, are you?”  Tamara asked as Angela grabbed her car keys off the desk.

“I don’t see why not.  I’m going to leave her ass back there,” Angela stated as she grabbed her purse and then pulled her jacket on.

“What if someone finds her ass in there?”  Tamara asked.

“They just find her ass in there,” Angela replied, shrugging her shoulders with a smile on her face.  “The bitch got what she deserved.  That’s been a long time coming.  I’ve been waiting a few years to do that to her ass.”

“But you might get into trouble over this Angie,” Tamara said as she shook her head.

“I might, but right now, I really don’t care,” Angela said as Kevin walked up to the nurses’ station.

“Hello beautiful,” Kevin said, kissing Angela on her cheek, surprising her.

“Hello Kevin, what’re you doing here?”  Angela asked.

“I thought I would surprise you so we could catch an early supper,” Kevin replied, leaning against the counter.

“I—I need to go home and change then,” Angela stated as she looked down.  “It would’ve been nice if I’d known you were coming here to pick me up.”

“Are you okay Angela?  Is there something wrong?”  Kevin asked, looking at Angela strangely.  “I thought we hashed all of this last night on our date.  Are you having second thoughts again?”

“I’m fine Kevin, I just have a lot of things on my mind,” Angela replied, walking around the counter.  “I’m not going out with you, looking like this.  I’m going home to shower.”

“That’s fine then.  Would you like me to follow you to your place?”  Kevin asked, looking Angela in the face.

“Why don’t we just take my car, it would save a whole lot of trouble,” Angela replied as she and Kevin walked through the lobby together as she waved at Tamara.

The Solarium

Nick’s POV

For the last two hours, we’ve been sitting here, enjoying each other’s company.  It’s just been the two of us, a nice steady and calm conversation, just us talking about ourselves, our dreams, our desires.  There’s been no hatred, no sadness, no negative stuff, just nothing but happiness and love.  I swear, he’s the guy I want to be with, for the rest of my life.

“I don’t want any of this to end Justin,” I softly spoke, kissing his lips.

“I don’t want it to end either baby,” he replied, pulling me back down as we shared another kiss.

I sat there in his lap, kissing the man I had fallen head over heels in love with.  I don’t care what my mother says, I love him and I always will.  There’s nothing she or anyone else can say to change this feeling I have in my heart or my soul.  I love him with all of me.

“I—I wish we could make love,” I said, kissing his lips again.  “I want us to be one; I crave for us to be intimate together.”

“Baby, I…” he said and then went quiet on me.

“Is there something wrong baby?”  I asked, lifting his chin with my fingers as I saw the tears spilling down his face.  “Justin?”

“No baby, there’s nothing wrong,” he replied, looking away from me.

“Don’t lie to me baby.  I know there’s something wrong, you’re crying,” I told him, caressing his cheek.

“I’m sorry baby, I just…” he said, looking down again.

“You just what baby?”  I asked, getting up out of his lap as I knelt down in front of him.

“I—I love you Nicky, but I—I don’t think what you want is possible,” he replied, moving away from me.

“What’re you doing Justin?  Where are you going?”  I asked, getting up and walking behind him.

“Your mother was right Nicky.  You don’t need to be with a cripple like me,” he said, opening the door and then rolling out of the room.

“Justin, stop!”  I screamed for him to stop, but he kept on going.  “Please Justin, please don’t leave me here.  Come back!”

An Hour Later – The El Valentera Restaurant

“Are you enjoying your meal Angela?”  Kevin asked, looking across the table at Angela.  “You’ve hardly touched your meal.”

“I’m sorry Kevin, I’m just not hungry right now,” Angela replied, pushing her dish out of the way.  “I guess I have some things on my mind.”

“Are you okay Angela?  You look like your best friend died, came back to life and then died again.  Do you care to talk about what’s on your mind?  You know I can return the favor,” Kevin stated as Valgina Williams walked up to their table.

“Well well wll, look what we have here.  If it isn’t the bitch formerly known as Angela Sebastian,” Valgina said, putting her hands on her hips.  “Excuse me man, what are you doing with a loser like her?”

“Excuse me?  Who in the hell are you calling a loser bitch?”  Angela asked, standing up from the table as she pointed her finger in Valgina’s face.

“I’m calling you a loser, you bitch!”  Valgina screamed, drawing attention to herself and Angela.

“Oh yeah ho, you’re just cruising for another beat down!”  Angela snapped, pushing Valgina backwards.

“Angela honey, please stop this,” Kevin said as he stepped in between Angela and Valgina and then stopped when he turned and looked at Valgina and then laughed. “Oh, you were joking right?  Her name really isn’t Vagina, is it?”

“That’s Valgina.  Mister, you must be out of your damn mind, being with a tramp like her.  If you want a real woman, get with me and I’ll show you a real good time,” Valgina stated as she pushed Angela, moving away from the table.

“I so don’t think so lady, I prefer Angela,” Kevin replied as he turned his back to Valgina as he grabbed Angela’s hand and then kissed the top of it.  “Angela, why don’t we go someplace else, it seems the atmosphere and scenery is terrible now.”

“Okay by me Kevin, I have a nicer place in mind, where we can go to get away from this madness,” Angela stated as the two of them made their way to the checkout, paid and then left the restaurant as Valgina tripped over her own feet, falling into the salad bar as she tried to watch Kevin and Angela walk out.

“Damn it!”  Valgina screeched as she jumped up, brushing lettuce from her blouse and cheese sauce from her face as she followed Angela and Kevin with her eyes as they walked down the street as she got outside.  “You might have gotten the upper hand on me earlier tonight at the hospital, but I’m going to whoop your ass bitch!”

“Bring that shit on bitch!”  Angela exclaimed as some people on the street watched.

“I’m not in a small area now.  I’m going to ram my foot up your ass, right after I ram this down your fucking throat!”  Valgina screamed, swinging her purse at Angela.

“Bring it baby, bring that shit!”  Angela hollered, grabbing Valgina’s arm in mid-jump as she kneed her in the stomach, punched her in the face and then elbowed her in the back, sending her down to the ground hard.

“Stop this Angela, you’re going to get into trouble for this,” Kevin stated, grabbing Angela’s hand as he dragged her down the street, heading towards her car.

The Poole-Walden Estates

JT’s POV

The time has surely flown by and I’m still sitting here at the bottom of the stairs.  The doorbell sounding, I sighed as I got up from the spot I had brooding in and walked over to the door, almost falling down, being that I didn’t pick up my crutches.  Opening the door, I saw someone I didn’t expect to see, standing there, looking back at me.

“Dean, what’re you doing here?”  I asked, moving back so the man could come in.

“Hi JT, how are you doing?”  He asked, leaning in close to hug me and then he kissed my cheek.

“I’m not so good at the moment,” I replied, walking into the family room.  “Why are you here Dean?”

“What?  I can’t come visit you when I want to?”  He asked, sitting down on the sofa.  “Where are Kai and that man you call your husband?”

“Kai’s in the hospital and I don’t know where Mark is,” I replied as Dean slid over to me, wrapping me in his arms, holding me tight.

“What happened to Kai?  Why is he in the hospital?”  He asked, looking me in the face.

“Some punks from his school beat him up and then raped him,” I replied, explaining to him about everything that had happened the previous day.

“Oh my God JT, why—why didn’t you call me and tell me what was going on?”  He asked, rubbing my back.

“Why would I call you Dean?” I asked as he looked at me with a hurt expression on his face.

“We may not be together anymore, but I still consider you and Kai a part of my family,” he replied just as his cell phone rang.  “Hold on, hello?  No, hell no, do whatever you fucking want to, I told you I was gone, so I’m gone damn it!”

“What was that all about?”  I asked, watching him.

“My agent,” he replied, getting up.

“Don’t tell me you fired another one, how many is that now?”  I asked.

“He makes number ten,” he replied, walking over to the television.  “I just can’t find a good modelling agent that I can trust JT.”

“I see,” I said as he sat back down across from me.

“So, have you eaten yet?”  He asked, grabbing my hand, holding it in his own.

“No, I can’t eat right now.  I’m too upset to eat anything.  I need Mark,” I replied, pulling my hand away from him.

“Why are you acting this way JT?”  He asked, grabbing my hand and pulling me up as he tried to hug me.

“Are you kidding me, it’s been a long time Dean.  What do you expect here, I moved on,” I told him.

“I—I know you did, but I—I didn’t,” he replied as the front door opened as Mark walked in.

“What the hell is this?  What’s going on here?”  Mark asked, walking into the family room to see us standing there.  “I walk out of the damn house to get some air for a bit and come back and you’ve got your ex in the house, doing only God knows what!”

“It’s not what you think,” I said, walking over to him as he shook his head and then walked away.  “Mark, Mark come back here!”

“Stay in there with lover boy, I don’t’ want to fucking see you.  How could you do this to me?”  Mark asked, stomping up the stairs.

“I—I didn’t do anything,” I said from the bottom of the stairs.  “Fine, believe what you fucking want to damn it!”

“I will!”  He screamed, slamming a door.

To Be Continued…

If I Ain’t Got You – Chapter 16

Chapter 16 — The New Year Ringeth In

Jan 1, 2003 – Orlando, FL – Florida Hospital – The Emergency Room’s Rape Trauma Unit – Kasai’s Room  

“Daddy, is that you?”  Kasai weakly asked, opening his eyes and looking around the room.

“Yes Kai, I’m here baby,” JT replied, standing up on wobbly legs.

“I—I’m so sorry Daddy, I’m really sorry,” Kasai spoke as the tears streamed down his face.  “I—I should’ve never snuck out of the house.  If I would’ve done what Daddy Mark told me to do, I would be okay right now.”

“Shhh baby, don’t talk about that.  Everything’s going to be all right.  You’re with us now,” JT said as he held Kasai gently in his arms as he cried.

“But Daddy…” Kasai said, sniffling as JT rubbed his back and stopped him from talking.

“Shhh son, it’s all okay now.  Don’t worry about that right now,” JT said as Mark wrapped his arms around him and Kasai.

“I—I love you both,” Kasai said, sniffling again.

“We love you too,” Mark spoke as he kissed the top of Kasai’s head.  “Happy new year son.”

Later on – Nick’s Hospital Room

“Come on Nick, we have to leave, now,” Janet stated, moving around the room as she gathered Nick’s things, trying to pick them into a bag.

“Where are we going?”  Nick asked.

“We’re going back to Tampa,” Janet answered as Nick stood in place, looking at her.

“Why are we going back to Tampa?”  Nick asked, rubbing at his head.  “We can’t leave, I have to stay here at the hospital.”

“I’m having you transferred into the care of a doctor closer to home,” Janet stated as Aaron jumped up from where he sat.

“What are you trying to pull here Mom?”  Aaron asked, glaring at Janet.

“I’m not trying to pull anything,” Janet replied, looking at Aaron strangely.

“Yes you are damn it!”  Aaron snapped, looking over at Nick.  “You don’t have to leave here Bro.”

“I don’t want to leave, but…” Nick spoke as Aaron shook his head.

“I—I thought you were in love with Justin,” Aaron said with a sad look on his face.

“I am in love with him,” Nick replied, looking at Aaron with tears in his eyes.

“If you love him, stay here with him, don’t leave,” Aaron said, glaring at Janet once more.

“Shut up Aaron, he has no choice in the matter,” Janet stated, pointing her finger at Aaron.  “You stay out of this, none of this concerns you!”

“It does concern me.  You’re interfering in Nick’s life, taking him away from something that he needs, because you can’t seem to see past your own stuck up vision!”  Aaron snapped, shaking his head.  “So, what if Justin’s in a wheelchair, that doesn’t fucking mean he can’t make Nick happy.  You don’t see how Nick changes when he’s with Justin.  When he’s away from Justin, he goes back into his own world.  When they’re together, Nick livens up and he’s part of our world.”

“I don’t care.  I don’t want that cripple anywhere near my boy,” Janet said as she shook her head.  “And to keep that from happening, we’re going back home.”

“We’re not going anywhere Mom.  You can leave if you want, but we’re staying right here,” Aaron stated, looking at Janet as he crossed his arms across his chest, standing proud.

“I’m your mother; who in the hell do you think you’re talking to?  You don’t talk to me that way!”  Janet screamed, pointing her finger in Aaron’s face.  “What in the hell has gotten into you?”

“Yeah, you’re my mother, big whoop.  You’re the woman that claims to love us so much.  You’re the woman that stole money from us and then tried to have our dad killed so you could get the damn insurance money.  So yeah, some mother you are,” Aaron stated, shaking his head as Janet’s eyes widened.

“That’s not true, that’s all a lie!”  Janet screamed.

“What’s he talking about Mom?”  Nick asked, walking over to where Janet stood.  “You said that Dad was trying to kill you, the reason you two…”

“She’s lying bro,” Aaron said as he shook his head.  “To start, Mom here has been stealing from the both of us, since our careers started.  I had my lawyers and their accounts go over my account spending with a fine-tooth comb and they found out that Mom here has been skimming money off the top of things.”

“What!”  Nick snapped, turning to look at Janet again.

“After further digging, I found out that she had both of us fraudulently sign power of attorney statements to have her in control of our finances and our lives,” Aaron stated as Nick frowned and then shook his head.

“What is he talking about Mom?”  Nick asked, looking between Janet and Aaron.  “Is any of what he said true?”

“No, it’s not true at all.  Aaron’s lying, he made all up that up,” Janet stated, shaking her head with a worried expression on her face.

“Come on Mom, I’m lying?  Really Mom, really?”  Aaron said as he walked over to his jacket and then pulled some papers from an inside pocket and then walked back over to Nick, handing the papers to him.  “Check this out.”

“What is this?”  Nick asked, looking at Aaron strangely.

“Just read those,” Aaron replied with a smile as Nick looked at the papers.

“Mom, this says that you were granted power of attorney of me and my finances over three years ago,” Nick stated, reading over the papers.  “What have you taken from me?”

“I—I haven’t taken anything from you,” Janet replied, shaking her head as she stepped backwards.

“That’s a lie and you know it,” Aaron replied, handing Nick more documents to read.  “These are your bank statements, showing all of your deposits and withdrawals.  This here is a statement of your earnings.  The figures on both documents don’t match.  They don’t match at all.”

“Wait a minute!  Both of you just stop!  I need to sit down on this,” Nick said, walking over to the chair that was next to the bed and sitting down as Aaron followed him while Janet just stood away from the both of them.

“Bro, she’s been stealing from both of us for years.  I had our lawyers go over everything and they’ve reversed the POAs that she had us falsely sign.  You’re in control of your own life Bro.  She can’t force you to go anywhere Nick.  Stay here and be with Justin if you want to be with him.  If you want, I’ll stay here with you,” Aaron stated, hugging Nick around the neck.  “You’re my brother and I want you to be happy.”

“I’m not going to stand here and listen to any of this,” Janet said, shaking her head.

“You don’t have to listen Mom.  It would be better if you just left.  You’ll be in court real soon any way.  I hope you haven’t spent the money you stole from us.  You’ll be giving it all back,” Aaron stated, crossing his arms across his chest, glaring at Janet.

“Do you honestly want to stay here Nick?  Do you really want to be with that damn crippled man?  Hell, he’s not even a real man, he can’t walk.  I’m trying to spare you from ending up, being hurt by this so-called relationship,” Janet said as she shook her head and then threw her hands up.  “You stand to gain nothing from being with him.   Ha, he can’t even stand at all.”

“I love him Mom.  I’m going to stay here.  I don’t care if he’s in a wheelchair or not.  Our love is more than something physical, it goes way deeper than that,” Nick spoke as the tears welled up in his eyes.  “I’ve gained his love and that’s enough for me.”

“I don’t understand you Nick.  I’ve tried… I’ve tried everything in my power to change your mind of this lifestyle.  I just wish you would stop all of this madness.  There’s a woman in this world, somewhere just for you,” Janet stated as she turned up her nose and then shook her head again.

“I’m gay, get over it already.  I’ll always be gay.  There’s nothing in this world, that’s going to change my way of living and I’m not giving up on Justin,” Nick stated, pointing his finger at Janet.

“But you being this way is a sin Nick,” Janet said, glaring at Nick as he waved his hand dismissively at her.  “You’re a sinner against God.”

“If he’s a sinner, then so am I,” Aaron declared, stepping in front of Janet as Nick and Janet both looked at him.

“What!”  Janet snapped, backing away from Aaron.

“That’s right Mom, I’m gay too.  I’ve always been gay, but I never chose to tell you, mainly because I saw the way you acted towards Nick.  Now I just don’t give a flying rat’s ass about it anymore,” Aaron stated as he leaned in and kissed Nick on the cheek and then walked out of the room.

“Oh God, both of my boys are gay, just like their father!  Am I being punished for something Lord?  I—I don’t believe this!  Is everyone in the world gay?”  Janet asked, grabbing her purse from the bed as she rushed out of the room, leaving Nick alone to read the rest of the documents that Aaron had left with him.

The Emergency Room’s Rape Trauma Unit – Kasai’s Room

Mark’s POV

This is a terrible way to start off the damn new year.  Last night and today have been very trying for all of us.  First JT gets his bad news about his childhood enemy working here at the hospital, in his department and then I get into an argument with Kai and then he ends up here because he got attacked.

I guess—I guess this is God’s way of testing us, to see how much we can handle.  This is all just a bit much I say, but I’m not the one in control of things.  JT’s a strong man, but he isn’t that strong.  My baby has gone through too much over the last couple of years.  I see this as the straw that broke the camel’s back.  Please God, please get us through this.  Don’t let this be how the rest of the year is going to go or we probably won’t make it.

“Daddy, Daddy help me, please help me,” Kasai spoke in his sleep.  “They’re hurting me, they’re hurting me, make them stop.  Please make them stop.  I’ll be a good boy, I promise, just make them stop.”

“Oh God, he must be having a nightmare about what happened to him,” I said, wrapping my arms around him, trying to comfort him.  “Oh God, please take this pain away from him.”

“Ah, hi there,” Aaron said as he walked into the room.  “I’m sorry for intruding, but Nurse Sebastian said that I could find Mr. Poole in here.”

“He—he went back up to his office, it’s up on the second floor,” I spoke, recognizing the guy as Nick Canton’s little brother.

“Ah, is everything okay?”  Aaron asked, looking at us closely.  “What happened, if you don’t mind me asking?”

“I do mind.  Could you please leave… my son and I would like to be left alone,” I told him as I continued hugging Kai as he opened his eyes again and then held onto me tightly as he cried.

“I—I’m sorry.  Thank you for telling me where to find Mr. Poole,” Aaron replied, turning around and walking out of the room.

“It’s going to be alright Kai, I promise you that.  It’s all going to be alright,” I told him as I rubbed his back.

“I’m so sorry Daddy Mark, I should’ve listened to you,” he said, sniffling as he coughed.

“Shhhh now, don’t worry about that.  Just get your mind off of that,” I said, rocking him back and forth in my arms.

“They hurt me Daddy Mark, they just hurt me… They—they wouldn’t stop,” he said, sounding like a person that’s lost everything.

“I know Kai, I know,” I replied, crying with him.  “The pain will go away; you just have to give it time.”

“I—I want it to stop—stop now!  I can’t take it Daddy Mark,” he said, crying harder as I did all I could to try and calm him down.

The Second Floor – JT’s Office

“Sir, you need to calm down and try to work with us here,” a police officer spoke as JT looked at the man and then shook his head.

“When they brought him into the ER, they did a rape kit on him!”  JT snapped, pointing his finger at the officer.

“Well there seems to be a problem, no one can seem to find the specimens that were collected,” the police officer stated as he stepped backwards from JT’s desk.

“What!  What in the hell do you mean there seems to be a problem?  Why can’t they find the damn specimens?  I saw the doctor on call, catalog them!”  JT snapped, pointing his finger at the police officer again.  “You need to go back down to the ER and speak with Andrew, Andrew Tripp!”

“Look Mr. Poole, you need to calm down and listen to what I’m trying to tell you here,” the police officer stated with a frown.

“I don’t need to calm down!  You need to get down to the ER and do your fucking job!”  JT screamed as he shook his head.

“Mr. Poole, if you would just…” the police officer started again as JT interrupted him.

“I SAID NOW!  GET THE HELL OUT OF MY FUCKING OFFICE, I MEAN IT DAMN IT!”  JT screamed as the police officer sighed, turned around and then walked to the door, opening as he bumped into Aaron.

“Ah, sorry kid.  I don’t think you want to go in there right now,” the police officer said as he put his hat on and then walked away from the door.

“Excuse me; I’m here to see you Mr. Poole.  Are—are you available to talk?”  Aaron asked, standing in front of JT’s desk as JT sat there with his eyes covered.

“How may I help you?”  JT asked, looking up at Aaron as he took a sip of his coffee.

“I’m Aaron, Aaron Canton, Nick’s my brother,” Aaron stated.

“Yes, I know, it’s nice to officially meet you.  Now, what can I do for you?”  JT asked.

“I would like to know what could be done about Nick’s status.  Basically, I want to know if my mother can force him to leave here, to go to another doctor, that’s if he doesn’t want to go,” Aaron said as JT looked at him strangely.

“She can’t force him to leave, if he doesn’t want to go,” JT replied. “If he says ‘no’, then she has no control over him, unless she has power of attorney over him or she has some form of guardianship over him.”

“She had power of attorney over him and me, but I had our lawyers overturn that,” Aaron said with a frown.  “What I’m trying to get at here is that, if his doctor was to say that he’s ‘crazy’, could she use that against him and force him to leave and go wherever she wants to take him?”

“She possibly could, but I doubt anyone here at this hospital would diagnose Nick as being ‘crazy’,” JT stated as he quoted with his fingers.

“What if she brings in an outside doctor to see him?”  Aaron asked as JT put his coffee mug down.

“She could do that, but if Nick isn’t exhibiting any negative behaviors to make anyone think that he’s ‘crazy’ or mentally unstable, then there’s nothing your mother can really do to him,” JT stated as he took another sip of his coffee.  “Does this have anything to do with Justin?”

“I think so.  She—she doesn’t want them together and she really doesn’t like the gay thing,” Aaron stated with a frown.

“Not to go into great detail or anything, but Nick is sane as anyone else around in this place.  He’s not crazy, he just had a little bit of bad luck in his life is all,” JT stated as Mark burst into the room.

“You’re the guy I just saw downstairs,” Aaron said, looking at Mark strangely.

“Sorry for the way I behaved down there,” Mark stated, frowning.  “I was just having a bad moment.”

“It’s okay,” Aaron said with a small smile.  “Mr. Poole, maybe we should reschedule this for a later time.”

“Yes, yes please.  Just leave me your number and a time for when it’s convenient to talk and I’ll give you a call,” JT said as Aaron shook his hand and then handed him a card as he waved and then left the room.

“Mark, why are you up here?”  JT asked, looking at Mark strangely.

“They have suspects baby.  One of the guys that hurt our boy has done it to someone else before,” Mark stated as JT got up from his desk.

“How do you know this?”  JT asked, looking at Mark like he was crazy.

“The cops are down in the lab with Andy.  They had him and another technician do the analysis.  The DNA analysis is complete and they’ve gotten a match to two of the people that was involved in hurting him,” Mark explained as he held JT in his arms.  “They’re going to get the guys and see if Kai can identify them.”

“I—I don’t think he’s ready for that.  Do you think he’s ready?”  JT asked, looking down, his hands trembling.

“No, but he needs to do it, so those guys can be punished for what they did to him,” Mark stated as JT’s pager beeped repeatedly.

“That’s Andy, let me call him and see what’s up,” JT said as he picked up the phone and called down to the ER.

“Yo’ JT, I think you and Mark better get down here and quick,” Dr. Tripp’s voice filled the room.

“What’s going on Andy?”  JT asked.

“I tried to get them to wait until you or Mark was here with him, but they took the guy that attacked Kasai into his room anyway.  He woke up and saw the man and now he’s freaking out really bad,” Dr. Tripp explained as JT shook his head.

“What in God’s name are those fools thinking?”  JT asked as he looked at Mark.  “Baby, get down there now!  I’ll be down there in a minute; just get down there now.  Get to my baby, he’s going crazy…”

Justin’s Hospital Room

“What’re you doing kid?”  Christina asked, walking into the room.

“Nothing,” Justin replied, looking around.  “I’m just sitting here, doing nothing, as always it seems.”

“You sound so down sweetie.  Are you still upset about this morning?”  Christina asked, walking over to Justin.  “Wait, don’t answer that.”

“Well…” Justin said, looking up at her.

“Don’t start downing yourself again.  I’m stopping you from doing that right now.  I want to hear something positive,” Christina stated as there was a knock at the door.

“Come on in,” Justin called out as Nick walked into the room.

“Hello Justin,” Nick softly spoke as he stepped a bit into the room.  “Hi there Christina.”

“Hi Nick,” Christina spoke, waving at Nick as she walked over and hugged him.

“Are—are you busy right now Justin?”  Nick asked.

“No baby, I’m never too busy for you,” Justin replied, reaching out his hand to Nick.  “Come over here.”

“Awwww, that’s so sweet and romantic.  Should I leave you two alone?”  Christina asked as Nick sat down in Justin’s lap.

“You don’t have to leave because of me being here Christina.  I just wanted to come be with Justin.  You—you don’t have to go,” Nick replied, looking over at her.

“Cool,” Christina said just as there was another knock at the door.

“Come in,” Justin called out again as Joshua walked into the room.

“Hello Jus…” Joshua trailed off, locking eyes with Christina as his expression changed. “Chrissy wait, please… I just wanted to see how he was doing.  Don’t do anything, please.”

“What in the hell do you want Josh?  Why in the hell are you really here?”  Christina asked, glaring at Joshua.  “I thought I made myself clear a while back.  I thought I made it clear that you should never show your face here again.  It seems you don’t handle directions very well.  I guess I have to beat your ass again.”

“Look Chrissy, I’m not here for any trouble. I only came to see how he was doing,” Joshua replied, holding both of his hands up.

“As you can see, he’s doing fine, now leave!”  Christina screamed just as Jamie and Marshall walked into the room behind Joshua.

“What’s going on… What in the hell are you doing in here Josh?”  Jamie asked as Marshall grabbed him quickly, to keep him away from Joshua.

“Damn, I only came to see him.  I guess I better go since you have so many bodyguards around here,” Joshua sarcastically said as he walked out of the room, passing all of them as Jamie punched him in the back of the head and then closed the door.

“Good fucking riddance,” Jamie said, shaking his head.  “Are you okay Justin?”

“I’m fine, thanks you guys.  I’m glad you guys were here.  I really didn’t want to deal with him,” Justin stated as he sighed.

“Well you don’t have to deal with him.  Hopefully this time he got the message, loud and clear.  If it didn’t sink in, I can always beat his ass again,” Christina said with a smirk.

“Don’t do that, you’ve already beaten him once,” Justin said as he looked over at her.

“Whoa, you were the one that did that to him?  I better not get on your bad side,” Marshall said, stepping behind Jamie.

“I wouldn’t do that to you.  Besides, I’m quite sure you would give me a run for my money,” Christina said, patting Marshall on the back.  “But you know me, I’m better than Big Daddy.”

“Yeah, I still remember the song,” Marshall replied with a frown.

“Your ex inspired me to sing it,” Christina said as she sat down next to Justin and Nick.  “So, what do you two have planned, if anything?  Anything set up for the new year?”

“We’re going down to the solarium, we’ll chill out there for a bit and watch the festivities,” Nick said with a smile on his face as he caressed Justin’s.

“That really sounds nice and romantic,” Christina said, tilting her head to the side and smiling at Nick and Justin.

“It sure does.  Why don’t we do stuff like that anymore?”  Jamie asked, wrapping his arms around Marshall.

“Probably because we never have time for stuff like that, we’re both so busy,” Marshall stated as he looked down with a frown on his face.

“We have the time now baby.  We aren’t doing anything,” Jamie said, looking Marshall in the face with a pout.  “Let’s go do something nice and romantic.”

“Okay, come on then,” Marshall spoke, grabbing Jamie’s hand as the two of them waved and headed towards the door.  “Me and my love bunny here will be back in a few hours.  You guys have fun.”

“Oh wow, now it’s only me, all by myself,” Christina stated as she crossed her arms.  “What a way to start this new year off.”

“You can hang with us Chrissy, that’s if you like,” Justin told her.

“No, you two go on, I’m going to find me something to get into.  I’ll be back later on,” Christina said as she leaned in and kissed both guys on the cheek.  “Don’t do anything I wouldn’t do.”

“Great, that means we can do anything,” Justin said, laughing at the look on Christina’s face as she blushed and then shot him the bird.

“I’m gonna get you for that one mister,” Christina said as she laughed and then walked out of the room.

To Be Continued…

If I Ain’t Got You – Chapter 15

Chapter 15 — Not Exactly The New Year

Dec 31, 2002 – Orlando, FL – Florida Hospital – The Emergency Room’s Rape Trauma Unit – Kasai’s Room

“Calm down baby, he’s going to be okay,” Mark spoke, hugging JT.

“I can’t calm down Mark.  My baby has been violated and you’re telling me to calm down!”  JT snapped, pushing Mark away from him.  “I’m not going to calm down until I find the men that did that to him!”

“Baby no, let the police handle that.  You need to stay right here with me, so we can make sure that our boy is okay,” Mark said, kissing JT on his forehead as he cried.

“I knew I recognized that voice.  Well, if it isn’t the faggot better known as John Poole,” Mark and JT heard as they turned around to see a light-skinned black woman standing in the doorway to Kasai’s room.

“Baby, who in the hell is that?”  Mark asked, turning to look at the woman.

“I don’t need this crap right now.  Valgina, I’m in no damn mood to deal with you or your fucked up crap, so take it elsewhere,” JT stated, turning away from the woman as he hugged Mark again.

“This is just a touching scene.  Why are you down here, instead of working in your office?”  The woman asked, walking further into the room.

“Look lady, can’t you see that we’re in the middle of a private family moment here?  Please leave,” Mark said as he glared at her.

“Who in the hell are you?  I know you’re not his boy-toy Steve,” the woman stated as she got up in Mark’s face.

“Look woman and I say that very loosely, I don’t know you and you sure as hell don’t know me.  I think you should just walk out of here, before you bite off more than you can actually chew,” Mark stated, pointing his finger at her.

“Excuse me, you’re not the boss of me,” the woman stated, waving her hand dismissively in Mark’s face.

“No he’s not, but I am,” JT stated, turning around again as he wiped at his eyes.

“Yeah, like you have the guts to do anything to me.  You were a punk ass bitch in high school and you’re probably a punk ass bitch now,” the woman stated with a smirk on her face.

“I have more than guts right now Valgina.  I’m not a child anymore, so get the fuck out of here!”  JT snapped, pointing his finger at the door.

“I…” The woman stated before Mark interrupted her.

“You heard what my husband said.  Get the hell out of here, before you write a check that your ass can’t cash.  Get to steppin’, you skanky body part.  What kind of name is Valgina anyway?  It sounds like your parents wanted to name your skanky ass ‘pussy’, but were too afraid you would get used by a lot of pricks,” Mark stated as he waved his hand at her as he grabbed his sides, laughing at the expression on her face as she turned and then stomped away out of the room.

“Thanks baby,” JT stated, kissing Mark on the cheek.  “I don’t think I’ve ever seen that woman leave a room that fast before in my whole entire life.”

“Serves the ho right for coming in here.  Our son isn’t doing okay and she was only causing us more stress,” Mark said as he sat down in the chair next to Kasai’s bed and then pulled JT into his lap.

“I just wish there was a way to take all of this pain away from him,” JT said as he sighed.  “No one should ever be raped. We could’ve done something to prevent this.  Something we could’ve done to keep him from being hurt like this.”

“Baby, things happen.  We can’t control what happens in his life all the time,” Mark said with a frown as he hugged JT.  “I grounded him to keep him from that sort of trouble, but he snuck out of the house to go have fun instead.  I’m not saying that this is his fault, but if he would’ve just stayed home, like I told him to, he probably wouldn’t be here right now.”

“Baby…” JT said as Mark cut him off.

“I’m telling the truth and you know I am.  If he would’ve just stayed home, he wouldn’t be here right now,” Mark said as JT hugged him.

“I know, I just don’t know what to think right now,” JT said as he wiped at his eyes again.  “Too much shit happening, all at once.”

“Things are going to be okay baby, trust me,” Mark said as he kissed JT on his forehead as Kasai’s hand moved.

“Come on son, wake up, we miss you.  I know I was rough on you, but I love you buddy.  Come on back to us.  We miss you very, very much,” Mark said as the tears streamed down his face.

“Come on Kai, you can do it buddy.  Daddy’s right here, waiting for ya,” JT said as the tears streamed down his face.  “Please son, wake up for me.  Come on, I know you can do it.”

Late Evening – The Hospital’s Prison Ward

“Evening Jack, what’s with the new guy down the hall?”  A doctor asked, walking through the double doors that led into the ward.  “What’s the deal with him?”

“He’s been comatose like that, since he was brought into the infirmary,” the police office replied as the doctor walked over to a counter and picked up a chart.

“What happened to him?”  Eric Jones, the prison ward doctor asked, flipping through some pages on the chart.

“He was raped by another inmate in his cell.  The other inmate beat him pretty badly before any of the officers got to him.  He lost a lot of blood and…” The police officer rambled on as the doctor interrupted him.

“What?  Can you run all of that by me again?”  Dr. Jones said, looking at the officer strangely.

“He lost a lot of blood.  When we got to him, he was already unconscious,” the officer stated as the doctor shook his head.

“And you guys are just now bringing him here to the hospital?  What kind of jail are you people running over there?”  Dr. Jones asked, looking at the officer like he was crazy.

“Look man, I followed proper protocol and procedure first.  The doctors at the jail couldn’t figure out why he was still unconscious and it came down from the chief to go ahead and transfer him here to you guys,” the officer stated as he signed some papers on the clipboard and then handed them to the doctor.  “He’s your responsibility now.  Someone will be back later on to record his condition and advise the court of his condition.”

“What’s he in for?”  Dr. Jones asked.

“He raped someone in this very hospital,” the officer stated.  “Again, he’s your responsibility now.”

“Oh, that’s just preachy,” Dr. Jones stated as he sighed and then pressed the speakerphone button as the officer walked through the double doors and then entered a code into the security panel as a different set of doors opened to the rest of the hospital.

“What’s up Eric, what do you have?”  Dr. Tripp’s voice rattled through the speaker of the phone.

“Hi Andrew, I have a… Hold on a sec, let me look… Let’s see here, I have a Brian T. Lang up here.  He needs to be added to the admissions log,” Dr. Jones stated as he read through the rest of the chart.

“The name sounds familiar.  That’s it, he’s in a band.  Dang, we have a lot of celebrities in this hospital,” Dr. Tripp stated.  “Okay, just e-mail me his information or send the chart down and I’ll add him to the log.”

“I’ll do that,” Dr. Jones stated as he shook his head.  “Oh yeah, he’s a rape victim.  I think Danielle or JT might need to talk to him, once he wakes up.”

“Sorry guy, Danielle doesn’t work here anymore, she resigned,” Dr. Tripp stated.

“Say what?  Damn, she was a hot one.  I guess I won’t get the chance to go out with her now,” Dr. Jones stated as he sighed.

“Nope my friend, you won’t get a chance to do that.  She left to move out to California.  She’s going to marry her long-time sweetheart,” Dr. Tripp stated as Dr. Jones shook his head.

“Well that’s a double damn.  I guess I have to find another chick to score with.  She was totally hot,” Dr. Jones said as he sighed and then rubbed his crotch.  “So, who’s taking her place?”

“Some woman named Valgina Wililams,” Dr. Tripp stated as Dr. Jones looked at the phone, shook his head and then cracked a smile.

“Did you say vagina man?”  Dr. Jones asked, putting the clipboard down.

“No, I said Valgina,” Dr. Tripp replied, laughing.  “Val-gina, get it, Valgina Williams.”

“Damn man, that’s funny as hell.  You make it sound like we’ll have a big ass pussy, working here in the hospital,” Dr. Jones said as he shook his head, laughed again and then stopped when he noticed Brian moving around on his bed.  “Look Andrew, I have to go.  It seems Mr. Lang has awakened.”

“Okay man, keep me updated with information and don’t forget to send me that chart,” Dr. Tripp stated as the speaker made some clicking noises and then it turned off.

“Yeah yeah, it’s one hassle after another one.  I hope this Valgina woman is a looker like Danielle, if so, I’ll have my scorecard filled really soon,” Dr. Jones said as he turned his attention to Brian.

Down in Nick’s Hopital Room

“Where have you been Nick?”  Janet asked, standing at the window in Nick’s room as Steve and Nick walked into the room.

“I was in a counseling session with JT and Steve,” Nick answered, sitting down on his bed.

“You’ve been gone most of the morning and afternoon.  I didn’t know you had a session that early.  No one told me about it,” Janet stated as Aaron walked into the room.

“Dang mom, I told you about his session earlier when you were on the phone,” Aaron stated as he sat down on the bed next to Nick and then hugged him.  “Hey bro, how are you holding up?”

“I’m doing good, I think,” Nick replied, ruffling Aaron’s hair.

“Hey hey, watch the hair,” Aaron said as he laughed.

“Oh whatever, it’s just your hair.  I’m your big brother, I have a right to mess it up if I want to,” Nick said as he laughed as the doctor walked into the room.

Downstairs – The Emergency Room – The Nurses’ Station

“Where are you going?  It’s not time for you to get off yet,” Angela said, walking behind the desk as she watched Steve clock out.

“Look Angie, I’m not in the mood right now.  I just ran into that bitch Valgina and… and I’m going home for the rest of my shift,” Steve stated as the tears streamed down his face.

“What—what did she say Steve?”  Angela asked.

“She said enough to make me want to quit this bitch,” Steve said, shaking his head as he wiped at his eyes.  “I think—I think I need a drink.”

“No Steve, you don’t need a drink.  Just go home and chill out.  I’ll come over and cheek on you later on,” Angela stated as she hugged him.  “Don’t let Valgina get you down.  I don’t think she’s going to be around here long.”

“I hope she isn’t, I don’t know how long I can last if she is,” Steve stated as he walked past Angela, heading out the door as Kevin walked in with Joshua following close behind him.

“Oh, what in the hell is this?  He’s with that guy again,” Angela said to herself.  “I think something’s going on between those two.”

“Hello Angela,” Kevin spoke, walking up to the counter as Angela glared at him and then looked back down at the chart she was reading.

“What is it that you want Kevin?”  Angela sarcastically asked.

“I—I wanted to see how you were doing and to find out whether or not you were free for dinner tonight.  Can we go on that dinner date we had scheduled for the other night?”  Kevin asked.

“Why would I go to dinner with you Kevin?  Can you answer me that?”  Angela asked.

“Because…” Kevin said and then stopped speaking.

“Because what Kevin?”  Angela asked, looking back up at him as she flipped a page in the chart.

“Because I like you and I want to go out with you,” Kevin replied in a soft voice.

“You can’t like me, it seems you spend all of your time with that man over there,” Angela said as she pointed at Joshua.  “Are you seeing that guy there?”

“Ah…” Kevin stuttered.

“Are you?  If you are, I have no use for a gay man Kevin.  I’m not the type of woman that likes to be strung along, around someone’s finger, with my emotions being played with,” Angela stated as she side-eyed Kevin.

“Well I ah…” Kevin stammered.

“Just be quiet Kevin.  I already have my answer,” Angela stated, picking up the chart and walking away from the counter.

“Wait a minute Angela, give me a chance here,” Kevin called out, shaking his head as he moved away from the counter.

“Why should I give you a chance Kevin?  It’s obvious you’re not the man for me,” Angela said as she shook her head.  “Just tell me the truth Kevin, be honest with me, be honest with yourself.”

“I like you Angela, I really do.  The truth is, I was confused once and I fooled around with Josh in the past, but I don’t want him, I want a woman in my life,” Kevin stated as he reached for Angela’s hand and she let him take it.

“You were confused?  If you don’t want him, then why is he still around you?”  Angela asked, looking over Kevin’s shoulder to see that Joshua was still standing around.

“He—he’s trying to convince me that he’s what I want and need, but I think differently about that,” Kevin said as he shook his head.

“I’ll go out to dinner with you, but I have to think about this, so don’t expect anything else to happen besides dinner,” Angela stated.

“That’s cool with me.  All I ask for is a chance to show you me,” Kevin stated as he kissed Angela’s hand.

“Fine, but if you screw up or I catch you with him again, this is over Kevin,” Angela stated as she pointed her finger at him, poking him in the chest.  “There will be no ifs, ands or buts about it Kevin, completely over.  You will be out of my life, faster than marijuana in the hands of a pothead.”

“I understand Angela.  I’m going to do everything in my power to do right by you,” Kevin said with a smile.

“You do that,” Angela stated as Kevin kissed her hand again.  “I’ll see you around seven.”

“I’ll be here,” Kevin said as he looked at his watch.

“Good,” Angela said as she smiled and then walked off.

Late Evening – Downtown Orlando – A Trendy Night Club

“Hey man, what can I get for you?”  The bartender asked as Alex McCall walked over to the bar and then took a seat.

“Yeah man, let me get a shot of tequila… better yet, just bring me the whole damn bottle with a glass,” Alex said as the bartender looked at him strangely, did as he asked and then placed the bottle on the counter in front of him.  “Thanks.”

“Welcome,” the bartender replied as Alex placed some money on the counter, grabbed the bottle and glass and then walked away.

“Hey, watch where you’re going man,” Steve spoke up as Alex bumped into him.

“No, you watch where the fuck you’re going guy,” Alex said as he pushed Steve backwards.  “You bumped into me retard.”

“No jerk, I didn’t bump into you, you bumped into me!”  Steve snapped, grabbing Alex by the collar of his shirt and pushing him up against a table as the bartender and a bouncer rushed over to the two of them.

“You two, break it up or I’ll toss you both out of here on your asses,” the bartender stated, pushing both men apart.

“He started it,” Steve whined, trying to get a hold of Alex again.

“I don’t care who started it, it ends right now, got it!”  The bartender snapped, looking between both men.  “If I hear anything else from either of you, your asses will be tossed out on the street like trash, you feel me?”

“Fine,” Steve replied, calming down as he turned away from the bartender.

“Yeah fine, I got it,” Alex said as the bartender pointed his finger at both men and then walked away with the bouncer.

“I—I know you.  You were at the hospital this morning.  I saw you leaving a patient’s room,” Steve said, looking at Alex closely.

“Yeah, so what,” Alex said as he waved his hand at Steve dismissively.

“Look buddy, I don’t know what your…” Steve said as Alex cut him off.

“I—I’m sorry dude; I’m having a really bad day.  I didn’t mean to take it out on you,” Alex said, looking down as he sighed.

“It’s okay, we both seem to be having one of those,” Steve said, walking over to a table and then sitting down.  “Would you like to join me?”

“Sure, as long as you let me buy you a drink,” Alex said as he looked at Steve with a smile on his face.

“That’s a deal,” Steve replied, smiling at Alex.

“What would you like?”  Alex asked as he placed his bottle of tequila on the table.

“Whatever you’re having, is totally fine with me,” Steve replied, smiling again.

“As you can see, I have this bottle of tequila,” Alex said, tapping the bottle and then winking his eye at Steve.

“You must be really having a bad day, to have the whole bottle,” Steve said with a frown.

“It seems like this whole day has been one big mess,” Alex said with a frown on his face.  “What got you down, on this hectic, but lovely last day of the year and all?”

“Someone from my past returned and that’s a very bad thing,” Steve replied as he looked down and then sighed.

“Yeah, I know how that goes,” Alex replied as he shook his head.  “I kept a very bad secret from my friends and it ended up causing one of them a great deal of pain.  If I had told my friends about what was going on, I wouldn’t be having such a bad day right now.”

“Does this have anything to do with Mr. Canton?”  Steve asked.

“Mr. Canton?  Oh, you mean Nick.  Yeah, it involves him,” Alex replied as he poured another glass full of the liquid and knocked it back as Steve’s eyes widened.

“Does your secret have anything to do with the person responsible for him trying to hurt himself?”  Steve asked.

“I—I guess so,” Alex replied, sighing as he knocked another glass full back.

“Are—are you the person responsible for what happened?”  Steve asked, watching Alex closely.

“No!”  Alex snapped, covering his mouth quickly as he looked over his shoulder to see if the bartender or the bouncer heard him.  “I’m not the person responsible for that, but I could’ve prevented it… I could’ve stopped him before it got to…”

“How so?  How do you figure into all of that?”  Steve asked, still watching Alex closely.

“It’s a long story,” Alex replied, looking down at the table.

“Well I have nothing but time this evening,” Steve said, pouring himself a glass of the liquid pacifier.

“Well, it all started…” Alex started, telling Steve how he and the other members of the Fifth Avenue Boys met and how Nick ended up in the position he’s currently in.

“I understand your position here Alex, but he’s your friend.  You should’ve told the others what was going on.  I know you said you didn’t want to get involved in their relationship, but I would want JT, Mark or Angie to tell someone if my boyfriend was hurting me,” Steve said as he looked down.  “Not that I would have a boyfriend like that… Regardless, I wouldn’t allow myself to get into that kind of relationship.”

“So, you’re gay too?”  Alex said, smiling weakly as he looked over the rim of his glasses at Steve.

“Ah yeah, I’m gay too,” Steve replied, watching Alex for any signs of a reaction and then he looked down at his hands.

“That’s cool,” Alex responded as he looked over at Steve.  “We’ve been sitting here for a while now.  How about we go someplace else and chill out and have something to eat?”

“That sounds good to me,” Steve said as he and Alex got up from the table and then walked out of the bar.

A Few Hours Previously – Florida Hospital – Justin’s Hospital Room

“I love him Momma, there’s nothing more to say about it,” Justin said, shaking his head.

“I know you do son, but his mother doesn’t want you two being together,” Lynn stated, rubbing Justin’s back as he cried.

“If I can’t have him in my life, then I wish I were dead,” Justin declared, sniffling as Lynn shook her head.

“No son, don’t talk like that,” Lynn said as Jamie, Christina and Joey walked into the room.

“What’s poppin’ around here?”  Christina asked, walking over to Justin and then sitting down in his lap.

“That damn Janet Canton is taking Nick away from me,” Justin replied as Christina looked at him strangely and then up at Lynn.

“What?  Why is she doing a thing like that?”  Christina asked as Jamie looked at Lynn also.

“She doesn’t want her son being with me because I’m a fucking cripple,” Justin replied.

“We’ve told you over and over again to not talk like that.  You’re not a cripple.  You’re just walking challenged right now,” Christina stated, getting up out of Justin’s lap as she got on her knees in front of him.  “Don’t let Janet Canton make decisions for you or Nick.  If you two have feelings for each other, then you should do what you can to not let her change those feelings.  Tell Nick, tell him how much you care for him Justin.”

“He—he knows how much I care for him already Chrissy.  It’s not him, it’s his damn mother that doesn’t care if I care about him or not.  She’s determined to keep us apart,” Justin stated as Lynn shook her head and then took his hand.

“What brought all of this up?”  Jamie asked, looking at Justin and then back to Lynn.

“He’s scared because Nick’s going to be released from here tomorrow.  Once he leaves here, he and Justin won’t be able to be together.  Janet has already told the doctor that she’s going to take him back to Tampa and get him some help there,” Lynn explained to the others in the room.

“Apparently, she doesn’t know it’s not wise to interfere in the lives of other people,” Joey stated as he folded his arms across his chest and then shook his head.  “She’s a real bad bitch.”

“Watch your mouth young man,” Lynn spoke, chastising Joey as she shook her head.

“Come on, we’re talking about Janet Canton here.  You know, the same woman that plotted and schemed to get her husband killed and tried to steal money from her other son.  Janet’s a heartless woman.  She can be downright ruthless,” Jamie stated as he shook his head.

“She’s a heartless woman, but we have to do something to keep her from taking Nick from me,” Justin said as the tears streamed down his face.  “Please guys; please don’t let her take Nick away from me.  I can’t bear it if he’s not here with me.”

“I—I’ll see what I can find out, but if the doctor is releasing him, then there’s really nothing more that can be done, unless Nick himself, chooses not to go with her,” Lynn stated with a frown.

“Where’s the JT guy?  I haven’t seen him since you left this morning,” Jamie stated as he looked back at Justin.

“Something happened to his son, so he’s around here somewhere,” Justin replied, shrugging his shoulders.

To Be Continued…

If I Ain’t Got You – Chapter 14

Chapter 14 — Down Memory Lane

Dec 31, 2002 – Orlando, FL – The Poole-Walden Estates – Kasai’s Bedroom

Kasai’s POV

“I’m not staying up here all the time.  I’m sneaking the hell out of here and I’m going to go have some fun,” I said, pulling my cell phone out and speed-dialing number two.  “It’s the last day of the year and I’m going to have some fun.”

“Hello,” my boy answered his phone.

“Hey, what’re you doing?”  I asked, looking down at my watch.

“I’m in algebra K, you know what I’m doing,” he replied as I hit my head.

“Oh yeah, I totally forgot, you’re still in school before the next break,” I said, rubbing my head.

“Yeah, I heard you got kicked out because of Brad and Dale.  I hope you kicked their asses real good,” he said as I smiled.

“I don’t know about that, but I did what I could,” I replied, scratching my balls.  “Look, I’m headed down to the mall.  You want to meet me there after school in the game room?”

“Yeah, I’ll meet you there,” he replied.

“Cool, I’ll see you then, kisses,” I said, closing the phone as I opened the window, stepping out onto the roof to make my escape from Daddy Mark’s punishment.

Half Hour Later – Downstairs

“So, you never told me about what happened to you three with that Valgina woman,” Mark said, looking over at JT.

“Hold on, let me go check on Nick and Justin,” JT said as he got up from his seat on the sofa and then walked out of the room.

“Just go ahead and tell me,” Mark stated with a frown.  “It seems I’m always the last one to know what goes on with you guys.”

FLASHBACK

“Look Angie, I can’t marry you.  I don’t think you’re the type of person that I want to be with for the rest of my life,” Derrick, the man Angela had been dating for a while spoke.

“What do you mean by that?  What is my so-called type of person, that you can’t fucking marry?”  Angela asked, looking at the man closely.  “What fucking type am I?”

“You’re the sluttish type,” the man stated.  “I can’t see myself being with someone that has slept with as many people as you have.”

“What!”  Angela screamed, smacking the man across the face.  “Excuse me, can you run that shit by me again?”

“You’re a slut,” the man flatly spoke as he shook his head.

“I’m a what!  What gave you the notion that I was a slut?”  Angela asked, folding her arms across her chest as she tapped her foot on the floor.

“Everyone around here knows that you’re a slut.  It’s all over this place.  If you would sleep with that guy you’re always hanging around with, you’ll sleep with anyone else,” the guy stated.

“What in the hell are you talking about?  I’m not a slut and I’ve never slept with John,” Angela stated as she got up in the man’s face.

“So you two were never together?  You never dated him?”  The man asked.

“I went out on a date with him once, but we never slept together,” Angela stated as she sighed.

“I don’t believe that shit at all.  You can’t be with a man and not sleep with him,” the man said as he shook his head and then pointed his finger in her face.  “You fucked him, like you fucked around with everyone else.”

“What the fuck is this?  Where in the hell did all of this damn drama come from?”  Angela asked.

“It came from you,” the man replied, shaking his head again.  “Just ask anyone around here, you’re nothing but a dirty slut.  All the guys are talking about your ass like it was the news.  You’re nothing but a dirty bitch.”

“You bastard!”  Angela screamed, slapping the man across the face again as he grabbed her hand, stopping her from doing it again.

“I might be a bastard, but don’t you ever put your hands on me again,” the man said as he pushed Angela backwards and then walked out of the room.

“Stop!  Come back here!”  Angela screamed out, rushing out of the room behind the man.

“What in the hell do you want Angie?”  The man asked, turning to face Angela once more.

“Why Derrick?  Why are you listening to the words of others and not listening to me or your heart?”  Angela asked.

“Why should I be listening to a slut like you?  I should’ve listened to Valgina Williams when she told me about you in the first place,” the man stated as he shook his head again and then started walking off.

“What!  Valgina Williams told you that I was a slut?”  Angela asked.

“No, she simply told me the type of person that you are,” the man stated as he shook his head.  “Now get the fuck out of my way and stay the fuck away from me.  You’ve ruined my reputation enough already.”

END FLASHBACK

“Well damn, now I see why you guys don’t like the bitch,” Mark said, looking over at Angela as JT walked back into the room.  “What’s wrong baby, you look mad about something.”

“I am mad, Kai’s not up in his room.  Is he down here somewhere?”  JT asked, standing in the doorway just as his legs gave out on him.  “Owwww!”

“JT!”  Mark exclaimed, rushing over to JT and scooping him up in his arms.

“Stop it Mark, I’m okay,” JT said as he shooed Mark away.

“No, you stop acting like a baby.  I’m going to help you up regardless, if you like it or not baby,” Mark said as he picked JT up off the floor and then carried him over to a nearby chair.

“Don’t worry about me, where’s Kasai?”  JT asked as Steve and Angela got up and searched through the house.

“I bet that little brat slipped out,” Mark said as he turned and left the room, heading towards the garage.

“That boy is trying my patience with him,” JT said as he shook his head.  “When I get my hands on that boy… oh he just wait until I get my hands on him.”

“Not before me baby,” Mark said as JT grabbed his crutches as he got up from the chair.  “I’m going to beat his lil ass when I find him.”

“No you’re not Mark, I’ll do it,” Angela said as she walked into the room as she shook her head.  “That boy knows better.  I wonder what was going through that head of his.”

“I don’t know, but this goes way beyond grounding.  He’s in for some major punishing,” JT said as the phone rang.

Mark’s POV

“That better not be the police,” I said, walking over to the phone and answering it.  “Hello.”

“Hi Mark, this is Anna down in the ER, is JT there?”  The woman asked.

“Yeah, what’s wrong?”  I asked as JT joined me by the phone.

“I think you two should get down here to the hospital quickly.  It’s Kasai and there’s a problem,” the woman stated.  “You two need to move it, pronto man.”

“We’re on our way,” I said, hanging up the phone.  “Come on baby, we need to get to the hospital, it’s Kai.”

“What?  What’s wrong with him?  What happened?”  JT asked in a frantic tone.

“I don’t know.  Nurse Anna, down in the ER said he was there,” I told him.

“Oh God, he’s gotten into another fight and someone’s hurt him bad,” JT stated as some tears fell from his eyes.  “We have to get Nick and Justin…”

“You two go on, we’ll handle Justin and Nick,” Steve said as he pushed me and JT towards the door.

“Oh God, my little baby, what’s happened to my baby?”  JT asked, getting into the van.  “Hurry up!”

Sometime Previously – Downtown – An Alley behind the Mall

“This isn’t funny Jared, just leave me the hell alone,” Kasai spoke, moving away from the other boy.

“Come on, you know you want this dick boy.  I’ve seen you watching me for a long time now.  I knew you were one of them fags,” the boy identified as Jared laughed as he rubbed his hand on his crotch.

“Look Jared, I don’t want any trouble, just leave me alone,” Kasai said as he backed away from the other boy, keeping his eyes on him.

“It’s too late for that.  You should’ve kept your eyes to yourself,” Jared stated as he moved quickly, punching Kasai in the face, kicking him on the leg and then punching him in the stomach as he fell backwards to the ground, moving into the fetal position.  “You’re going to suck this cock and enjoy it you fucking faggot!  That’s what boys like you enjoy doing, so do it fag boy!”

“Leave… me… alone man, just let me go,” Kasai said through his tears as one of his eyes started to blacken and swell as he held his stomach.

“I’ll leave you alone, only after you’ve done what I want.  I want you to oink like a fucking pig, you fucking fag boy,” Jared said as another boy walked into the alley.  “Yo Jake, guess what I got?  It’s the fag Kasai.  I told you he was a fucking fag.  You lost the fucking bet, it’s time to pay up!”

“What’s going on man?”  The other boy asked as he walked towards the other two boys.  “Oh man…”

“I’m going to make this lil bitch suck my dick,” Jared stated as he kicked Kasai again and then leaned down, grabbing Kasai by his ear, pulling him up off the ground into a standing position as he pushed him against the wall, hard.  “Suck my dick you fucking faggot!  If you do anything that I don’t like, you’ll fucking regret it!”

“Shit dude, you’re really going to let him suck you off?”  Jake asked, grinning like a Cheshire cat.

“Damn straight I am.  He’s a fag and that’s what fags do,” Jared replied as he unzipped his pants and then pulled his dick out of his boxers.  “Now get down there and suck me off bitch.  You better get me off and make me feel good or I’m going to kick your faggoty ass all over this place.”

“Please—please don’t make me do that.  Just let me go please.  You’ve beat me up already, just let me go.  I promise I won’t tell anyone, just let me go please,” Kasai begged as Jared grabbed him by the throat and then pushed him down to his knees, forcing his mouth open as he slid his dick into his mouth.

“Suck bitch!”  Jared snapped, still holding Kasai by the throat.

“Oh shit, that looks so hot,” Jake said as he rubbed his crutch, watching Jared and Kasai.

“Hell, pull your cock out man and we can use this bitch up,” Jared said, waving the other boy over.

“I—I don’t know man.  It looks like you’ve roughed him up enough already,” Jake said as he shook his head.

“He’s a damn fag man.  He deserves this kind of thing,” Jared stated as he grabbed Jake by his pant leg and pulled him closer.  “Just unzip and when I’m done, you can have your turn in him.”

“I—I don’t think…” Jake said as he looked around quickly.

“Tell you what, you can have your turn in his mouth right now, I’m going to try something else,” Jared said as he let his pants slid down his legs, bunching up around his ankles.  “You can have his mouth; I’m going to try his ass out.  You know fags like taking dicks up their asses.”

“I—I guess that’ll work,” Jake replied as he moved closer to Kasai as he unzipped his pants and then slapped Kasai playfully in the face with his dick.  “Open up kid.  You better not bite me or I’ll beat your fucking ass.  You think he roughed you up, I’ll fuck you up fag boy.”

“Just take it; he can’t take both of us on.  We have the upper hand here.  Just go ahead and put your dick in his mouth and enjoy it.  While you’re doing that, I’m about to see just what they get out of doing this shit,” Jared stated as he pushed his finger into Kasai’s ass, making him cry out.

“Damn, looks like he’s in pain man,” Jake said as he looked over Kasai’s body at Jared.

“When we’re done with him, he’ll know what it’s like to have a real man and not one of those wimpy fag boys he’s used to screwing him.  I bet my dick is going to rip you a new one fag boy,” Jared said as he pushed his dick into Kasai, all in one push as Kasai screamed out again, the pain overtaking him as he went limp as the tears streamed down his face.

Jared roughly fucked Kasai, going hard and fast into him from behind as Jake continued pushing his dick in and out of his mouth, causing more pain to him.  As Kasai cried out, he wondered to himself why he had to be the one that this sort of thing happened to.  Only if he had done what Mark told him to and had stayed home in his room, he wouldn’t be going through any of this pain right now.

Sometime Later – Florida Hospital – The Emergency Room

“Anna, Anna!  Where is Kasai?”  JT asked as he and Mark rushed up to the nurses’ station counter.

“He—he’s back here, come on,” Anna replied, rushing down the hall as JT and Mark followed behind her.  “He’s through there.”

“Why are we here Anna, this is the rape unit,” JT said as he looked at the woman strangely as realization of what had happened, hit him like a ton of bricks.  “Oh God, my baby!”

“Calm down baby,” Mark said, holding JT in his arms as they walked into the room to see Kasai, lying in a bed, bandaged up as they both noticed the scraps, cuts and bruises on his body along with the machines connected to him and the tube stuck in the side of his neck.

The Poole-Walden Estates

“Steve, what’s going on?”  Justin asked as he rolled into the room where Steve and Angela sat.

“Nothing’s wrong Justin, why do you ask?”  Steve asked, looking at Justin strangely.

“Didn’t I hear someone tear out of here in a big hurry?”  Justin asked as Nick came into the room behind him.

“JT and Mark left to go back to the hospital,” Angela replied.

“Is there something wrong?  Is everything okay?”  Justin asked with a worried look on his face.

“We’re waiting for one of them to call us and tell us something,” Angela answered as she looked over at Justin.

“So, when do we have to go back to the hospital?”  Justin asked, looking between Steve and Angela.

“Not for a while, unless you two are ready to head back,” Steve answered as Nick moved around in front of Justin.

“No, we’re not ready yet,” Nick spoke with a small smile on his face.  “We’re going back into the other room now.”

“Okay you two, enjoy yourselves,” Angela said as Nick and Justin left the room.  “Those two remind me of you and JT a long time ago.”

“How so Angie?”  Steve asked, looking at Angela strangely.

“Remember when you and he first met, you tripped over him and his wheelchair,” Angela said, laughing as she shook her head.

FLASHBACK

“Thank you Ms. Tandy, I’ll have this book back by the end of the day,” JT said as he placed the book in his backpack and then zipped it up.

“No worries John, you can keep it the rest of the week if you like,” the woman told him.

“Okay, thank you very much,” JT replied with a big smile at the woman.

“You’re very welcome John.  Do you need me to get the door for you darlin’?”  The woman asked.

“No ma’am, I got it,” JT replied, wheeling over to the door and pushing it open as he wheeled out of the library, just as someone tumbled down on top of him.

“Oh my God, I’m so sorry dude,” the young ma said as he got up off the floor.  “I didn’t see you coming.  Are you okay?”

“I’m fine, don’t worry about it.  The question is, are you okay?”  JT asked, looking at the young man closely.

“I’m okay,” the young man replied, watching JT and then fell down again.

“Are you sure you’re okay?”  JT asked, reaching his hand out to help the guy out.

“Yeah, I’m sure you’re okay,” the guy spoke as JT looked at him strangely.

“What’s your name?”  JT asked, still holding his hand out to the guy. “I’m John.”

“Steve, I’m Steve,” the guy replied, fumbling a bit, almost falling down again.

“It’s nice to meet you Steve,” JT stated with a smile.  “Are you sure you’re able to get where you’re going without a problem?”

“Yeah, I’m okay, just a little bit dizzy is all,” Steve replied as he smiled weakly.

“Dizzy, why?”  JT asked, watching the young man.

“You look so cute, oops,” Steve replied as he ran away from JT, heading down the hall quickly.

“Wow, he’s cute and he thinks I’m cute.  This year won’t be so bad after all,” JT said as he starred at the back of the young man as he continued moving down the hall.

END FLASHBACK

“How did you know about that Angie?”  Steve asked, rubbing at his head.

“I hadn’t met you two yet, but I actually saw you guys’ interaction.  I was sitting in the library after he had left,” Angela stated with a soft smile.  “That one event was the chain reaction to all of our lives it seems.”

“So, you knew we were gay and you never said anything, why?”  Steve asked.

“It wasn’t my business,” Angela replied.

Sometime Later – In the Den

“You’ve been so nice to me Justin and Mom’s treated you like trash,” Nick said as he sat in Justin’s lap.  “Are we going to make it?”

“Yes, we’re going to make it Nicky,” Justin replied with a smile.  “We may have some problems right now, but things will come together, I promise you that.”

“Don’t make promises you can’t keep Justin,” Nick said as he looked away from Justin’s face.

“That’s a promise I’m going to do my best to keep, count on it,” Justin said, using his hand to turn Nick’s face to see him as they kissed.

“I love you Justin,” Nick said as the tears streamed down his face.

“I love you too Nicky,” Justin replied as the tears streamed down his face.  “I don’t care what your mother thinks; I’m going to hold on to you as long as I can.  I’m not letting you go.  I just found you.”

“I’m not going to let you let me go.  We just found each other and nothing’s going to break what we have,” Nick said as Steve and Angela walked into the room.

“Sorry guys, but it’s time for us to be getting back to the hospital,” Angela announced, walking over to where Justin and Nick were.  “I know you guys want more time, but believe me, JT and Steve will get you two together again.”

“It’s okay Angela, we’re cool,” Justin said as he and Nick pecked each other on the lips quickly.

“Are we ready to go?”  Steve asked, walking around to them.

“I guess we are,” Nick replied, looking down with a sad look on his face as he got up out of Justin’s lap.

“Perk up partner, this isn’t the last show at the rodeo,” Angela said with a smile, rubbing Nick’s shoulder as he walked past her.  “Stay positive.”

“I’ll try,” Nick said as the four of them headed towards the garage door.

“It’s getting really late in the afternoon,” Steve stated as he looked at his watch.

“Let’s get back,” Angela stated with a frown.  “I wonder what’s happening at the hospital with Mark and JT.  It’s odd that they haven’t called us yet.”

“I don’t know, but I hope everything is okay,” Steve said as he helped Justin outside and into the van.  “Alright Nick, get on in.”

“Let’s get on back to the hospital before something else goes wrong.  We don’t need JT having problems with Larry,” Angela stated as she closed the door.  “Larry’s already on JT’s case because of that damn Danielle and Valgina.”

“The more you say her name, the more it becomes a bad nightmare,” Steve said as he started the van.

Florida Hospital – The Emergency Room’s Rape Trauma Unit

“Is he going to be alright Andy?”  Mark asked, hugging onto JT, trying his best to calm him down.

“I really can’t give you that answer,” Dr. Tripp stated with a frown.  “Whoever did this to him, was meaning to kill him.”

“Oh God!  Why—why couldn’t he have just stayed home like I told him to?”  Mark asked, crying out.  “This… This is all my fault.  If I hadn’t grounded him and made him mad, he wouldn’t have snuck out of the house the way he did.”

“It’s not your fault.  Don’t do this,” JT said, caressing Mark’s face.  “This is one of those things that happen when you least expect them to.”

“Well it did happen and it happened to our little boy,” Mark said as he hugged JT as his cell phone rang.

JT’s POV

“Hello,” I spoke into the phone, trying to hold it up to my ear.

“Where are you guys?”  I heard Angie’s voice.  “Me and Steve are in your office.”

“We’re still down in the ER with Kai,” I replied with a sniffle.

“What happened to him J?”  She asked.

“He—he was raped by someone and then they tried to kill him,” I stated, not able to hold it in any longer as my tears overtook me as I thought about what happened to my little boy.

“Oh God, I’m coming down there,” she said as she hung up the phone.

Almost Half an Hour Later – Dr. Andrew Tripp’s Office

“Do you guys have any clues to who could’ve done this to him Andy?  Did they leave any specimens?”  Angela asked, looking over at Dr. Tripp.

“We collected five semen samples that were found on him and one of those samples belonged to Kasai,” Dr. Tripp stated as he flipped through the report in front of him.

“What the hell!  You’re saying four guys raped him… did—did you tell this to JT and Mark?”  Angela asked.

“No, I didn’t tell them, not yet anyway,” Dr. Tripp replied as he shook his head and then looked down.  “I think I’ll wait until the both of them have calmed down some.  JT’s in pieces as it is.  I don’t know how he would react if Mark wasn’t there with him.”

“That’s his baby.  JT loves him very much, regardless of…” Angela said as the door to the room opened and a woman walked in.

“Good afternoon, I’m here to see Dr. Andrew Tripp,” the woman said, smiling brightly.

“What in God’s name!”  Angela snapped, turning around and locking eyes with Valgina Williams for the first time in a very long time as the woman stood in the doorway, looking back at her.

“I don’t believe it, it’s Angela Sebastian,” the woman snidely said.  “Wow, this must be my lucky day.”

“What in the hell are you doing in here Vagina, I mean Valgina?”  Angela asked, getting up from where she sat.

“I work here,” the woman replied as she looked over her nose at Angela.  “What are you doing here?”

“I work here,” Angela replied in a stern voice.

“Not for long,” the woman said under her breath as she walked past Angela, heading over to Dr. Tripp’s desk.

“So, you ladies know each other?”  Dr. Tripp asked, looking at both women with a scared look on his face.

“Yes,” both women spoke in unison and then looked at each other with angry looks.

“Okay, so what can I do for you, Ms. Williams, is it?”  Dr. Tripp asked.

“I was told that the new head of Therapy Services was you and that I could find you here,” the woman replied.

“I’m not the head of Therapy Services around here.  You would be looking for JT Poole,” Dr. Tripp stated as he looked at the woman strangely, wondering why someone would tell her that he was the head of a department that he didn’t even work in.

“Did you say JT Poole?”  The woman asked, looking at Dr. Tripp strangely.

“Yes,” Dr. Tripp answered.

“So, he took Danielle’s place when she resigned?”  Angela asked.

“Yeah, I guess Larry hasn’t told him yet.  The board met this morning, right before lunch and they went ahead and gave it to him, instead of hiring someone else outside of the company to do it.  I thought he knew that already,” Dr. Tripp stated as Angela shrugged her shoulders and then smiled.

“It seems this is getting better by the minute,” Angela said with a grin on her face.

“So, I have to speak with this JT Poole then?”  The woman asked as Angela nodded her head.

“That’s right Ms. Williams and right now, he’s not in his office.  Is there something I can do for you?”  Dr. Tripp asked.

“Do you know when he’ll be available?”  The woman asked.

“Frankly, I don’t know that answer ma’am,” Dr. Tripp replied with a frown.

“So Valgina, why don’t you just leave here and call back and schedule a time to see him,” Angela said as the smile grew on her face.

“I—I guess I have no choice but to do that then,” the woman stated as she crossed her arms across her chest.

“I’m going to check on things.  I’ll be back later on Andy,” Angela stated as she walked past the woman, heading towards the room door.

“Bitch,” the woman said under her breath as Angela stopped walking.

“Oh no hell you didn’t just call me a bitch!”  Angela snapped, turning around as she looked at the woman.

“Well if the shoe fits…” The woman stated as Angela interrupted her.

“If the shoe fits up your narrow ass, you better hope the people in the ER can get my foot out of your ass if you start some shit that you can’t finish,” Angela stated, pointing her finger in the woman’s face.

“Ladies,” Dr. Tripp said as Angela turned and glared at him.  “Never mind.”

“The same ole Angela,” the woman stated as she shook her head.

“No, you mean the same ole Valgina, always causing problems for other people, wherever she goes,” Angela stated as she returned to the door as Dr. Tripp watched the interaction between the two of them.  “Don’t cross me Valgina, I won’t hesitate to kick your ass from this point on.  We’re not in high school anymore and I’m not going to allow you to do anything to hurt me or anyone I know.”

“That speech is played out and old, just like you are Angela.  Lay that speech on someone that really cares to hear it,” the woman stated as she walked past Angela out of the office.

“Angie, girl you need to calm down before you get yourself into trouble,” Dr. Tripp stated as he rubbed her shoulders.  “She’s new here and…”

“Don’t worry about me Andy, I’m going to be okay.  Someone needs to worry about her, she’s the biggest trouble maker I know,” Angela stated as she sighed and then walked away.

To Be Continued…

If I Ain’t Got You – Chapter 13

Chapter 13 — A Friendly Gathering

Dec 31, 2002 – Orlando, FL – Florida Hospital – Angela’s Nurses’ Station

“She’s a horrible, horrible person,” Steve said as the tears streamed down his face.  “I was so humiliated that day, I…”

“Shhh Steve, calm down honey.  That was a long time ago.  Get a grip man,” Angela said as she tried to calm Steve down.

“Get a grip?  She hurt you, just as bad as she hurt us Angie,” Steve said as the memories flooded back in Angela’s mind of what Valgina had done to her.

Flashback

“Charlie, what in the hell is going on here?”  Angela asked, walking over to a car to see her boyfriend and Valgina sitting there, wrapped up in each other’s arms, kissing.

“What does it look like bitch?”  Valgina asked, throwing her drink through the window, the liquid hitting Angela in the face.

“What the hell!”  Angela screamed, yanking the driver’s side car door open and pulling Charlie out of the car first and then grabbing for Valgina as Charlie struggled to hold her back.

“Angela stop, what’s the use in you causing a scene.  We’re over,” Charlie said as he pushed Angela backwards.  “I don’t have time for a silly bitch like you.”

“What!  I thought you loved me,” Angela said, sitting down on the bench near the car as she cried.

“You thought I loved you?  Hell, I didn’t love you.  Bitch, you were just a quick piece of ass.  Take your silly ass on, no one wants you here,” Charlie said as he got back into his car and then drove down to the stop sign as Valgina held her head out the window.

“Ha ha, you silly ass bitch, I told you I could pull your man,” Valgina stated as she shot Angela the bird as the car continued travelling from her as she continued to cry on the bench.

“Hey girl, it’s going to be okay,” Angela heard as she turned around to see a guy from school.

“Who—who are you?”  Angela asked, looking at the young man strangely.

“I’m John, but you probably know me as JT the fag,” JT stated as he sat down next to her on the bench.

End Flashback

“You’re right, she hurt all of us, but we can’t let this one person destroy our lives around here,” Angela said, shaking her head.  “You just wait until I see that Danielle though; I’m going to kick her ass three ways from Sunday.”

“Be my guest.  If she wasn’t in Larry’s office, I’d probably be doing that right now,” JT stated as he sighed and then got up as his and Steve’s pagers went off at the same time.

“What’s up guys?”  Angela asked, looking at both men.

“It’s Justin, come on, let’s go,” JT said as he sighed. “Oh well, New Year’s Eve is bombed already.”

Nick’s Hospital Room

“Where’s Nick?”  Kevin asked as he and Alex walked into Nick’s room.

“He’s not here, you might try looking for him up in Justin Tanner’s room,” Aaron replied as he came out of the bathroom, burped and then stretched his arms over his head.

“Hey there little man, how have you been?”  Alex asked, hugging Aaron.

“I’m cool.  So, I guess you’re here for Brian’s trial,” Aaron stated with a frown.

“Yeah, but it’s not what you think.  I’m here to support Nick, not Brian,” Alex replied as the tears welled up in his eyes.  “I should’ve done that a long time ago, but it’s too late now.”

“What’s too late?”  Kevin asked, looking over at Alex.

“It’s too late to stop Brian from hurting Nick,” Alex said as he sat down in a nearby chair.

“What do you mean, stop Brian from hurting Nick?”  Kevin asked, standing in front of Alex with an angry look on his face.

“I—I knew about some of the things he had been doing to him,” Alex answered, looking down.

“What kinds of things?”  Aaron and Kevin asked in unison.

“I—I knew about Brian’s sexual and physical abuse of Nick,” Alex replied, taking in a breath as his tears came out full force.

“What!  You knew something was going on and you didn’t say anything!”  Aaron snapped, lunging for Alex as Kevin grabbed him quickly, holding him back.

“Yes, but at the same time, I didn’t want to get involved, mainly since Nick didn’t complain about it,” Alex said as he looked down.  “I—I thought he was into all the things he and Brian did together.  I—I thought he was into all the S and M stuff or something.”

“What!”  Kevin snapped, shaking his head.

“Could there have been a reason for why he didn’t complain?  Could it be that Brian had him strung out on drugs and mesmerized all the damn time?”  Aaron asked, shaking his head.  “I thought Nick was your friend.  How could you allow those things to happen and not tell anyone else?”

“I just told you.  Since Nick wasn’t complaining about how Brian treated him, I didn’t want to get involved,” Alex said as he wiped at his eyes.

“How—how long have you known about this Alex?”  Kevin asked, glaring at Alex.

“Since—since we came back from Europe,” Alex replied as Kevin and Aaron gasped.

“What!”  Kevin exclaimed as Aaron had to push him backwards to stop him from grabbing at Alex.  “All that fucking time and this has been going on and none of us knew about any of it!”

“Wait a minute.  Are you saying that Brian and Nick were together, when you guys started out as a band?”  Aaron asked, crossing his arms across his chest.

“Not—not exactly,” Alex replied.

“Then tell me how exactly,” Aaron said as he got up in Alex’s face.

“Well… Ah… The—the last couple of weeks before we were scheduled to come back home, Nick started acting strange.  From that point on, I started keeping an eye on him.  One day, after we got back from dinner, I saw him and Brian go into a room at the arena.  Suspicious, I walked down to the door and listened.  After a couple of minutes, I heard what sounded like a slap and then I heard Brian yell at Nick for looking at other men,” Alex explained as he looked down.  “As I continued listening, Brian ranted and raved about Nick keeping his eyes to himself and then I heard the sound again that sounded like a slap.  After that, Nick said he was sorry and I thought it was all over until I heard Nick cry out.  When I peeked into the room, he and Brian were having sex, rather roughly.  Brian had him pinned against the wall with his hand over his mouth.”

“Oh my God, he was raping Nick all that time,” Kevin said as he looked away as the tears streamed down his face.  “What kind of friend am I?  I—I never saw any signs of this going on.”

“They—they didn’t want you to see any signs,” Alex replied.

“So, tell me this Alex.  All the bruises that Nick just happened to have on his body, those weren’t from him falling or hurting himself during dance practice, was it?”  Kevin asked.

“No, it was all Brian,” Alex replied.

“Fuck this!  He better hope the court hinds his ass guilty and he goes to prison or I’m going to hurt him myself,” Aaron said as he shook his head.  “You guys are supposed to be his friends!  How—how could to be around him all the time and not know that something like that was happening to him?  I—I don’t believe this!”

“I—I’m sorry Aaron,” Alex said with a frown.  “I—I just…”

“You didn’t want to fucking get involved.  You said that already Alex.  Do you have any other damn excuses?”  Aaron asked, walking over to Alex and then slapping him across the face.  “You’re just as guilty as Brian!”

“Aaron stop, don’t hit him again,” Kevin said as he held Aaron in his arms as he cried.  “I know you’re hurt and upset, but it’s not Alex’s fault that Nick got hurt, it’s Brian’s fault.”

“No, it’s all of your faults!”  Aaron screamed out as more tears fell from his eyes.  “You all should’ve known something was going on with him… with them!”

“It’s hard to tell when something’s wrong with someone, when they hide it so well,” Kevin said as he shook his head.

“You still should’ve told them and us what was going on Alex.  You probably kept that info to yourself because you thought it would break up the damn band,” Aaron said as he pointed his finger in Alex’s face.  “Fuck the Fifth Avenue Boys!”

“That’s not true Aaron,” Alex responded as he shook his head and then looked down.

“Why are you here now Alex?”  Aaron asked, glaring at Alex.  “You have nothing to lose now that you guys aren’t together anymore.”

“Aaron please,” Alex said as more tears fell from his eyes.

“Why don’t you just fucking leave here!  I don’t think you need to be here,” Aaron said as he sniffled and then turned his back to Alex as he continued crying.

“Please Aaron,” Alex said as Aaron raised his hand, interrupting him.

“Just go Alex, I—I don’t want to see or hear from you ever again,” Aaron said as he walked to a corner of the room and wiped at his eyes again.

“I—I guess I’ll go then,” Alex said as he walked out of the room.

“He—he needs to be on trial with Brian,” Aaron stated as he shook his head.  “All of you do.”

The Gym

“Come on Justin, you’ve been quiet all morning.  What’s wrong with you man?”  Steve asked, rubbing Justin’s legs.

“Nothing,” Justin replied with a frown.

“Come on man, I know something’s bothering you.  You were all smiles last night when I left you and now you look like someone stole your cute little puppy,” Steve said, watching Justin’s face.

“I said nothing alright!”  Justin snapped, sighing as he turned his head, looking away from Steve.

“I—I’m sorry Justin,” Steve said with a hurt look on his face.

“No, I’m sorry Steve.  I—I shouldn’t have yelled at you like that,” Justin spoke, reaching out to Steve and hugging him.  “Will you please forgive me; it’s not your fault that Janet Canton is a bitch.”

“Okay, what happened?”  Steve asked, coming to the realization who Justin was talking about.

“She—she doesn’t want Nick being my boyfriend,” Justin replied, sighing.  “She doesn’t want him seeing me.”

“Why not?”  Steve asked, watching Justin.  “What does she have to do with you and him dating?”

“She—she doesn’t want him with me because I’m a cripple.  She doesn’t want me around him.  She claims us being together is unhealthy for Nick,” Justin stated with a frown as he shook his head.

“I thought I told you not to use that word again,” JT said, walking into the room with Mark and Kasai.

“Well hello boss… Hey, what are you doing here little man?  It’s a little bit early for school to be out,” Steve said, looking over at JT and then over at Kasai.

“I had to go pick him up from school, he was in a fight today,” JT stated as he walked over to the mat and then sat down next to Justin.  “He wanted to leave school so quickly, he couldn’t wait for the New Year’s break.”

“Oh man, you were in a fight?  What happened?”  Justin asked, rolling around on the mat with Steve so he could see Kasai.

“Some kids at school were picking on me,” Kasai replied as he looked down.

“Go on,” Mark said, tapping Kasai on his shoulder.

“So, I decided to beat on each of them,” Kasai added as he looked up at Mark.

“And…” Mark said, nudging Kasai.

“And I threatened to kill everyone,” Kasai said as Steve’s eyes widened as he shook his head.

“Whoa lil man, that’s enough to get you kicked out of school,” Steve said, looking at JT and then at Mark strangely.  “Did you get kicked out of school?”

“Oh no, he didn’t get kicked out of school, but he’s suspended for a few days, after school starts again,” JT stated with a frown.

“Aww man, see what happens when you don’t think things through,” Steve said, turning his attention back to Justin.

“They didn’t have any business bothering me.  I wasn’t bothering them and it seems no one else was trying to stop them,” Kasai stated as he sat in a chair close to the door.

“Come on Kasai, you know better than that.  Because people bother you, you don’t take that and turn around and use violence to solve the problem,” Steve stated as he shook his head again.

“Violence solves a whole lot of fucking problems,” Kasai said as he realized what he just said as his eyes widened.  “Oops.”

“What did you just say Kasai Martin Poole?”  JT asked, getting up from where he sat and then walked over to where Kasai was.

“I—I didn’t say anything Daddy,” Kasai replied with a scared look on his face.

“Oh yes you did.  How long have you been using that kind of language?”  JT asked, looking at Kasai with a stern look on his face.

“I—I…” Kasai stuttered out as JT shook his head and then waved his hand dismissively.

“Never mind, I don’t even wanna know,” JT said as he turned his back to Kasai.  “Mark hone, deal with him.”

“Daddy,” Kasai said as his eyes widened in fear.

“I hate to do this Kai, but you’re grounded for the next two weeks,” Mark stated as he looked over at JT.  “During that time, you won’t be watching TV, playing video games, no fun, just staying in your room.  You will only leave your room to eat and go to the bathroom, nothing more than that.”

“Daddy… please,” Kasai whined, looking between Mark and JT with an agitated look on his face.

“You heard what your father said,” JT said, waving his hand again as he turned his attention back to Justin and Steve.

“Okay, fine then,” Kasai said with a sigh.

“Mark honey, can you enforce your punishment right now?  I don’t want to see that boy,” JT said as he shook his head again.

“Honey…” Mark said as JT looked over at him.  “I guess I can.  Are we still having lunch together today?”

“Yeah we are.  Are you going to cook or should I bring food with me?”  JT asked.

“I’ll cook,” Mark answered as he looked at Kasai and then back to JT.

“Cool then.  Could you cook enough for six?”  JT asked, looking over at Mark.

“Six,” Mark said, looking at JT strangely.

“Yeah six.  One, two, three, four, five, six,” JT said, holding up his hand and counting off his fingers as Mark and Steve looked at him strangely as he started laughing.  “I’ll be bringing Justin, Nick, Steve and Angie home with me.  I’m sure you know how to add.”

“Ha ha, real funny baby,” Mark said with a smile.  “I’ll see what I can do.  I’ll see you guys in a bit then.”

“Yep, you sure will,” JT said, laughing again.

“What’s that all about?”  Steve asked, looking at JT strangely again.

“I have the wildest idea,” JT said with a smirk.

“What kind of idea?”  Steve asked.

“I overheard you two talking,” JT said as he looked over at Justin.

“Oh?  You know that Janet Canton is a bitch that doesn’t want this cripple associating with her son,” Justin sarcastically said, sitting up on the mat.

“You aren’t a cripple and who cares what Janet Canton says or thinks?  I think you should see Nick as much as you can,” JT stated as he moved over to his duffle bag.  “This is why I’m taking you and him to my place for lunch.  It’ll give you and him some time to be together and you can think of it as your first date or something.”

“How are you going to get us out of here?”  Justin asked, looking at JT closely.

“Simple, I’ll just say it’s part of your therapy session,” JT replied with a smile.  “Since you do need to learn how to get around outside of the hospital, I thought I would introduce you to that a little bit early.”

“Ah cool, I think,” Justin said as he hugged JT.  “That makes me happy.”

“Wow, he hugged someone and he’s happy,” Steve said, laughing as Justin smacked him on the arm gently.

“I’m glad you’re happy Justin.  I’m going to call Angie so she’ll be ready to go,” JT stated, pulling out his cell phone.

Sometime Later – The Poole-Walden Estates

“Honey, we’re here,” JT called out, walking through the front door with Angela, Steve, Nick and Justin, following behind him.

“I’m in the kitchen baby,” Mark called out.  “Everything’s almost done, go ahead and get comfortable.”

“Alright, we’ll be sitting out in the family room,” JT said as he threw his things down at the door.  “Where’s Kai?”

“He’s up in his room, where I sentenced him to,” Mark replied.  “What do you all want to drink?”

“I think there’s enough iced tea for all of us,” JT stated.

“There is?  Where is it?”  Mark asked, peeking his head from the kitchen.

“It’s out in the garage’s fridge,” JT replied, walking out of the room.

“How are you feeling Justin?”  Angela asked.

“I’m feeling a whole lot better, now that we’re here together,” Justin answered as Steve got up and then walked away as Angela smiled and then walked over to where he stood.

“Where are you going Steve?”  Angela asked, looking at Steve strangely.

“I’m going to check on Kasai and talk with him a bit,” Steve replied, walking over to the stairs.

“Alright, so how long do we have here?”  Angela asked, looking around.

“We’ll be here for two hours, why do you ask?”  JT asked, walking back into the room.

“I just wanted to know whether or not I had to gobble my food down like a mad woman,” Angela said as she laughed as JT sat down.

“No, you don’t have to gobble your food down in a hurry.  We have a whole lot of time here today, so take your time.  I got you cleared to stay here with Nick, since you’re his main nurse,” JT said with a smile.

“Cool, so what did Larry have to say about that?”  Angela asked, looking at JT.

“Nothing much.  Since Justin and Nick are both high priority cases at the hospital, I’m allowed to take whatever means necessary to make their therapy program work for them,” JT stated as Mark walked into the room.

“Alright guys and girl, it’s time to get down,” Mark said as everyone laughed.  “It’s on.”

“I bet it is,” JT said, hugging Mark.  “So, what are we having?”

“On today’s menu, there’s baked chicken, parsley potatoes, broccoli with cheese sauce and garlic rolls,” Mark replied as he kissed his fingertips.

“Oh, so you think you have it like that, it better be good man,” JT stated, snapping his fingers.

“You know everything that I make is always good and delicious, so you better watch your tongue young man,” Mark said as JT laughed and then shot him the bird.

“I just love it when you say things like that to flatter me, calling me a young man, how cute,” JT said as they went into the dining room.

“Is Kasai coming down to eat with us?”  Steve asked, leaning over the stair railing.

“Yeah, tell the little bugger to come on down,” Mark said, smiling weakly.

“Are you sure about that baby?  It’s a little bit too early for parole,” JT said, looking over at Mark.

“He can come down to eat a meal.  When he’s done eating, he’ll be going right back up to his room to serve his sentence,” Mark said, kissing JT on the cheek.  “Okay guys and girl, dig in.”

“This looks wonderful Mark,” Justin commented, moving over to the table as Nick started to sit next to him.  “It smells yummy too.”

“Wait, you two sit over there,” JT said, pointing to the end of the table.  “Steve, you sit here and Angie, you are here.”

“Kai will sit here, right next to me,” Mark said, patting the seat next to him.

“I don’t want to sit there,” Kasai replied, moving away from Mark.

“You will sit there Kai, now sit down,” Mark said in a stern voice.

“You heard what your father said, now sit down,” JT said, waving his hand at Kasai.

“I don’t want to sit there,” Kasai argue, his voice rising a bit.

“Don’t make me get up from this chair boy,” JT said, looking over at Kasai with an angry expression on his face.  “If I get out of this chair, you’ll not like me when I make first contact with you.  Now sit your lil ass down boy.”

“Do you need more time added to your current sentence?”  Mark asked, walking over to where Kasai stood.  “Just sit down and stop making a scene in front of our guests.”

“I’m not the one making the scene here, you two are,” Kasai replied, glaring at Mark.

“You know what; I’m tired of hearing this.  Go on, get up to your room and don’t come back down until I tell you to,” Mark said, glaring at Kasai.

“I…” Kasai said, looking over at JT.

“Nothing Kai, you heard what I said, now move,” Mark said, pointing at the stairs.  “Get!”

“Daddy,” Kasai whined.

“You heard what Mark said, get to stepping boy,” JT said, turning away from Kasai.

“Fine!”  Kasai exclaimed, running up the stairs to his room quickly as the sound of a door slamming could be heard.

“That went fairly well,” Mark said with a frown.

“Okay, what’s going on with him guys?”  Angela asked, looking at JT.  “It’s like he’s a whole new person now.  That’s a new side of my nephew that I don’t like.”

“Don’t know what’s going on with him Angie and I don’t like this new side of him either.  I think something’s wrong, that he’s not telling us,” JT said with a frown.  “There has to be something more to this, than what we already know.”

“There’s nothing wrong with that boy.  He’s just smelling himself like my mom used to say it.  He just doesn’t want to follow the rules around here.  We give him an inch and he expects a foot in return,” Mark said, sitting down at the table.

“Kids,” JT said, shaking his head.  “I’m sorry you all had to witness that.”

“We were kids too.  We’ve all done something like that at some point or another.  I now I acted worse than that at times,” Justin said, chuckling as JT raised an eye at him.

“That’s just not nice to laugh about Justin.  They’re trying to make an example,” Nick said, looking at Justin with a strange expression on his face.

“Oooooh, he’s talking, he’s talking,” JT said, pointing at Nick with a smile on his face.  “I actually thought his voice was non-existent.”

“I can talk.  I only talk when I have something important to say,” Nick replied, looking down.

“Everything you say to me is important Nick,” Justin said, kissing Nick’s hand.

“Awww, that’s was so sweet,” JT said, turning and looking over at Mark.  “Why don’t you say sweet stuff like that to me?”

“I do, you just don’t listen all the time,” Mark said, shaking his head.

“Oh whatever man,” JT said, smiling at the way Nick and Justin watched each other.

To Be Continued…

If I Ain’t Got You – Chapter 12

Chapter 12 — Unfriendly Revelations

Dec 31, 2002 – Orlando, FL – The Home of Joshua Charles and Justin Tanner

Joshua’s POV

“Come on in Kevin, you know where everything is,” I told him, closing the door behind him.

“Hurry up Josh, hurry and get out of those clothes,” Kevin demanded, pushing me down on the sofa.

“Aren’t we going to take this up to the bed?”  I asked, moving back on the sofa as he tried to get my pants open.

“No time for that, I want your ass right here, right now,” he replied, peeling out of his shirt and kicking off his shoes.  “Get the hell out of those clothes Josh.  I’m going to fuck you until you can’t walk straight.”

“Hot damn baby, come on,” I replied, grabbing the buckle of his belt and yanking his pants open.  “I’m ready for you right now.”

“Assume the damn position,” he said, pushing me backwards on the sofa.  “When I’m done with you, you’d know you’ve been fucked by the best.”

“We could do that from my bedroom,” I said, sliding from under him and pulling him to his feet, leading him up the stairs and around the corner to my bedroom as I pushed him down on the bed and then dropped to my knees, taking his dick into my mouth.

“Suck me bitch, suck that dick,” he said, placing his hands on the back of my head, encouraging me to deep throat him.

Kevin thrashed around under me as I continued sucking his dick.  The more I sucked, the more he pressed his hand down on my head, pushing me further down on his dick.  My nose is in his pubes now and I’m close to gagging.  Doing my best to get all of him down my throat, he stopped moving and then pushed me off of him.

“No, I can’t do this Josh,” he said, pulling his pants back up.

“What?  Why can’t you do this?  We’re here and the mood is perfect for this,” I said, pushing him back down on the bed.

“Get off of me Josh!  Because of you, a beautiful woman is upset with me!”  He snapped, walking to the other side of the room.

“Okay, does this have anything to do with the bitch you were talking to at the hospital,” I said as the expression on his face changed.

“She’s not a bitch and yes it does,” he said, getting up in my face as I grabbed him around the neck and kissed his lips.  “Stop it Josh, I’m not going to let you entice me to stay here with you.  If I stay here, I’m blowing all chances with her.”

“Fuck her, you can be here, blowing me right now.  You can have me right now and anytime you want and she’ll probably make you wait before you get to tap that ass,” I told him as I grabbed his ass.  “You know I’m the one you want.  You don’t need a woman.  You need me, I know what you want Kevin.  I know what you like.”

“I—I don’t know what I want right now, but I know I want to get to know her and see what’s possible for the two of us,” he said, rubbing his head.  “Fuck, I don’t know what to do here.  I can’t continue living my life like this.  I’m pissing off everyone in my family being with you and the other men I’ve been…”

“Fuck what everyone else wants Kevin.  It’s your life, not theirs.  If you want to fuck me and other men, then that’s what you want to do.  You don’t have to please anyone but yourself,” I told him as I leaned in and kissed his mouth and he didn’t resist me.

“Maybe you’re right Josh,” he said as he lay back down on the bed.

“You know I’m right Kevin.  I can give you what you want,” I told him, kissing his lips as we started grinding our hips together.

“You can give me what I want?  Josh, you can’t stay committed to any one person for longer than a night,” he said as he pushed me off of him again.  “You’re a ho Josh and you know it.  You’re only as good as your next fuck.”

“Excuse me,” I said, slapping him across the face for insulting me that way.

“You’re excused.  I’m going back to the hospital to check on Nick and then I’m going back to my hotel.  Stay away from me Josh.  You’re not what I need or want.  If you were a different person, things might’ve been different for us, but you’re a whore, a two-bit whore and that’s not the kind of person I’m looking for,” he said as he walked out of my bedroom.

“Fuck you Kevin, I hope you end up with a woman and be miserable forever!”  I screamed out as I heard the front door of the house open and then slam close.

The Poole-Walden Estates – JT and Mark’s Bedroom

Mark’s POV

“Is Kai sleeping baby?”  I asked as JT walked into the bedroom.

“No, he’s still awake.  He’s reading a book, trying to burn some energy, so he can get some sleep,” he replied, sighing as he walked over to the closet.

“I—I think I should go talk to him,” I said, getting up and walking over to where JT stood as I kissed his neck.  “While we ate, he avoided looking at me.”

“Just leave him alone for tonight.  He wants to be left alone,” he said, kissing me on the cheek.  “Have you had a shower yet?”

“Yes, but I can go in there and shower with you baby,” I told him, kissing around his neck again, helping him take off his clothes as he moaned.

“Are you trying to seduce me baby?”  He asked, turning around in my arms as he leaned against the wall and then kissed my lips again.

“Yes, I’m trying to seduce you baby.  I need my daily fill of you baby,” I told him, gently biting his lower lip as he grinned.  “I need to make love to you.”

“Oh really?”  He said, looking at me with that evil grin of his that I love so much.

“Yes, really baby.  I’ve been thinking about you all day long.  I wanted to pull you back into your office earlier and do some naughty things on your desk, but I didn’t want anyone walking in on us and thinking I was a naughty girl or something like that,” I told him as he laughed.

“I don’t think anyone would’ve thought you were a naughty girl, I know what’s between your legs,” he said as he laughed again and then winked at me.

“How about we go get that shower,” I suggested.

“Might as well.  I’m tired and I would really like to get some nookie before my head hits the pillow,” he said, pulling me towards the bathroom.

“Please baby, turn on some warm water.  I don’t feel like freezing like you froze me this morning,” I told him as he turned the water on in the shower.

“Oh alright, you big ole baby,” he said, dropping the rest of his clothes on the floor as he stepped into the shower stall.

I got into the shower behind him and then kissed his mouth as I closed the stall door.  We stood there, allowing the water to wash over our bodies as we stood there, locked in each other’s arms.  I picked up the soap and washcloth and lathered it up quickly.  Washing his back, he held onto me as I continued kissing his neck.  I love this man.  I thank the stars that I have him in my life.  I love him so much.

“Turn around baby, so I can do your front,” I told him, kissing his neck gently as he turned around in my arms.

“You’re just trying to get me hot,” he said, leaning up against the wall of the shower as the spray flowed down his body.  “Come on baby, I’m hot and bothered by you.  Are we going to stay in the shower forever or are we going to dry each other off and go make love?”

“Hell, you don’t have to ask me twice,” I said, turning the water off, stepping out of the stall and leading him out as I grabbed a towel to dry him off.

“Slow down, are you trying to break me in half or something?”  He asked, laughing at the speed I used to dry him off.  “If you don’t stop, I’ll end up having towel burns all over my body.”

“Sorry baby, but I need that milkshake.  You have taught me already, so there’s no need to charge,” I told him, laughing at the expression on his face.

“I’m not Kelis, but come on anyway.  I would just have to settle for you,” he said, teasing my mouth with his lips as he walked past me.

“Hey!  Are you saying you would drop me for a woman?”  I asked, following him back into our bedroom.

“Hell no, I’m sprung on dick and that’s all I want out of life,” he said, plopping down on the bed.  “I’m ready for my close-up Mr. Poole.”

“Hot damn, I’m gonna get some.  Wait until the boys in gym class hear about this,” I said, jumping on the bed as he laughed uncontrollably.

Early Tuesday Morning

JT’s POV

I slept very soundly, until that damn phone rang, disturbing me from my peaceful sleep.  I tell you the truth; someone up there has it in for me when it comes to me getting my much-needed sleep.  Every time I’m having some good sleep, something always happens to disturb it.  It’s like I’m not meant to get the good rest that I need and want.

“Hello,” Mark spoke into the phone that was conveniently on his side of the bed.  “Hold on just a sec Danielle.”

“Hello,” I said into the phone, holding it to my ear.  “What’s wrong Danielle?”

“Nothing’s wrong J, I just called to let you know that I’m resigning from my position at the hospital and moving out to California,” she stated as I slid up in bed.

“You’re moving out to California, why?”  I asked, shaking my head as Mark rolled over.

“Well, all of my family is out there and I finally have the chance to open my own practice,” she replied as I somewhat knew the real reason for her leaving.  “I’m even getting married.”

“You’re getting married?  Lawd, to who?”  I asked, shocked, not figuring her to be the type to marry the guy she’s been dating, being that I didn’t think he was right for her in the first place.  I hope she didn’t lower her standards to marry that creep.

“I’m marrying my high school sweetheart.  He moved out to California a year after we graduated,” she said as I looked at Mark, shrugging my shoulders since I knew the guy she’s dating now isn’t her high school sweetheart.

“So, Malcolm moved out to Cali?”  I asked, rubbing my head.

“No J, Cal, my high school sweetheart moved out to California and he asked me to marry him and I said ‘yes’.  So, basically, I’ll be completely moved out there by the end of the week,” she giddily said.

“What about Malcolm?  What about your patients at the hospital?”  I asked.

“Well you and the new therapist will take them on,” she stated as I’m sure my eyes went wide.  I’m in no mood to deal with psyche cases and my caseload is already heavy as it is.

“What new therapist?”  I asked, sliding around on the bed.

“The one you will meet today,” she said as I got a strange feeling deep down in my gut.  “Don’t get bitchy.  You knew I was going to leave one day.”

“I’m not acting bitchy, yet.  I just don’t like this kind of stuff sprung on me at the last minute Dani,” I stated.  “You know what, we can finish this conversation when I see you at work.”

“Calm down baby,” Mark said as he got up and then wrapped his arms around me as I pressed the button to disconnect the call.

“I am calm,” I said, glaring at him.

“Okay, since you’re so calm, why is that vein in your forehead bulging out like that?”  He asked, kissing my neck.  “Just calm down baby.  Think about something calming and refreshing.”

“Okay fine, I’m not calm,” I replied, getting up and walking over to the closet to pick out what I would wear for the day, sighing as I picked out a few items and threw them on the bed.

“I love you baby,” he declared.

“I love you too Mark,” I replied as there was a knock on the bedroom door.

“Come on in Kai,” Mark said as Kasai walked into the room.

“Hey Daddy, Daddy Mark,” Kasai replied as I turned around and waved at him.

“What’s up buddy?”  I asked as he walked over and hugged me.

“Do I really have to go to school today?  I don’t want to face Lisa or anyone for that matter,” he said with a frown.

“Why don’t you come back after I’ve gotten dressed and I’ll give you an answer then,” I told him.

“Daddy please, please don’t make me go,” he pleaded with me.

“I said I’ll give you an answer after I’ve gotte dressed, now scoot,” I said, smacking him on his behind and sending him on his way back to his room.

“You’re not seriously thinking of letting him stay home from school, are you?”  Mark asked.

“He had a bad night,” I said as he shook his head.

“You spoil that child rotten,” Mark said as I looked back at him.  “Well you do.”

“I’m not spoiling him,” I said, turning back around.

“You let him get away with murder baby.  He does what he wants, when he wants and he talks back to me.  When I try to punish him, you stop me and take his side,” Mark said with a frown.  “The boy is spoiled.  Baby, I urge you to make him go to school.  I know he had a bad night and all, but still, you let him walk all over us and that kind of behavior needs to stop.  All it takes is for him to cry or whine and you melt like butter for him.”

“Okay fine, I’ll tell him to go to school then,” I said, walking into the bathroom and started the shower.  “Are you coming in or not?”

“Yeah, I’m coming in,” he said, walking into the bathroom and closing the door behind him.

“Ready for round two?”  I asked as he stepped out of his boxer shorts and then stepped into the shower with me.

Two Hours Later – Florida Hospital – The Emergency Room

“Good morning Angie… Damn, you look like shit.  What happened to you?”  JT asked, walking over to where Angela stood.

“Don’t ask,” Angela replied, putting her nametag on her shirt.

“Does this have anything to do with the date you went on last night?”  JT asked with a frown.

“Yeah and before you even start JT, I don’t’ want to talk about it.  Just leave it alone,” Angela said as she picked up her clipboard as they walked to the elevator.

“Okay, fine with me.  I guess we all had back luck last night then,” JT said as they stepped into the elevator.

“Where are you going?”  Angela asked.

“I’m going up to my office first and then it’s up to Justin’s room to find out what actually happened last night,” JT replied as he checked his watch.

“What was your bad luck last night about?”  Angela asked.

“Kai got arrested last night for fighting,” JT stated as his pager beeped.

“Lawd, why was that boy fighting?”  Angela asked.

“He went to talk to Lisa last night and he told her that he was gay,” JT stated as Angela looked at him.  “When he was done, she had some of her friends jump him.”

“Well damn.  You know that lil bitch needs her ass beat down,” Angela said as she shook her head.  “You know, if you want me to, I’ll take care of her for you.  I never liked that lil tramp any ole way.”

“Stop that Angie, we have enough drama going on as it is,” JT said as his pager went off again.

“Someone is persistent,” Angela stated.

“I better call and check this out, it looks like one of the patient codes,” JT stated as the elevator dinged on his floor as the doors opened.  “I’ll see you up there in a few minutes.”

“All right, enter a whole new bad day,” Angela said as JT got off the elevator as the doors closed.

“Good morning boss, what’s up?” Steve asked, walking towards JT.

“Did you just beep me?”  JT asked, pulling out the keys to his office.

“No boss, it wasn’t me,” Steve replied, pulling out his keyes.  “I just got here myself.  I’m running a little late today.”

“I see.  So, what’s on the agenda for the day?”  JT asked, sitting behind his desk as he picked up the phone to call his pager service number.  After connecting, he listened to his messages, sighed and then hung up the phone and then got back up.  “That girl has gotten on my last nerve.”

“What’s going on boss?”  Steve asked as JT walked towards the door.

“I have to get to a meeting to deal with Danielle’s replacement,” JT said with a frown.

“Deal with her replacement?  I didn’t know she was leaving,” Steve said as he looked over at JT.

“I didn’t either until she called me before day this morning,” JT stated as his pager went off again.  “Damn, who’s this now?”

“Just go up to your meeting and I’ll get started with Justin and Eric,” Steve said as he waved JT on.

“Eric?”  JT said, not knowing who Steve referred to.

“I got an e-mail last night that Eric Johnson was turned over to me for therapy, so I’ll do him and Justin at the same time,” Steve said, shrugging his shoulders.

“Okay, I’ll come find you when the meeting is over,” JT said as he walked out of the office.

“Alright boss,” Steve replied, waving again.

The Hospital Director’s Office

“I’m glad you could join us Mr. Poole.  Now that you’re here, we can start this meeting,” Larry Tanner, the hospital’s director stated as he glared at JT.

“I’m sorry that I’m late, but I wasn’t aware that there was a meeting scheduled for this morning, pleas I had some things to deal with in my office,” JT stated as he took a seat at the table.

“I called and left a message for you this morning,” Danielle stated, turning around to look at Larry.

“Well I didn’t get a message from you Danielle.  The only messages I received were from Mr. Tanner and I just got those,” JT stated as he pulled the pager from his belt and placed it on the table to show her.  “There are no messages from you Danielle.”

“Regardless of that, this meeting was called to discuss Danielle’s resignation,” Larry stated.

“What’s going to be done with her patients?”  JT asked, turning to look at Danielle with a mean look on his face.

“At the moment, you will have to take them over, until her replacement can be brought up to speed on things,” Larry stated as JT turned and looked at him.

“What!”  JT snapped.  “I’m already backlogged with patients as it is now.  I’m ten patients over the amount I’m supposed to have now.”

“Well you shouldn’t be.  What is it that Mr. Lambert is doing?”  Larry asked.

“Steve is a physical therapist, not a psychologist,” JT stated as he sat forward in his seat.  “Steve is only certified to work with patients that need physical therapy, not the ones that need psychotherapy.”

“So, are you telling me that you can’t do the job JT?”  Larry asked.

“It’s not a matter of doing the job Larry, it’s a matter of having the time to do it,” JT stated as he got up.  “Right now, I have a total of thirty-two patients that I see.  I’m only supposed to have twenty on my caseload here.”

“Well the way I see it JT, you either handle the patients we assign you or you can find yourself another job,” Larry suggested as JT’s eyes widened.

“This is just too much,” JT said as he walked towards the door.  “When does this new replacement start?”

“Valgina Williams will start on Monday,” Danielle announced as JT turned around quickly.

“Valgina Williams?  What the hell!”  JT snapped, walking back over to the table.  “Are you kidding me here?”

“No kidding at all.  Valgina Williams will be taking over for me,” Danielle stated with a smirk on her face.

“Why do I get the feeling that you had something to do with the hospital hiring her Danielle,” JT stated, glaring at her.

“I had nothing to do with her being hired at all,” Danielle replied as JT shook his head.

“I—I don’t fucking believe this.  I believe you set all of this up for the hell of it,” JT stated as he pointed his finger in Danielle’s face.

“I had nothing to do with that at all,” Danielle said as she shook her head.

“Like hell you didn’t!  You orchestrated all of this madness!”  JT snapped, getting up in Danielle’s face.  “You knew what you needed to do to get a rise out of me and some other people around here.”

“I don’t know what you’re talking about JT,” Danielle stated as she shrugged her shoulders and moved back a bit.

“You know damn well what I’m talking about Danielle,” JT said as Larry stood up.

“Maybe you need to leave and calm down a bit JT.  I suggest that you go on about your daily duties and when you calm down, then you can come back and discuss this calmly with me.  If you don’t do that, then I suggest you go clean out your desk and leave,” Larry stated as he sat back down with a smile on his face.  “Are we clear on this JT?”

“Crystal,” JT replied, walking out of Larry’s office quickly.

A Few Minutes Later – Angela’s Nurses’ Station

“What’s wrong with you JT?  Now you’re the one that looks like hell,” Angela said, walking from behind the desk.

“Would you like to take a wild guess at what just happened?”  JT asked, looking at Angela with tears in his eyes.

“No, what happened?”  Angela asked.

“Danielle’s leaving and Valgina Williams, the same Valgina from high school is coming to take her place on Monday,” JT stated as Angela dropped her clipboard to the floor.

“What the hell?  Tell me you’re joking JT,” Angela said as she bent down to pick up her clipboard.

“No, I’m not joking Angie.  Danielle did that shit on purpose,” JT stated as he sat down behind the counter, sniffling as he wiped at his eyes.  “That heffa knew what she was doing and tried to act like she was all innocent and shit!”

“Does this have anything to do with you guys not inviting her to the Bahamas?”  Angela asked.

“I don’t know what it has to do with, but we’re screwed big time come Monday morning,” JT said as he shook his head.  “The new year is going to kick off with a real big bang.”

“What’s going on you two?”  Steve asked, walking up to the counter.

“Bad news dude, guess what?”  Angela asked, looking at Steve as he shrugged his shoulders.

“What?”  Steve said, looking at both of his friends strangely.

“Valgina Williams is back in town,” Angela replied as Steve looked at JT, smiled and then shook his head.

“Come on, stop joking now,” Steve said as JT looked at him with a stern look on his face.

“No joke buddy, she’ll be working here on Monday,” JT stated as Steve looked at him and then looked at Angela.

“What the fuck!”  Steve screamed and then covered his mouth, realizing what he’d just done.

“Calm down Steve, she’s not here yet.  She won’t be here until Monday, that’s when she officially starts work here.  She’s replacing Danielle,” JT stated.

“That’s just fucking great.  I can’t work here with her,” Steve said as he looked around, his expression showing a panicky one.  “It’ll be like high school all over again.”

“I know sweetie, I know,” Angela replied as she walked around and hugged him.

“We’ll do what we can to keep her away from you,” JT replied with a frown.  “You know he has a point Angie.”

“I know JT,” Angela replied, sighing.

Flashback

Sometime in the Past

“I knew you two were might close for a reason,” Valgina said, walking around the table in the school’s lunchroom.

“Look Valgina, we don’t want any trouble here,” Steve said, looking up at the girl.

“I don’t care what you want Stevie.  You should’ve thought about that before you started looking at my man,” Valgina said, pulling out a note from her purse.

“What’s that?”  Steve asked, looking at the piece of paper in Valgina’s hand.

“This is the proof that I have of what you are, you fucking faggot,” Valgina ssaid, laughing as she walked to the front of the lunchroom.

“Oh God, what is she doing JT?”  Steve asked, following Valgina around the room with his eyes.

“I don’t know, but whatever it is, I don’t think it’s going to end well,” JT replied, shaking his head.

“May I have everyone’s attention please?  Listen up guys and girls; I have proof here that we have two unique fags among us in this very school.  That’s right guys, I said fags.  Beware of John Poole and Steven Lambert.  Those two guys right over there are booty bandits.  Look out, they might want you too.  If you want to know if you’re on their radar, check out this list,” Valgina announced, standing on top of a lunch table as she held up the piece of paper she had in her hand.  “This piece of paper is a list of all the guys they want to have sex with.  Come and look and see what the fags said about you.”

“Oh God,” JT said as he grabbed Steve’s hand as the two of them left the lunchroom quickly.

End Flashback

To Be Continued…

If I Ain’t Got You – Chapter 11

Chapter 11 — Dramatic Pause

Dec 30, 2002 – Orlando, FL – Florida Hospital – Nick’s Hospital Room

JT’s POV

“Hello,” I spoke into the phone.

“Baby, have you seen Kai?”  I heard Mark’s voice ask.

“No I haven’t, why?  Is there something wrong Mark?”  I asked, not liking the sound of his voice.

“We—we got into an argument and he ran off from me and I can’t find him,” Mark said as I shook my head, wondering what they had gotten into this time.

“What do you mean he ran off and you can’t find him?”  I asked, not realizing I had raised my voice.

“Baby, stop screaming,” he said as the call waiting beep sounded on the line.

“Hold on Mark, I have another call,” I said as I switched over to the other line.  “Hello?”

“Daddy, I need your help,” I heard Kasai’s voice on the line, sounding as if he was crying.

“Kasai, where are you?”  I asked.  “Mark’s on the other line, telling me that you two got into it again and that you ran away from him.  What’s going on boy?”

“Not now Daddy, I need you to come down to the police station and get me,” Kasai stated as multiple images flooded my mind of the reasons why he was there.

“I need to go to the police station and get you?  What’re you doing there?”  I asked, angry with him now.

“I—I got attacked, I just need you to come get me,” he said as he sniffled.  “I told the officers to take me to where you were, but instead they brought me here and said that I needed my parents to come get me.”

“Oh God son, are you okay?”  I asked, my anger fading.

“I will be, as soon as you come and get me.  I’m scared here and I want to go home,” he said as there was a loud scream and a gunshot in the background.

“Kai, what’s going on there?”  I asked, my mood turning into a frantic one.

“Some guy just got shot.  He was raping another prisoner here.  Daddy hurry up and come get me!”  Kasai demanded.

“I’m on my way,” I replied, closing the phone and walking towards the door.

“Is everything okay?”  Janet asked, watching me.

“No, it’s not okay.  We’ll he to finish this some other time.  I need to go,” I stated, walking out the room.

A Few Minutes Later – The Lobby

JT’s POV

“How could you treat him like that Mark?  Sometimes I wonder about you.  If he’s gay, he’s gay.  So what, we’re gay!”  I snapped, walking through the hospital doors.

“Yeah and look at all the crap we’ve had to go through in the last couple of years together,” Mark said with a frown. “I don’t want him going through the same shit we’ve had to go through baby.  I love him and I don’t want to see him hurt in any way.”

“I know you love him, but sometimes you can be a little bit harsh,” I said, getting into the van as I closed the door and then got the seatbelt buckled.  “We’ll just have to smooth this over later on, right now we just need to go get him and get him home.”

“Baby, you know I wouldn’t do anything to intentionally hurt him,” he said, leaning over and kissing me on the cheek.

“I know Mark, just drive.  While I talked with him on the phone, I heard a gunshot,” I told him as he swerved and looked at me.

“You heard a gunshot?”  He asked as I nodded my head.

“Yeah, Kai said that one of the prisoners was being raped and from the sounds of things, I guess the guards had to shoot the one doing the raping,” I told him as we arrived at the police station.  “Come on.”

“Baby, why don’t you stay here while I go in and get him,” he told me.

“I’m not staying out here… I’m going in there to get my child.  You can stay out here if you like, but I’m not,” I told him, opening the door and grabbing my crutches.

“Wait for me baby,” he said as I walked up the steps and got to the door.  “I got that.”

“Thanks,” I said as we walked down to the windowed counter.  “Hi, I’m JT Poole and I’m here to pick up my son, Kasai Poole.”

“You’re the kid’s dad?”  The man behind the counter asked as I looked at him funny.

“Yes, I’m his dad.  What seems to be the problem?”  I asked.

“You don’t look like a queen,” the officer said as I looked at him funny, wondering where this was going.

“I don’t look like a ‘queen’?  What is that supposed to mean?”  I asked, watching the man as my anger level rose.

“Your son was brought in here for starting a fight.  He shot his mouth off to some guys that were bigger than he is and he couldn’t handle it.  From what I heard, he was defending his gay dad,” the man stated as Mark stepped up behind me.

“I’m his gay dad, what’s your fucking point mister?”  I asked, slipping into bitch mode.  “I came here to pick up my son and I’m still waiting.”

“Hold your horses there.  Sheesh, I guess you are a queen,” the man said as he moved over to another part of the counter and grabbed a folder and then picked up a phone.

“Keep on talking mister and I’ll sue you and this entire place for your actions.  You’re pressing your luck with me tonight,” I stated as a police officer came around the corner with Kasai.

“Daddy!”  Kasai screamed, running over and hugging me tightly.

“Are you okay kid?”  I asked as he cried in my arms.  “I guess that’s a no.”

“What did you people do to him?”  Mark asked, looking at the two men.

“We didn’t do anything to the little wimp.  He’s been sitting back there in a cell since we brought him in,” the first man spoke as I looked at him like he had lost his damn mind.

“Why was he sitting back there, in a damn cell?”  I asked, my pissed off mood coming back full force.

“He broke the law.  When someone breaks the law, we put them in a jail cell.  That’s why it’s called jail,” the first man spoke as I shook my head.

“Okay, before this goes any further, is he free to go?”  I asked, starring the officer down.

“Yeah, he’s free to leave here.  Just make sure he stays out of trouble,” the first man spoke as he looked at me like he wanted to say more.

“Well thank you officer, we’ll be leaving now.  Have a good night,” I said as we walked out and headed back to the van.

“Are you okay?”  Mark asked, looking at Kai, getting no answer as we got to the van, opened the doors and got in.

“How did all of this start Kai?”  I asked, turning around in my seat a little bit so I could see him.

“After I left Daddy Mark at the hospital, I walked over to Lisa’s to talk about what we talked about earlier.  I got to her place, we talked and I was going to change my mind about telling her, but then I thought it would be wrong to lead her on.  I told her about my feelings and then she kicked me out.  After I left her place, some of her friends ran after me and tried to beat me up.  That’s when the police arrived and took us all to jail,” Kasai explained as Mark shook his head.

“So, Lisa sent her friends to attack you because you told her you’re gay?”  I asked.

“Yeah,” he replied as he sniffled.  “I wasn’t trying to hurt her.  I was only trying to keep from hurting her, but it seems it didn’t matter either way.  This is just great.  I won’t be able to show my face around school now.”

“Why is that?”  Mark asked.

“She’s going to tell everybody that I’m gay and her friends will too,” Kasai said as he sniffled.

“You have to be strong son.  Regardless of what she or anyone else thinks of you, you’re being true to yourself and trying to be true to her.  If she’s that small minded and inconsiderate, then she never liked you in the first place,” I told him as I climbed into the backseat with him and pulled him into my arms, holding him tight as he cried.

“It’s going to be okay, just don’t worry about any of this,” Mark stated as he looked in the rearview mirror.  “This will pass, I promise you that.”

“I hope so Daddy Mark, if not, I might be able to handle it,” Kasai stated as he held onto me.

“You’ll be just fine son,” I told him, kissing the top of his head.

“We’re almost home.  Do you guys want to go grab something to eat or order something in?”  Mark asked, turning onto Ventura.

“Kai, do you want to stop and get something?”  I asked.

“No, not really Daddy, I’ll get something out of the kitchen at home,” he lightly spoke.

“Alright,” I replied, smoothing his hair back on his head.  “Baby, what did you do with the food I had left over from Chili’s?”

“I ate it baby, I told you if you didn’t finish it, I would,” Mark said, laughing at me.

“Well damn, I guess I’ll cook something then,” I said, shaking my head.  “Mr. Greedy.”

“Fine, I’ll cook something.  You and baby boy go into the family room and I’ll prepare a nice late dinner,” Mark said as we turned on our street.

“Could we watch a movie?”  Kasai asked as I nodded my head.

“Sure, what do you want to watch?”  I asked as we pulled into the driveway.

“I don’t care what we watch,” Kasai replied as Mark smiled.

“How about we watch one of our favorites baby?  Why don’t we watch a Ricki Lake movie?”  Mark asked as he turned off the van, unbuckled his seatbelt, got out and closed the door, walking around to the passenger side to help me out.  “We could maybe watch ‘Serial Mom’ or ‘Miss Winterbourne’ this time,” Mark suggested as I shook my head.

“Or we could watch ‘Babycakes’ or ‘Hairspray’.  I love those movies the most,” I said as Mark shook his head as he helped me out of the van.

“Why don’t we try ‘Babycakes’.  I keep falling asleep on that one when you play it,” Mark responded and then laughed.

“That’s because you’re always half asleep when I’m watching it,” I said as I kissed him on the cheek as he held me up.

“Do you need your chair baby or do you think you can make it?”  He asked as Kasai moved around the two of us.

“I think I can make it handsome,” I replied as I took my crutches from Kasai as we walked up to the front door.

“Why don’t we call Aunt Angie and see if she wants to come over,” Kasai said as he looked at me.

“Sorry bud, but Angie’s not available at this time,” I told him, just as the phone started to ring inside the house.  “Go in there and get the phone Kai.”

“Okay Daddy,” Kasai said as he unlocked the door and then ran into the foyer to grab the phone.

“Who is it?”  I asked.

“It’s someone from the hospital,” Kasai replied as he stood by the kitchen entrance, holding the phone in his hand.

“Do you have to go back to work baby?”  Mark asked, sitting my wheelchair down in front of me.

“I don’t know.  I haven’t even taken the call yet.  Let me find out what’s going on first,” I told him as I took the phone from Kasai.  “Hello…”

“Mr. Poole, there seems to be a problem here at the hospital that requires your approval,” I heard the voice of Candy, one of the nurses from the sector Nick was currently in.

“What requires my approval Candy?”  I asked, wondering what she would be calling me for at this time of night as I looked over at Mark strangely as he shrugged his shoulders and then started making funny faces.

“There’s a problem concerning Mr. Canton.  He’s in Mr. Tanner’s room and he’s refusing to leave.  He stated that he wasn’t leaving the room and that he was going to remain there until morning,” Candy explained as I shook my head, wondering why she was calling me for something like that.

“So let him stay in there.  I don’t see any harm with that.  Did you call Dr. Warrenton or Dr. Donaldson about this matter?”  I asked.

“They both said whatever you said goes, since Ms. Michaels isn’t available,” Candy replied as I shook my head again.

“I don’t see the harm in him being in Justin’s room.  Let him stay in here.  They’re in the same therapy group and they’re adults.  It’s quite alright,” I stated.

“Okay Mr. Poole, I’ll make a note of this,” she said as I shook my head.

“Is there anything else Candy?”  I asked.

“No sir,” she replied.

“Alright Candy, have a good night then,” I said, hanging up the phone and then walking into the kitchen where Mark was mixing some stuff in a bowl.  “What are you making Mista Poole?”

“I’m mixing some sauce for the steak kabobs that are on the grill in the back Mista Walden,” he replied, kissing me on the cheek.

“You do realize it’s cold outside, right?”  I asked, walking over to the refrigerator.

“Yes baby, I do realize that,” he said with a smile.  “I’m only cooking the steak kabobs out there.  I have baked potatoes in the oven and I’ve already prepared a garden salad.”

“Oh my, you’re on the ball in here,” I said as he smiled.  “Where’s Kai?”

“He said he was going to shower,” he replied as he put the bowl down.  “Baby, grab the buzzer, the potatoes are ready.”

“Okay,” I replied, walking over to the oven, opening it and smiling at the smell of the potatoes.  “Those look good.  What did you top them with?”

“No baby, no tasting until it’s time to sit down at the table,” he said, smacking my hand.

“Well hurry up, I’m ready to eat,” I said as he shook his head.

“Who’s being greedy now?”  He asked as I shook my head and then threw a towel at him.  “Hey, watch it baby.”

“Yeah yeah, whatever,” I said as he walked over and kissed my mouth.

Dec 31, 2002 – The Spot Nightclub

“Hey baby, what’re you doing here?”  Joshua Charles asked, walking up to Kevin Richards as he sat on a barstool at the bar with a beer in his hand.

“Oh hell no, just leave me alone Josh.  Just stay far away from me,” Kevin stated as he put the beer down and then got up from the bar and started walking towards the exit.

“I’m not going to leave you alone Kev, I know that look.  Someone has hurt your dick’s feelings.  Was it that chick from the hospital that you were talking to earlier?”  Joshua asked.

“Just mind your own damn business Josh,” Kevin said as he continued walking.

“Come on Kevin, you know you don’t want me to leave you alone,” Joshua said as he got closer to Kevin, grabbed his arm and stopped him from walking away as he placed his hand on his crotch, squeezing gently.

“Cut that out Josh,” Kevin said as he smacked Josh’s hand away from his crotch.

“I won’t.  You know you love it when I do that.  You never complained about me squeezing you there before.  You used to love it when I played with your cock and sucked it until you came all over my face,” Joshua stated in a seductive tone as he rubbed his fingers slowly across Kevin’s chest.  “You know you want to fuck me tonight.  You know you want me to touch…”

“No I don’t,” Kevin replied, his voice trembling a bit.

“Yes you do Kevin, your voice is betraying you right now.  I can hear it in your voice of how much you want to screw me right now,” Joshua said as he leaned in close and kissed Kevin’s neck while he slowly massaged his cock through his pants.  “Come on Kevin, let’s just go back to my house and make love like we used to all night long.”

“I don’t want to do that Josh, just leave me alone, please,” Kevin said in a small voice.  “I—I can’t do that anymore… I—I’m a changed man.”

“Okay Kevin, have it your way.  You know you could be at my place right now, fucking my ass, over and over again.  In and out, in and out, over and over again, filling me up with your cum, making me beg you to pound me, harder and harder, faster and faster,” Joshua said as he punctuated each of his words with a squeeze to Kevin’s cock.

“Damn it Josh, you know I can’t resist you when you do that to me,” Kevin said, panting like he had been running in a marathon.

“Come on Kevin, why don’t we take this back to my place, so I can make you really breathe heavy.  When I’m done with you, you’d have a reason to breathe like that,” Joshua said as he leaned in and kissed Kevin’s mouth and then pulled him towards the door.

Florida Hospital – Justin’s Hospital Room

“It’s very simple really, all you have to do is make sure that no one comes in the room,” Justin said as he shook his head.

“You know you can’t do that Justin.  The nurses have to come in and check on you hourly, to make sure your body is functioning properly,” Jamie said as he walked over to where Nick and Justin sat on the bed.

“Why not, we just want to be here, in peace,” Justin said with a frown.  “We can’t have peace with everyone in and out of here, all the damn time.”

“The hospital isn’t a place for meetings Justin, this is your life we’re talking about here,” Jamie said as Marshall walked back into the room.

“Don’t you two understand where I’m coming from here?”  Justin asked, frowning as he looked at Jamie.

“I understand you Justin, but now isn’t the time.  You need to wait until you’re released in a few weeks,” Jamie stated as he sighed.

“I don’t want to wait a few weeks, we have now,” Justin said as he held Nick’s hand.

“I give up, we’ve been here for the last hour, trying to explain this to you.  You just don’t want to listen, you’re too darn stubborn,” Jamie stated as there was a knock at the door.

“Hello Mr. Tanner,” a nurse spoke, peeking her head into the room.  “I need to check your colostomy bag, if it’s okay if I come in?”

“Sure,” Justin replied as the nurse stepped into the room.

“Thank you.  Can you all please leave the room,” the nurse spoke as Jamie and Marshall moved towards the door but Nick didn’t.

“That includes you too sir,” the woman stated, looking at Nick.

“He can stay,” Justin responded as he looked at the woman, the expression on his face, speaking volumes of it’s own.

“Okay then,” the nurse stated as she picked up Justin’s chart, checked off some things and then moved around the bed to where he and Nick were.  “I need you to lift your shirt.”

“Yes ma’am,” Justin replied as he lifted the nightshirt he wore as the nurse pulled on a pair of gloves and then examined the tubing that was inserted into his abdominal wall.  “Is this going to take long?”

“Not at all Mr. Tanner,” the nurse replied with a smile as Justin frowned as she moved over to the sink, opened a cabinet and grabbed a gauze packet out and opened it.

“Is that thing going to be removed or do I have to keep it forever?”  Justin asked, pointing at the small pouch on his side as the nurse came back over and used the gauze to wipe around the opening.

“Right now, you have to have this until your intestines have healed and you can fully use the bathroom on your own,” the nurse answered.

“That’s just great,” Justin replied as he sighed again.

“Didn’t the doctor explain all of this to you?”  The nurse asked, disposing of the gauze and then removing the gloves as she went over to the sink and washed her hands.

“Probably so, it probably went over my head though and I had no idea what they were talking about,” Justin stated as the nurse motioned with her hand that he could put his shirt back down.

“Well if you like, I can have your PT tell you all about this stuff again,” the nurse stated as Justin just looked at her strangely.

“My PT?  What’s that?”  Justin asked.

“Your PT is your physical therapist.  I see that you have Mr. Poole and he’s also your counselor,” the nurse stated with a smile.

“Yeah,” Justin said, nodding his head.

“Well I’ll just make a note on your chart so he can go over this stuff with you,” the nurse stated as she picked up the chart again and then flipped some pages.  “Is there anything I can get you before I leave sir?”

“No thank you,” Justin replied as Lynn, Janet, Jamie and Marshall walked into the room.

“You have a good night sir,” the nurse stated, walking out of the room as Janet and Lynn looked at each other and then started arguing.

“What’s going on here?”  Justin asked, looking between his mother and Janet.

“You two need to cut it out,” Jamie suggested as Janet looked at him strangely.

“You stay out of this, you have nothing to do with this,” Janet said as she pointed her finger at Jamie.

“Don’t talk to him like that!”  Lynn snapped, pointing her finger at Janet.  “I can’t believe you said that about my son, I ought…”

“I’m telling the truth, I’m not trying to be hurtful or anything.  I don’t believe they should be together,” Janet stated as she glared at Lynn.

“I feel the same way, but not for the same reasons as you,” Lynn stated, walking over to the table and sitting down.  “I want Justin to get better before he starts dating someone.”

“I don’t think Nick would be in a good, healthy relationship, being with your son.  He’s a cripple and that doesn’t make for a good life,” Janet said as Lynn got up, walked over to where Janet stood and then smacked the hell out of her as Jamie and Marshall had to move quickly to grab her, holding her back from hitting Janet again.

“You bitch!”  Lynn snapped, fuming mad as she struggled to get away from Jamie and Marshall as the nurse returned.

“There’s too much noise in here, I’m calling security,” the nurse stated, standing in the doorway to the room.

“Lynn, you need to calm down,” Jamie stated as he tried to hold Lynn back from hitting Janet again.

“Please stop Mom,” Justin begged as he slid out of the bed and got into his wheelchair.  “Please stop fighting.”

“Look at him, I’m right, can’t you see that!”  Janet snapped, pointing at Justin.  “Do you actually see yourself being with someone like him Nick?  Speak to me son.”

“Yes Mom, I do see myself being with him,” Nick answered for the first time, since he’d been in Justin’s room.  “He’s nice to me.  He’s making me happy right now.”

“How in the hell is he making you happy?  He can’t walk!”  Janet snapped, walking over to Nick as she pointed at Justin.

“He’s not Brian, he’s not Jacob and he’s definitely not James,” Nick stated as he looked up at Janet.  “I can feel it.  Justin’s different.  I don’t believe he’ll hurt me, not like they did.”

“Of course he’s different, he can’t walk away from you like the others did,” Janet said, shaking her head.  “Please tell me this isn’t a pity relationship.”

“Thank you Mrs. Canton,” Justin stated as he wheeled out of the room.

“Justin, Justin wait, please don’t go,” Nick said as he got up. “Thanks Mom, thank you very fucking much!”

“What in the hell is wrong with you?”  Lynn asked as she got away from Jamie and Marshall.  “There must be something wrong in that blond head of yours!  Do you realize what you’ve done?”

“I don’t really care,” Janet said as Lynn shook her head and then hauled off and smacked her in the face again.

To Be Continued…