If I Ain’t Got You – Chapter 12

Chapter 12 — Unfriendly Revelations

Dec 31, 2002 – Orlando, FL – The Home of Joshua Charles and Justin Tanner

Joshua’s POV

“Come on in Kevin, you know where everything is,” I told him, closing the door behind him.

“Hurry up Josh, hurry and get out of those clothes,” Kevin demanded, pushing me down on the sofa.

“Aren’t we going to take this up to the bed?”  I asked, moving back on the sofa as he tried to get my pants open.

“No time for that, I want your ass right here, right now,” he replied, peeling out of his shirt and kicking off his shoes.  “Get the hell out of those clothes Josh.  I’m going to fuck you until you can’t walk straight.”

“Hot damn baby, come on,” I replied, grabbing the buckle of his belt and yanking his pants open.  “I’m ready for you right now.”

“Assume the damn position,” he said, pushing me backwards on the sofa.  “When I’m done with you, you’d know you’ve been fucked by the best.”

“We could do that from my bedroom,” I said, sliding from under him and pulling him to his feet, leading him up the stairs and around the corner to my bedroom as I pushed him down on the bed and then dropped to my knees, taking his dick into my mouth.

“Suck me bitch, suck that dick,” he said, placing his hands on the back of my head, encouraging me to deep throat him.

Kevin thrashed around under me as I continued sucking his dick.  The more I sucked, the more he pressed his hand down on my head, pushing me further down on his dick.  My nose is in his pubes now and I’m close to gagging.  Doing my best to get all of him down my throat, he stopped moving and then pushed me off of him.

“No, I can’t do this Josh,” he said, pulling his pants back up.

“What?  Why can’t you do this?  We’re here and the mood is perfect for this,” I said, pushing him back down on the bed.

“Get off of me Josh!  Because of you, a beautiful woman is upset with me!”  He snapped, walking to the other side of the room.

“Okay, does this have anything to do with the bitch you were talking to at the hospital,” I said as the expression on his face changed.

“She’s not a bitch and yes it does,” he said, getting up in my face as I grabbed him around the neck and kissed his lips.  “Stop it Josh, I’m not going to let you entice me to stay here with you.  If I stay here, I’m blowing all chances with her.”

“Fuck her, you can be here, blowing me right now.  You can have me right now and anytime you want and she’ll probably make you wait before you get to tap that ass,” I told him as I grabbed his ass.  “You know I’m the one you want.  You don’t need a woman.  You need me, I know what you want Kevin.  I know what you like.”

“I—I don’t know what I want right now, but I know I want to get to know her and see what’s possible for the two of us,” he said, rubbing his head.  “Fuck, I don’t know what to do here.  I can’t continue living my life like this.  I’m pissing off everyone in my family being with you and the other men I’ve been…”

“Fuck what everyone else wants Kevin.  It’s your life, not theirs.  If you want to fuck me and other men, then that’s what you want to do.  You don’t have to please anyone but yourself,” I told him as I leaned in and kissed his mouth and he didn’t resist me.

“Maybe you’re right Josh,” he said as he lay back down on the bed.

“You know I’m right Kevin.  I can give you what you want,” I told him, kissing his lips as we started grinding our hips together.

“You can give me what I want?  Josh, you can’t stay committed to any one person for longer than a night,” he said as he pushed me off of him again.  “You’re a ho Josh and you know it.  You’re only as good as your next fuck.”

“Excuse me,” I said, slapping him across the face for insulting me that way.

“You’re excused.  I’m going back to the hospital to check on Nick and then I’m going back to my hotel.  Stay away from me Josh.  You’re not what I need or want.  If you were a different person, things might’ve been different for us, but you’re a whore, a two-bit whore and that’s not the kind of person I’m looking for,” he said as he walked out of my bedroom.

“Fuck you Kevin, I hope you end up with a woman and be miserable forever!”  I screamed out as I heard the front door of the house open and then slam close.

The Poole-Walden Estates – JT and Mark’s Bedroom

Mark’s POV

“Is Kai sleeping baby?”  I asked as JT walked into the bedroom.

“No, he’s still awake.  He’s reading a book, trying to burn some energy, so he can get some sleep,” he replied, sighing as he walked over to the closet.

“I—I think I should go talk to him,” I said, getting up and walking over to where JT stood as I kissed his neck.  “While we ate, he avoided looking at me.”

“Just leave him alone for tonight.  He wants to be left alone,” he said, kissing me on the cheek.  “Have you had a shower yet?”

“Yes, but I can go in there and shower with you baby,” I told him, kissing around his neck again, helping him take off his clothes as he moaned.

“Are you trying to seduce me baby?”  He asked, turning around in my arms as he leaned against the wall and then kissed my lips again.

“Yes, I’m trying to seduce you baby.  I need my daily fill of you baby,” I told him, gently biting his lower lip as he grinned.  “I need to make love to you.”

“Oh really?”  He said, looking at me with that evil grin of his that I love so much.

“Yes, really baby.  I’ve been thinking about you all day long.  I wanted to pull you back into your office earlier and do some naughty things on your desk, but I didn’t want anyone walking in on us and thinking I was a naughty girl or something like that,” I told him as he laughed.

“I don’t think anyone would’ve thought you were a naughty girl, I know what’s between your legs,” he said as he laughed again and then winked at me.

“How about we go get that shower,” I suggested.

“Might as well.  I’m tired and I would really like to get some nookie before my head hits the pillow,” he said, pulling me towards the bathroom.

“Please baby, turn on some warm water.  I don’t feel like freezing like you froze me this morning,” I told him as he turned the water on in the shower.

“Oh alright, you big ole baby,” he said, dropping the rest of his clothes on the floor as he stepped into the shower stall.

I got into the shower behind him and then kissed his mouth as I closed the stall door.  We stood there, allowing the water to wash over our bodies as we stood there, locked in each other’s arms.  I picked up the soap and washcloth and lathered it up quickly.  Washing his back, he held onto me as I continued kissing his neck.  I love this man.  I thank the stars that I have him in my life.  I love him so much.

“Turn around baby, so I can do your front,” I told him, kissing his neck gently as he turned around in my arms.

“You’re just trying to get me hot,” he said, leaning up against the wall of the shower as the spray flowed down his body.  “Come on baby, I’m hot and bothered by you.  Are we going to stay in the shower forever or are we going to dry each other off and go make love?”

“Hell, you don’t have to ask me twice,” I said, turning the water off, stepping out of the stall and leading him out as I grabbed a towel to dry him off.

“Slow down, are you trying to break me in half or something?”  He asked, laughing at the speed I used to dry him off.  “If you don’t stop, I’ll end up having towel burns all over my body.”

“Sorry baby, but I need that milkshake.  You have taught me already, so there’s no need to charge,” I told him, laughing at the expression on his face.

“I’m not Kelis, but come on anyway.  I would just have to settle for you,” he said, teasing my mouth with his lips as he walked past me.

“Hey!  Are you saying you would drop me for a woman?”  I asked, following him back into our bedroom.

“Hell no, I’m sprung on dick and that’s all I want out of life,” he said, plopping down on the bed.  “I’m ready for my close-up Mr. Poole.”

“Hot damn, I’m gonna get some.  Wait until the boys in gym class hear about this,” I said, jumping on the bed as he laughed uncontrollably.

Early Tuesday Morning

JT’s POV

I slept very soundly, until that damn phone rang, disturbing me from my peaceful sleep.  I tell you the truth; someone up there has it in for me when it comes to me getting my much-needed sleep.  Every time I’m having some good sleep, something always happens to disturb it.  It’s like I’m not meant to get the good rest that I need and want.

“Hello,” Mark spoke into the phone that was conveniently on his side of the bed.  “Hold on just a sec Danielle.”

“Hello,” I said into the phone, holding it to my ear.  “What’s wrong Danielle?”

“Nothing’s wrong J, I just called to let you know that I’m resigning from my position at the hospital and moving out to California,” she stated as I slid up in bed.

“You’re moving out to California, why?”  I asked, shaking my head as Mark rolled over.

“Well, all of my family is out there and I finally have the chance to open my own practice,” she replied as I somewhat knew the real reason for her leaving.  “I’m even getting married.”

“You’re getting married?  Lawd, to who?”  I asked, shocked, not figuring her to be the type to marry the guy she’s been dating, being that I didn’t think he was right for her in the first place.  I hope she didn’t lower her standards to marry that creep.

“I’m marrying my high school sweetheart.  He moved out to California a year after we graduated,” she said as I looked at Mark, shrugging my shoulders since I knew the guy she’s dating now isn’t her high school sweetheart.

“So, Malcolm moved out to Cali?”  I asked, rubbing my head.

“No J, Cal, my high school sweetheart moved out to California and he asked me to marry him and I said ‘yes’.  So, basically, I’ll be completely moved out there by the end of the week,” she giddily said.

“What about Malcolm?  What about your patients at the hospital?”  I asked.

“Well you and the new therapist will take them on,” she stated as I’m sure my eyes went wide.  I’m in no mood to deal with psyche cases and my caseload is already heavy as it is.

“What new therapist?”  I asked, sliding around on the bed.

“The one you will meet today,” she said as I got a strange feeling deep down in my gut.  “Don’t get bitchy.  You knew I was going to leave one day.”

“I’m not acting bitchy, yet.  I just don’t like this kind of stuff sprung on me at the last minute Dani,” I stated.  “You know what, we can finish this conversation when I see you at work.”

“Calm down baby,” Mark said as he got up and then wrapped his arms around me as I pressed the button to disconnect the call.

“I am calm,” I said, glaring at him.

“Okay, since you’re so calm, why is that vein in your forehead bulging out like that?”  He asked, kissing my neck.  “Just calm down baby.  Think about something calming and refreshing.”

“Okay fine, I’m not calm,” I replied, getting up and walking over to the closet to pick out what I would wear for the day, sighing as I picked out a few items and threw them on the bed.

“I love you baby,” he declared.

“I love you too Mark,” I replied as there was a knock on the bedroom door.

“Come on in Kai,” Mark said as Kasai walked into the room.

“Hey Daddy, Daddy Mark,” Kasai replied as I turned around and waved at him.

“What’s up buddy?”  I asked as he walked over and hugged me.

“Do I really have to go to school today?  I don’t want to face Lisa or anyone for that matter,” he said with a frown.

“Why don’t you come back after I’ve gotten dressed and I’ll give you an answer then,” I told him.

“Daddy please, please don’t make me go,” he pleaded with me.

“I said I’ll give you an answer after I’ve gotte dressed, now scoot,” I said, smacking him on his behind and sending him on his way back to his room.

“You’re not seriously thinking of letting him stay home from school, are you?”  Mark asked.

“He had a bad night,” I said as he shook his head.

“You spoil that child rotten,” Mark said as I looked back at him.  “Well you do.”

“I’m not spoiling him,” I said, turning back around.

“You let him get away with murder baby.  He does what he wants, when he wants and he talks back to me.  When I try to punish him, you stop me and take his side,” Mark said with a frown.  “The boy is spoiled.  Baby, I urge you to make him go to school.  I know he had a bad night and all, but still, you let him walk all over us and that kind of behavior needs to stop.  All it takes is for him to cry or whine and you melt like butter for him.”

“Okay fine, I’ll tell him to go to school then,” I said, walking into the bathroom and started the shower.  “Are you coming in or not?”

“Yeah, I’m coming in,” he said, walking into the bathroom and closing the door behind him.

“Ready for round two?”  I asked as he stepped out of his boxer shorts and then stepped into the shower with me.

Two Hours Later – Florida Hospital – The Emergency Room

“Good morning Angie… Damn, you look like shit.  What happened to you?”  JT asked, walking over to where Angela stood.

“Don’t ask,” Angela replied, putting her nametag on her shirt.

“Does this have anything to do with the date you went on last night?”  JT asked with a frown.

“Yeah and before you even start JT, I don’t’ want to talk about it.  Just leave it alone,” Angela said as she picked up her clipboard as they walked to the elevator.

“Okay, fine with me.  I guess we all had back luck last night then,” JT said as they stepped into the elevator.

“Where are you going?”  Angela asked.

“I’m going up to my office first and then it’s up to Justin’s room to find out what actually happened last night,” JT replied as he checked his watch.

“What was your bad luck last night about?”  Angela asked.

“Kai got arrested last night for fighting,” JT stated as his pager beeped.

“Lawd, why was that boy fighting?”  Angela asked.

“He went to talk to Lisa last night and he told her that he was gay,” JT stated as Angela looked at him.  “When he was done, she had some of her friends jump him.”

“Well damn.  You know that lil bitch needs her ass beat down,” Angela said as she shook her head.  “You know, if you want me to, I’ll take care of her for you.  I never liked that lil tramp any ole way.”

“Stop that Angie, we have enough drama going on as it is,” JT said as his pager went off again.

“Someone is persistent,” Angela stated.

“I better call and check this out, it looks like one of the patient codes,” JT stated as the elevator dinged on his floor as the doors opened.  “I’ll see you up there in a few minutes.”

“All right, enter a whole new bad day,” Angela said as JT got off the elevator as the doors closed.

“Good morning boss, what’s up?” Steve asked, walking towards JT.

“Did you just beep me?”  JT asked, pulling out the keys to his office.

“No boss, it wasn’t me,” Steve replied, pulling out his keyes.  “I just got here myself.  I’m running a little late today.”

“I see.  So, what’s on the agenda for the day?”  JT asked, sitting behind his desk as he picked up the phone to call his pager service number.  After connecting, he listened to his messages, sighed and then hung up the phone and then got back up.  “That girl has gotten on my last nerve.”

“What’s going on boss?”  Steve asked as JT walked towards the door.

“I have to get to a meeting to deal with Danielle’s replacement,” JT said with a frown.

“Deal with her replacement?  I didn’t know she was leaving,” Steve said as he looked over at JT.

“I didn’t either until she called me before day this morning,” JT stated as his pager went off again.  “Damn, who’s this now?”

“Just go up to your meeting and I’ll get started with Justin and Eric,” Steve said as he waved JT on.

“Eric?”  JT said, not knowing who Steve referred to.

“I got an e-mail last night that Eric Johnson was turned over to me for therapy, so I’ll do him and Justin at the same time,” Steve said, shrugging his shoulders.

“Okay, I’ll come find you when the meeting is over,” JT said as he walked out of the office.

“Alright boss,” Steve replied, waving again.

The Hospital Director’s Office

“I’m glad you could join us Mr. Poole.  Now that you’re here, we can start this meeting,” Larry Tanner, the hospital’s director stated as he glared at JT.

“I’m sorry that I’m late, but I wasn’t aware that there was a meeting scheduled for this morning, pleas I had some things to deal with in my office,” JT stated as he took a seat at the table.

“I called and left a message for you this morning,” Danielle stated, turning around to look at Larry.

“Well I didn’t get a message from you Danielle.  The only messages I received were from Mr. Tanner and I just got those,” JT stated as he pulled the pager from his belt and placed it on the table to show her.  “There are no messages from you Danielle.”

“Regardless of that, this meeting was called to discuss Danielle’s resignation,” Larry stated.

“What’s going to be done with her patients?”  JT asked, turning to look at Danielle with a mean look on his face.

“At the moment, you will have to take them over, until her replacement can be brought up to speed on things,” Larry stated as JT turned and looked at him.

“What!”  JT snapped.  “I’m already backlogged with patients as it is now.  I’m ten patients over the amount I’m supposed to have now.”

“Well you shouldn’t be.  What is it that Mr. Lambert is doing?”  Larry asked.

“Steve is a physical therapist, not a psychologist,” JT stated as he sat forward in his seat.  “Steve is only certified to work with patients that need physical therapy, not the ones that need psychotherapy.”

“So, are you telling me that you can’t do the job JT?”  Larry asked.

“It’s not a matter of doing the job Larry, it’s a matter of having the time to do it,” JT stated as he got up.  “Right now, I have a total of thirty-two patients that I see.  I’m only supposed to have twenty on my caseload here.”

“Well the way I see it JT, you either handle the patients we assign you or you can find yourself another job,” Larry suggested as JT’s eyes widened.

“This is just too much,” JT said as he walked towards the door.  “When does this new replacement start?”

“Valgina Williams will start on Monday,” Danielle announced as JT turned around quickly.

“Valgina Williams?  What the hell!”  JT snapped, walking back over to the table.  “Are you kidding me here?”

“No kidding at all.  Valgina Williams will be taking over for me,” Danielle stated with a smirk on her face.

“Why do I get the feeling that you had something to do with the hospital hiring her Danielle,” JT stated, glaring at her.

“I had nothing to do with her being hired at all,” Danielle replied as JT shook his head.

“I—I don’t fucking believe this.  I believe you set all of this up for the hell of it,” JT stated as he pointed his finger in Danielle’s face.

“I had nothing to do with that at all,” Danielle said as she shook her head.

“Like hell you didn’t!  You orchestrated all of this madness!”  JT snapped, getting up in Danielle’s face.  “You knew what you needed to do to get a rise out of me and some other people around here.”

“I don’t know what you’re talking about JT,” Danielle stated as she shrugged her shoulders and moved back a bit.

“You know damn well what I’m talking about Danielle,” JT said as Larry stood up.

“Maybe you need to leave and calm down a bit JT.  I suggest that you go on about your daily duties and when you calm down, then you can come back and discuss this calmly with me.  If you don’t do that, then I suggest you go clean out your desk and leave,” Larry stated as he sat back down with a smile on his face.  “Are we clear on this JT?”

“Crystal,” JT replied, walking out of Larry’s office quickly.

A Few Minutes Later – Angela’s Nurses’ Station

“What’s wrong with you JT?  Now you’re the one that looks like hell,” Angela said, walking from behind the desk.

“Would you like to take a wild guess at what just happened?”  JT asked, looking at Angela with tears in his eyes.

“No, what happened?”  Angela asked.

“Danielle’s leaving and Valgina Williams, the same Valgina from high school is coming to take her place on Monday,” JT stated as Angela dropped her clipboard to the floor.

“What the hell?  Tell me you’re joking JT,” Angela said as she bent down to pick up her clipboard.

“No, I’m not joking Angie.  Danielle did that shit on purpose,” JT stated as he sat down behind the counter, sniffling as he wiped at his eyes.  “That heffa knew what she was doing and tried to act like she was all innocent and shit!”

“Does this have anything to do with you guys not inviting her to the Bahamas?”  Angela asked.

“I don’t know what it has to do with, but we’re screwed big time come Monday morning,” JT said as he shook his head.  “The new year is going to kick off with a real big bang.”

“What’s going on you two?”  Steve asked, walking up to the counter.

“Bad news dude, guess what?”  Angela asked, looking at Steve as he shrugged his shoulders.

“What?”  Steve said, looking at both of his friends strangely.

“Valgina Williams is back in town,” Angela replied as Steve looked at JT, smiled and then shook his head.

“Come on, stop joking now,” Steve said as JT looked at him with a stern look on his face.

“No joke buddy, she’ll be working here on Monday,” JT stated as Steve looked at him and then looked at Angela.

“What the fuck!”  Steve screamed and then covered his mouth, realizing what he’d just done.

“Calm down Steve, she’s not here yet.  She won’t be here until Monday, that’s when she officially starts work here.  She’s replacing Danielle,” JT stated.

“That’s just fucking great.  I can’t work here with her,” Steve said as he looked around, his expression showing a panicky one.  “It’ll be like high school all over again.”

“I know sweetie, I know,” Angela replied as she walked around and hugged him.

“We’ll do what we can to keep her away from you,” JT replied with a frown.  “You know he has a point Angie.”

“I know JT,” Angela replied, sighing.

Flashback

Sometime in the Past

“I knew you two were might close for a reason,” Valgina said, walking around the table in the school’s lunchroom.

“Look Valgina, we don’t want any trouble here,” Steve said, looking up at the girl.

“I don’t care what you want Stevie.  You should’ve thought about that before you started looking at my man,” Valgina said, pulling out a note from her purse.

“What’s that?”  Steve asked, looking at the piece of paper in Valgina’s hand.

“This is the proof that I have of what you are, you fucking faggot,” Valgina ssaid, laughing as she walked to the front of the lunchroom.

“Oh God, what is she doing JT?”  Steve asked, following Valgina around the room with his eyes.

“I don’t know, but whatever it is, I don’t think it’s going to end well,” JT replied, shaking his head.

“May I have everyone’s attention please?  Listen up guys and girls; I have proof here that we have two unique fags among us in this very school.  That’s right guys, I said fags.  Beware of John Poole and Steven Lambert.  Those two guys right over there are booty bandits.  Look out, they might want you too.  If you want to know if you’re on their radar, check out this list,” Valgina announced, standing on top of a lunch table as she held up the piece of paper she had in her hand.  “This piece of paper is a list of all the guys they want to have sex with.  Come and look and see what the fags said about you.”

“Oh God,” JT said as he grabbed Steve’s hand as the two of them left the lunchroom quickly.

End Flashback

To Be Continued…