If I Ain’t Got You – Chapter 15

Chapter 15 — Not Exactly The New Year

Dec 31, 2002 – Orlando, FL – Florida Hospital – The Emergency Room’s Rape Trauma Unit – Kasai’s Room

“Calm down baby, he’s going to be okay,” Mark spoke, hugging JT.

“I can’t calm down Mark.  My baby has been violated and you’re telling me to calm down!”  JT snapped, pushing Mark away from him.  “I’m not going to calm down until I find the men that did that to him!”

“Baby no, let the police handle that.  You need to stay right here with me, so we can make sure that our boy is okay,” Mark said, kissing JT on his forehead as he cried.

“I knew I recognized that voice.  Well, if it isn’t the faggot better known as John Poole,” Mark and JT heard as they turned around to see a light-skinned black woman standing in the doorway to Kasai’s room.

“Baby, who in the hell is that?”  Mark asked, turning to look at the woman.

“I don’t need this crap right now.  Valgina, I’m in no damn mood to deal with you or your fucked up crap, so take it elsewhere,” JT stated, turning away from the woman as he hugged Mark again.

“This is just a touching scene.  Why are you down here, instead of working in your office?”  The woman asked, walking further into the room.

“Look lady, can’t you see that we’re in the middle of a private family moment here?  Please leave,” Mark said as he glared at her.

“Who in the hell are you?  I know you’re not his boy-toy Steve,” the woman stated as she got up in Mark’s face.

“Look woman and I say that very loosely, I don’t know you and you sure as hell don’t know me.  I think you should just walk out of here, before you bite off more than you can actually chew,” Mark stated, pointing his finger at her.

“Excuse me, you’re not the boss of me,” the woman stated, waving her hand dismissively in Mark’s face.

“No he’s not, but I am,” JT stated, turning around again as he wiped at his eyes.

“Yeah, like you have the guts to do anything to me.  You were a punk ass bitch in high school and you’re probably a punk ass bitch now,” the woman stated with a smirk on her face.

“I have more than guts right now Valgina.  I’m not a child anymore, so get the fuck out of here!”  JT snapped, pointing his finger at the door.

“I…” The woman stated before Mark interrupted her.

“You heard what my husband said.  Get the hell out of here, before you write a check that your ass can’t cash.  Get to steppin’, you skanky body part.  What kind of name is Valgina anyway?  It sounds like your parents wanted to name your skanky ass ‘pussy’, but were too afraid you would get used by a lot of pricks,” Mark stated as he waved his hand at her as he grabbed his sides, laughing at the expression on her face as she turned and then stomped away out of the room.

“Thanks baby,” JT stated, kissing Mark on the cheek.  “I don’t think I’ve ever seen that woman leave a room that fast before in my whole entire life.”

“Serves the ho right for coming in here.  Our son isn’t doing okay and she was only causing us more stress,” Mark said as he sat down in the chair next to Kasai’s bed and then pulled JT into his lap.

“I just wish there was a way to take all of this pain away from him,” JT said as he sighed.  “No one should ever be raped. We could’ve done something to prevent this.  Something we could’ve done to keep him from being hurt like this.”

“Baby, things happen.  We can’t control what happens in his life all the time,” Mark said with a frown as he hugged JT.  “I grounded him to keep him from that sort of trouble, but he snuck out of the house to go have fun instead.  I’m not saying that this is his fault, but if he would’ve just stayed home, like I told him to, he probably wouldn’t be here right now.”

“Baby…” JT said as Mark cut him off.

“I’m telling the truth and you know I am.  If he would’ve just stayed home, he wouldn’t be here right now,” Mark said as JT hugged him.

“I know, I just don’t know what to think right now,” JT said as he wiped at his eyes again.  “Too much shit happening, all at once.”

“Things are going to be okay baby, trust me,” Mark said as he kissed JT on his forehead as Kasai’s hand moved.

“Come on son, wake up, we miss you.  I know I was rough on you, but I love you buddy.  Come on back to us.  We miss you very, very much,” Mark said as the tears streamed down his face.

“Come on Kai, you can do it buddy.  Daddy’s right here, waiting for ya,” JT said as the tears streamed down his face.  “Please son, wake up for me.  Come on, I know you can do it.”

Late Evening – The Hospital’s Prison Ward

“Evening Jack, what’s with the new guy down the hall?”  A doctor asked, walking through the double doors that led into the ward.  “What’s the deal with him?”

“He’s been comatose like that, since he was brought into the infirmary,” the police office replied as the doctor walked over to a counter and picked up a chart.

“What happened to him?”  Eric Jones, the prison ward doctor asked, flipping through some pages on the chart.

“He was raped by another inmate in his cell.  The other inmate beat him pretty badly before any of the officers got to him.  He lost a lot of blood and…” The police officer rambled on as the doctor interrupted him.

“What?  Can you run all of that by me again?”  Dr. Jones said, looking at the officer strangely.

“He lost a lot of blood.  When we got to him, he was already unconscious,” the officer stated as the doctor shook his head.

“And you guys are just now bringing him here to the hospital?  What kind of jail are you people running over there?”  Dr. Jones asked, looking at the officer like he was crazy.

“Look man, I followed proper protocol and procedure first.  The doctors at the jail couldn’t figure out why he was still unconscious and it came down from the chief to go ahead and transfer him here to you guys,” the officer stated as he signed some papers on the clipboard and then handed them to the doctor.  “He’s your responsibility now.  Someone will be back later on to record his condition and advise the court of his condition.”

“What’s he in for?”  Dr. Jones asked.

“He raped someone in this very hospital,” the officer stated.  “Again, he’s your responsibility now.”

“Oh, that’s just preachy,” Dr. Jones stated as he sighed and then pressed the speakerphone button as the officer walked through the double doors and then entered a code into the security panel as a different set of doors opened to the rest of the hospital.

“What’s up Eric, what do you have?”  Dr. Tripp’s voice rattled through the speaker of the phone.

“Hi Andrew, I have a… Hold on a sec, let me look… Let’s see here, I have a Brian T. Lang up here.  He needs to be added to the admissions log,” Dr. Jones stated as he read through the rest of the chart.

“The name sounds familiar.  That’s it, he’s in a band.  Dang, we have a lot of celebrities in this hospital,” Dr. Tripp stated.  “Okay, just e-mail me his information or send the chart down and I’ll add him to the log.”

“I’ll do that,” Dr. Jones stated as he shook his head.  “Oh yeah, he’s a rape victim.  I think Danielle or JT might need to talk to him, once he wakes up.”

“Sorry guy, Danielle doesn’t work here anymore, she resigned,” Dr. Tripp stated.

“Say what?  Damn, she was a hot one.  I guess I won’t get the chance to go out with her now,” Dr. Jones stated as he sighed.

“Nope my friend, you won’t get a chance to do that.  She left to move out to California.  She’s going to marry her long-time sweetheart,” Dr. Tripp stated as Dr. Jones shook his head.

“Well that’s a double damn.  I guess I have to find another chick to score with.  She was totally hot,” Dr. Jones said as he sighed and then rubbed his crotch.  “So, who’s taking her place?”

“Some woman named Valgina Wililams,” Dr. Tripp stated as Dr. Jones looked at the phone, shook his head and then cracked a smile.

“Did you say vagina man?”  Dr. Jones asked, putting the clipboard down.

“No, I said Valgina,” Dr. Tripp replied, laughing.  “Val-gina, get it, Valgina Williams.”

“Damn man, that’s funny as hell.  You make it sound like we’ll have a big ass pussy, working here in the hospital,” Dr. Jones said as he shook his head, laughed again and then stopped when he noticed Brian moving around on his bed.  “Look Andrew, I have to go.  It seems Mr. Lang has awakened.”

“Okay man, keep me updated with information and don’t forget to send me that chart,” Dr. Tripp stated as the speaker made some clicking noises and then it turned off.

“Yeah yeah, it’s one hassle after another one.  I hope this Valgina woman is a looker like Danielle, if so, I’ll have my scorecard filled really soon,” Dr. Jones said as he turned his attention to Brian.

Down in Nick’s Hopital Room

“Where have you been Nick?”  Janet asked, standing at the window in Nick’s room as Steve and Nick walked into the room.

“I was in a counseling session with JT and Steve,” Nick answered, sitting down on his bed.

“You’ve been gone most of the morning and afternoon.  I didn’t know you had a session that early.  No one told me about it,” Janet stated as Aaron walked into the room.

“Dang mom, I told you about his session earlier when you were on the phone,” Aaron stated as he sat down on the bed next to Nick and then hugged him.  “Hey bro, how are you holding up?”

“I’m doing good, I think,” Nick replied, ruffling Aaron’s hair.

“Hey hey, watch the hair,” Aaron said as he laughed.

“Oh whatever, it’s just your hair.  I’m your big brother, I have a right to mess it up if I want to,” Nick said as he laughed as the doctor walked into the room.

Downstairs – The Emergency Room – The Nurses’ Station

“Where are you going?  It’s not time for you to get off yet,” Angela said, walking behind the desk as she watched Steve clock out.

“Look Angie, I’m not in the mood right now.  I just ran into that bitch Valgina and… and I’m going home for the rest of my shift,” Steve stated as the tears streamed down his face.

“What—what did she say Steve?”  Angela asked.

“She said enough to make me want to quit this bitch,” Steve said, shaking his head as he wiped at his eyes.  “I think—I think I need a drink.”

“No Steve, you don’t need a drink.  Just go home and chill out.  I’ll come over and cheek on you later on,” Angela stated as she hugged him.  “Don’t let Valgina get you down.  I don’t think she’s going to be around here long.”

“I hope she isn’t, I don’t know how long I can last if she is,” Steve stated as he walked past Angela, heading out the door as Kevin walked in with Joshua following close behind him.

“Oh, what in the hell is this?  He’s with that guy again,” Angela said to herself.  “I think something’s going on between those two.”

“Hello Angela,” Kevin spoke, walking up to the counter as Angela glared at him and then looked back down at the chart she was reading.

“What is it that you want Kevin?”  Angela sarcastically asked.

“I—I wanted to see how you were doing and to find out whether or not you were free for dinner tonight.  Can we go on that dinner date we had scheduled for the other night?”  Kevin asked.

“Why would I go to dinner with you Kevin?  Can you answer me that?”  Angela asked.

“Because…” Kevin said and then stopped speaking.

“Because what Kevin?”  Angela asked, looking back up at him as she flipped a page in the chart.

“Because I like you and I want to go out with you,” Kevin replied in a soft voice.

“You can’t like me, it seems you spend all of your time with that man over there,” Angela said as she pointed at Joshua.  “Are you seeing that guy there?”

“Ah…” Kevin stuttered.

“Are you?  If you are, I have no use for a gay man Kevin.  I’m not the type of woman that likes to be strung along, around someone’s finger, with my emotions being played with,” Angela stated as she side-eyed Kevin.

“Well I ah…” Kevin stammered.

“Just be quiet Kevin.  I already have my answer,” Angela stated, picking up the chart and walking away from the counter.

“Wait a minute Angela, give me a chance here,” Kevin called out, shaking his head as he moved away from the counter.

“Why should I give you a chance Kevin?  It’s obvious you’re not the man for me,” Angela said as she shook her head.  “Just tell me the truth Kevin, be honest with me, be honest with yourself.”

“I like you Angela, I really do.  The truth is, I was confused once and I fooled around with Josh in the past, but I don’t want him, I want a woman in my life,” Kevin stated as he reached for Angela’s hand and she let him take it.

“You were confused?  If you don’t want him, then why is he still around you?”  Angela asked, looking over Kevin’s shoulder to see that Joshua was still standing around.

“He—he’s trying to convince me that he’s what I want and need, but I think differently about that,” Kevin said as he shook his head.

“I’ll go out to dinner with you, but I have to think about this, so don’t expect anything else to happen besides dinner,” Angela stated.

“That’s cool with me.  All I ask for is a chance to show you me,” Kevin stated as he kissed Angela’s hand.

“Fine, but if you screw up or I catch you with him again, this is over Kevin,” Angela stated as she pointed her finger at him, poking him in the chest.  “There will be no ifs, ands or buts about it Kevin, completely over.  You will be out of my life, faster than marijuana in the hands of a pothead.”

“I understand Angela.  I’m going to do everything in my power to do right by you,” Kevin said with a smile.

“You do that,” Angela stated as Kevin kissed her hand again.  “I’ll see you around seven.”

“I’ll be here,” Kevin said as he looked at his watch.

“Good,” Angela said as she smiled and then walked off.

Late Evening – Downtown Orlando – A Trendy Night Club

“Hey man, what can I get for you?”  The bartender asked as Alex McCall walked over to the bar and then took a seat.

“Yeah man, let me get a shot of tequila… better yet, just bring me the whole damn bottle with a glass,” Alex said as the bartender looked at him strangely, did as he asked and then placed the bottle on the counter in front of him.  “Thanks.”

“Welcome,” the bartender replied as Alex placed some money on the counter, grabbed the bottle and glass and then walked away.

“Hey, watch where you’re going man,” Steve spoke up as Alex bumped into him.

“No, you watch where the fuck you’re going guy,” Alex said as he pushed Steve backwards.  “You bumped into me retard.”

“No jerk, I didn’t bump into you, you bumped into me!”  Steve snapped, grabbing Alex by the collar of his shirt and pushing him up against a table as the bartender and a bouncer rushed over to the two of them.

“You two, break it up or I’ll toss you both out of here on your asses,” the bartender stated, pushing both men apart.

“He started it,” Steve whined, trying to get a hold of Alex again.

“I don’t care who started it, it ends right now, got it!”  The bartender snapped, looking between both men.  “If I hear anything else from either of you, your asses will be tossed out on the street like trash, you feel me?”

“Fine,” Steve replied, calming down as he turned away from the bartender.

“Yeah fine, I got it,” Alex said as the bartender pointed his finger at both men and then walked away with the bouncer.

“I—I know you.  You were at the hospital this morning.  I saw you leaving a patient’s room,” Steve said, looking at Alex closely.

“Yeah, so what,” Alex said as he waved his hand at Steve dismissively.

“Look buddy, I don’t know what your…” Steve said as Alex cut him off.

“I—I’m sorry dude; I’m having a really bad day.  I didn’t mean to take it out on you,” Alex said, looking down as he sighed.

“It’s okay, we both seem to be having one of those,” Steve said, walking over to a table and then sitting down.  “Would you like to join me?”

“Sure, as long as you let me buy you a drink,” Alex said as he looked at Steve with a smile on his face.

“That’s a deal,” Steve replied, smiling at Alex.

“What would you like?”  Alex asked as he placed his bottle of tequila on the table.

“Whatever you’re having, is totally fine with me,” Steve replied, smiling again.

“As you can see, I have this bottle of tequila,” Alex said, tapping the bottle and then winking his eye at Steve.

“You must be really having a bad day, to have the whole bottle,” Steve said with a frown.

“It seems like this whole day has been one big mess,” Alex said with a frown on his face.  “What got you down, on this hectic, but lovely last day of the year and all?”

“Someone from my past returned and that’s a very bad thing,” Steve replied as he looked down and then sighed.

“Yeah, I know how that goes,” Alex replied as he shook his head.  “I kept a very bad secret from my friends and it ended up causing one of them a great deal of pain.  If I had told my friends about what was going on, I wouldn’t be having such a bad day right now.”

“Does this have anything to do with Mr. Canton?”  Steve asked.

“Mr. Canton?  Oh, you mean Nick.  Yeah, it involves him,” Alex replied as he poured another glass full of the liquid and knocked it back as Steve’s eyes widened.

“Does your secret have anything to do with the person responsible for him trying to hurt himself?”  Steve asked.

“I—I guess so,” Alex replied, sighing as he knocked another glass full back.

“Are—are you the person responsible for what happened?”  Steve asked, watching Alex closely.

“No!”  Alex snapped, covering his mouth quickly as he looked over his shoulder to see if the bartender or the bouncer heard him.  “I’m not the person responsible for that, but I could’ve prevented it… I could’ve stopped him before it got to…”

“How so?  How do you figure into all of that?”  Steve asked, still watching Alex closely.

“It’s a long story,” Alex replied, looking down at the table.

“Well I have nothing but time this evening,” Steve said, pouring himself a glass of the liquid pacifier.

“Well, it all started…” Alex started, telling Steve how he and the other members of the Fifth Avenue Boys met and how Nick ended up in the position he’s currently in.

“I understand your position here Alex, but he’s your friend.  You should’ve told the others what was going on.  I know you said you didn’t want to get involved in their relationship, but I would want JT, Mark or Angie to tell someone if my boyfriend was hurting me,” Steve said as he looked down.  “Not that I would have a boyfriend like that… Regardless, I wouldn’t allow myself to get into that kind of relationship.”

“So, you’re gay too?”  Alex said, smiling weakly as he looked over the rim of his glasses at Steve.

“Ah yeah, I’m gay too,” Steve replied, watching Alex for any signs of a reaction and then he looked down at his hands.

“That’s cool,” Alex responded as he looked over at Steve.  “We’ve been sitting here for a while now.  How about we go someplace else and chill out and have something to eat?”

“That sounds good to me,” Steve said as he and Alex got up from the table and then walked out of the bar.

A Few Hours Previously – Florida Hospital – Justin’s Hospital Room

“I love him Momma, there’s nothing more to say about it,” Justin said, shaking his head.

“I know you do son, but his mother doesn’t want you two being together,” Lynn stated, rubbing Justin’s back as he cried.

“If I can’t have him in my life, then I wish I were dead,” Justin declared, sniffling as Lynn shook her head.

“No son, don’t talk like that,” Lynn said as Jamie, Christina and Joey walked into the room.

“What’s poppin’ around here?”  Christina asked, walking over to Justin and then sitting down in his lap.

“That damn Janet Canton is taking Nick away from me,” Justin replied as Christina looked at him strangely and then up at Lynn.

“What?  Why is she doing a thing like that?”  Christina asked as Jamie looked at Lynn also.

“She doesn’t want her son being with me because I’m a fucking cripple,” Justin replied.

“We’ve told you over and over again to not talk like that.  You’re not a cripple.  You’re just walking challenged right now,” Christina stated, getting up out of Justin’s lap as she got on her knees in front of him.  “Don’t let Janet Canton make decisions for you or Nick.  If you two have feelings for each other, then you should do what you can to not let her change those feelings.  Tell Nick, tell him how much you care for him Justin.”

“He—he knows how much I care for him already Chrissy.  It’s not him, it’s his damn mother that doesn’t care if I care about him or not.  She’s determined to keep us apart,” Justin stated as Lynn shook her head and then took his hand.

“What brought all of this up?”  Jamie asked, looking at Justin and then back to Lynn.

“He’s scared because Nick’s going to be released from here tomorrow.  Once he leaves here, he and Justin won’t be able to be together.  Janet has already told the doctor that she’s going to take him back to Tampa and get him some help there,” Lynn explained to the others in the room.

“Apparently, she doesn’t know it’s not wise to interfere in the lives of other people,” Joey stated as he folded his arms across his chest and then shook his head.  “She’s a real bad bitch.”

“Watch your mouth young man,” Lynn spoke, chastising Joey as she shook her head.

“Come on, we’re talking about Janet Canton here.  You know, the same woman that plotted and schemed to get her husband killed and tried to steal money from her other son.  Janet’s a heartless woman.  She can be downright ruthless,” Jamie stated as he shook his head.

“She’s a heartless woman, but we have to do something to keep her from taking Nick from me,” Justin said as the tears streamed down his face.  “Please guys; please don’t let her take Nick away from me.  I can’t bear it if he’s not here with me.”

“I—I’ll see what I can find out, but if the doctor is releasing him, then there’s really nothing more that can be done, unless Nick himself, chooses not to go with her,” Lynn stated with a frown.

“Where’s the JT guy?  I haven’t seen him since you left this morning,” Jamie stated as he looked back at Justin.

“Something happened to his son, so he’s around here somewhere,” Justin replied, shrugging his shoulders.

To Be Continued…