If I Ain’t Got You – Chapter 8

Chapter 8 — Revelations, Part 3

Dec 30, 2002 – Orlando, FL – Florida Hospital – Nick’s Hospital Room

“Hi there,” Angela said as she walked into the room to see a man sitting in the chair next to Nick’s bed.

“Hello Miss,” Kevin said as he turned around to see Angela.

“Hi, I’m Angela, his day shift nurse,” Angela replied as she extended her hand to Kevin.

“Hi, ahhhh, I—I’m Kevin,” Kevin replied as he shook her hand.

“I don’t think I’ve seen you here today,” Angela said as she looked at Kevin closely.

“Ah yeah, I stopped in this morning and left after the doctor was last here,” Kevin replied as he smiled weakly at Angela.

“Okay,” Angela replied as she held Nick’s wrist, checking his pulse rate. “So, are you a friend of Mr. Canton’s?”

“Yes I am,” Kevin replied as he took a seat again. “We sing together in a band.”

“You sing together in a band?” Angela said as she turned around to look at Kevin again. “Oh my God, I didn’t see it before. Nickolas Canton and you are Kevin Richards. You two are part of the ‘Fifth Avenue Boys’.”

“Right you are,” Kevin said as he looked down.

“Oh my, what happened to him?” Angela asked as she looked over at Kevin. “It doesn’t really specify a general problem on his chart.”

“I don’t think I can tell you that Miss, that’s not my place to tell you,” Kevin answered her.

“You may call me Angela or Angie,” Angela said as she walked over to the sink and washed her hands. “I’m done here. If you or Mr. Canton need anything, just let me know.”

“I—I will,” Kevin replied as he saw her to the door.

“Have a good evening sir,” Angela replied as she walked out of the rom and then back down to the nurses’ station.

“Who’s in that room Angela?” One of the other nurses asked.

“That’s confidential information, I can’t tell you that information Carly,” Angela replied as she turned around.

“Oh, it must be one of those celebrities then,” Carly stated with a smile.

“I can’t tell you that, so you might as well drop it girl,” Angela said as she walked down the hall in the other direction.

“I’m going to see who’s in that room,” Carly said as she looked down the hall to see if Angela was out of sight and then she walked in the direction of Nick’s room.

As Carly approached the room, she looked around to see if anyone was watching her. Smiling, she opened the door and peaked into the room as her expression changed when she saw Nick Canton lying in bed. Stepping fully into the room, she saw Kevin Richards sitting next to the bed, holding Nick’s hand.

“Oh my God, it’s Nick Canton and Kevin Richards of the ‘Fifth Avenue Boys’,” Carly said as she turned around and bumped right into Angela who stood there, watching her.

“What are you doing here Carly?” Angela asked as she stood there, tapping her foot as she looked at the young woman closely.

“I… Well… Ah… I… I was just trying to see who was in the room,” Carly replied as she looked down.

“Did I not just tell you a few minutes ago that information was confidential?” Angela asked as the tapping of her foot got louder as she shook her head.

“Yes you did, but I didn’t do anything wrong, I just looked in here,” Carly stated with a frown. “I didn’t hurt anything.”

“You did something wrong Carly. You broke hospital protocol. I’m sorry, but I have no choice but to place you on suspension until further notice. You will go before the board next week and they’ll let you know whether or not you still have a job here,” Angela informed the young woman.

“But—but I didn’t do anything that warrants my termination,” Carly stated as she shook her head.

“You broke the rules and this isn’t the first time that you’ve done something like this. You’re dismissed Carly, someone else will work the remainder of your shift,” Angela stated as Carly walked away from the room with a mean look on her face as Angela walked into the room. “I’m sorry Kevin; I hope she didn’t cause any trouble.”

“It’s okay Angela, she didn’t do anything,” Kevin stated with a smile at Angela.

“Are you okay? You look like there’s something wrong,” Angela said as she walked over to Kevin.

“I don’t think I need to talk about what’s bothering me right now. There’s just too much stuff going on,” Kevin replied as he looked away from Angela.

“Well if you change your mind, I’m here. I’ve been told I’m a good listener,” Angela said as she walked over to Nick and then checked his vitals quickly as she turned around to head towards the door.

“Hey Angela, I think I do need to talk,” Kevin said as he got up from where he sat. “Are you able to listen for a few minutes?”

“Sure, I’m available to talk and listen Kevin,” Angela replied as she headed over to the table in the room and took a seat.

“How about something to drink; we have coffee and cola,” Kevin offered as he opened the little refrigerator in the room.

“A cup of coffee would do the trick,” Angela replied as Kevin poured a cup of coffee for her.

“What’s your poison?” Kevin asked as he looked at her. “Dark? Light? Do you take it with cream and sugar?”

“Some cream and two sugars will do it,” Angela said as Kevin walked over with a cold drink for himself and her cup of coffee.

“So Kevin what’s on your mind?” Angela asked, taking a sip of the coffee.

“I—I feel partially responsible for what happened to Nick,” Kevin replied with a frown. “I knew he was having problems and I basically ignored him. I was too busy, dealing with things in my own life that didn’t even matter, that I didn’t want to see the things that were really happening around me, to him. When he was younger, I told him I would always be there for him, but when he really needed me, I wasn’t there for him.”

Kevin talked about things he didn’t know if he could even trust Angela with or not. As he spoke, the tears slowly streamed down his face as secret after secret slipped from his lips, entering her ears. Angela sat there with Kevin, listening to the whole sad, but true story, not paying attention to anything else around her. Opening his eyes, Nick got up from the bed and then walked over to the table and took a seat, starring at Kevin strangely.

“What’s up Kevin?” Nick asked as he watched Kevin and Angela. “Fuck, my head hurts. It feels like I’m on fire.”

“What are you doing up and out of bed Nick? I thought you would sleep the rest of the evening,” Kevin said as he looked at Nick strangely. “What’s wrong with him Angela? Why do his eyes look like that? He looks like he’s on drugs.”

“I’m not exactly sure, but I think it could be a reaction to whatever the doctor gave him,” Angela replied as she got up from the table and then walked over to the phone, paging the doctor. “I’m quite sure Dr. Donaldson can tell us what’s going on.”

“Doctor? Who has a doctor?” Nick asked as he looked between Kevin and Angela. “Are one of you sick?”

“You have a doctor Nick,” Kevin replied as he looked at Nick strangely.

“Why do I have a doctor? There’s nothing wrong with me,” Nick replied as he got up quickly and then looked around.

“Something happened to you and we—we had to put you in the hospital,” Kevin stated with a frown.

“I don’t know why, I feel perfectly fine,” Nick said, walking over to Angela. “Hi there, I’m Nick Canton and you are?”

“Hi, I’m Angela Sebastian, HNIC,” Angela replied as Nick smiled.

“What does HNIC mean?” Nick asked as he looked at Angela strangely.

“It means I’m the head nurse in charge around here,” Angela replied with a small giggle.

“So Kevin, is this your new squeeze?” Nick asked, looking over at Kevin and then back to Angela, remembering how he saw them sitting at the table.

“No, we just met,” Kevin replied, looking at Angela with a strange glint in his eyes.

“Then why were you two holding hands?” Nick asked, looking at the two of them again. “If you were holding hands, there must be something there.”

“Seriously, we just met today,” Angela stated as she looked over at Nick with a nervous facial expression.

“That’s right Nicky, there’s nothing going on. I needed to talk and she was here to listen to me,” Kevin stated.

“Well whatever. I think you two would make a cute couple though,” Nick said as he got up and then walked over to the windows in the room as Kevin blushed, looking away from Angela quickly. “Where are we Kevin?”

“We’re in Orlando,” Kevin replied as Dr. Donaldson walked into the room.

“What seems to be the problem here Angie?” Dr. Donaldson asked, walking over to where she stood near the phone.

“Mr. Canton woke up a moment ago and his eyes are bloodshot. He complained of headache and he’s currently running a fever,” Angela stated.

“Thanks Angie, let’s see what we have here,” Dr. Donaldson said as Nick lay down in bed at the encouragement of Kevin. “He has all the signs of being in anaphylactic shock.”

“There’s nothing wrong with me, I’m really okay here,” Nick replied as the doctor touched his skin. “Really, I feel fine.”

“So your headache is gone and you’re not burning up?” Dr. Donaldson asked, looking at Nick closely.

“I feel fine, really I do,” Nick replied as the doctor flashed his penlight in his eyes. “Can I go home now?”

“No, you may not go home young man. I’m going to order that you be observed here for seventy-two more hours to make sure that you’re really okay,” Dr. Donaldson stated as Nick looked at him strangely.

“I said I was FINE!” Nick snapped, glaring at the doctor. “I want to go home!”

“Listen to the doctor Nicky. He knows what’s best for you,” Kevin said as he moved closer to Nick.

“No Kev, I want to go home!” Nick screamed as he sat up on the bed with a pout on his face.

“Well you can’t,” Kevin said as he walked over to where Angela stood as the doctor wrote some things on Nick’s chart and then handed it to Angela.

“Will there be anything else Doc?” Angela asked as she wrote some things on her notepad. “I’ll make sure that the next nurse knows what to do.”

“Good, I’ll get an update from you in the morning,” Dr. Donaldson stated as he waved and then left the room.

“Can I say something to you Angela?” Kevin asked as he stepped closer to her.

“Yes you may,” Angela replied, turning to look at Kevin.

“I want to thank you for listening to me,” Kevin said as he leaned in and kissed her on the cheek. “Thank you for being here to provide your time.”

“No problem Kevin,” Angela replied with a smile.

“Look, are… yeah… ah… Are you going to be busy later?” Kevin asked as he looked down.

“My shift will be over around seven,” Angela replied. “Why?”

“Well… ah… Can I take you out to grab something to eat?” Kevin nervously asked. “Like dinner or something?”

“I will be honored to,” Angela replied with a smile. “I have a few minutes to go and you can meet me down at the nurses’ station or I can come back here.”

“Just come back here, that would give him a reason to be all sappy with you in private,” Nick said, looking at the two of them.

“Oh shush,” Kevin said, looking back at Angela. “So it’s a date then?”

“It’s a date Kevin. See you in a little bit,” Angela replied as she waved and then walked out of the room.

Some Time Previously – The Gym

“How are you feeling Justin?” JT asked, walking into the room with Steve and Kasai following behind him. “Are you ready to get started?”

“I guess I am,” Justin replied, wheeling over to JT and Steve. “What are we going to do?”

“Well first, we’re just going to do some stretching,” JT replied as he walked over to where there were some mats laid out on the floor. “Come on over here Justin.”

“Aye aye captain,” Justin said as he wheeled over to the spot where JT sat.

“Don’t forget to put your brakes on,” JT informed Justin as he laid his crutches down on the floor.

Justin’s POV

We sat there on the floor, doing stretches and pulling my body in different directions as I kept thinking about how I so wanted to be like JT. Like damn, he has it all. He has a man that loves him, regardless if he’s able to walk or not and he’s got a wonderful kid. That’s what I want. I want a lover for life, I want a kid like JT has that loves me regardless. I want to love someone. I always thought that I would be with Josh forever, living with our kids, but he fucked that all up. There’s someone for me, but where is he?

“Earth to Justin,” JT said as he tapped me on the arm. “Are you okay?”

“Yeah, I’m okay. I—I was just thinking about something,” I replied as he grabbed my left leg and started bending it in and out.

“I don’t want you phasing out on me man. Talk to me here,” he said as Kasai grabbed my other leg and started doing the same thing he did. “Are you feeling anything when we do this?”

“Not much, but I know you guys are touching me,” I told him.

“Well duh, we’re touching you. We’re flexing your legs man,” he said as he laughed. “What’s on your mind Justin?”

“There’s a whole lot of stuff on my mind. Just so much stuff swarming around up here,” I said as I looked over to see Kasai staring at me with a dreamy look in his eyes.

“What kind of stuff Justin?” He asked, massaging my leg.

“Just stuff,” I replied as Kasai matched everything that JT did to my leg.

“Okay,” he said as he waved at Steve. “How are you doing with getting in and out of the bathroom?”

“Okay I guess. I can use the bathroom, if that’s what you’re asking me,” I replied as I looked at him strangely as Mark walked into the room.

“Is he putting you through the ringer yet Justin?” Mark asked as he sat down next to JT and then kissed him on the cheek.

“No, not yet, but I feel it coming,” I said as all of them laughed.

“I’m taking it easy on him this evening honey. I’ll let him know when I get ready to work him like a mule,” JT said as I frowned as the others continued laughing.

Kasai’s POV

Dang I can’t believe I’m actually here, getting to touch Justin Tanner’s body. I shouldn’t be thinking about him like this, but he’s so damn sexy. I wish Daddy wasn’t here with us right now; I just want to wrap my arms around him and love on him. I wish it were just the two of us, someplace alone, getting to do whatever. I would let him take me, like Jeff did yesterday. I bet sex with Justin would be so fantastic.

“Kasai, Kasai, Kai? Are you okay son?” Daddy asked, shaking me out of my thoughts.

“Yeah, I’m okay Daddy, I was just thinking about some things” I replied, putting on a smile.

“What is this, the zone out hour or something?” Daddy asked as he shook his head as he directed Justin back up into his chair.

“Okay Justin, how do you feel?” Daddy asked, rubbing on his legs.

“I’m tired is how I feel. Please tell me that we don’t have to do this every day,” Justin said as Daddy looked at him and then smiled strangely.

“I think I might let you get some rest on the weekends, only if you behave yourself during the week,” Daddy said just as his cell phone rang. “Hello?”


“Hi JT, Angie here,” I heard Angie say as I wondered why she was calling, since I would see her in a few minutes, when it was time for us to get going.

“Hi Angie, what’s up girl?” I asked, looking at my watch.

“Nothing really,” she replied as I wondered what was really up. It’s not like her to not come on out and say what’s on her mind. “I’m just getting ready to go for the night. I’ll catch up to you and the family later on.”

“Is there something wrong Angie?” I asked.

“No no, there’s nothing wrong, I’m just a little bit tired is all,” she replied as I shrugged my shoulders.

“Okay, that’s cool girl. I’m still working with a client, so we’ll be here for a bit longer. So are you going to get dinner?” I asked, grabbing Mark’s arm and pulling myself up.

“Maybe later, I’ve had a long day and all I can think about is having a nice soak in the tub and then taking a nap,” she said, her voice rising an octave. She’s up to something.

“That sounds great, but you don’t need to be missing dinner,” I said, seeing if I can get some info out of her.

“Fine JT, I have plans with someone tonight. I might catch you guys tomorrow night,” she said as I wondered who the person was. Did she finally give the guy in X-Ray a shot?

“Alright Angie, maybe tomorrow night then,” I said.

“Yes, maybe, but I’ll let you know. Night JT,” she said.

“Yeah, night Angie,” I replied as I closed the phone.

A Little After 7 PM – Down in the Hospital Lobby

“I’m so glad you decided to go out to dinner with me,” Kevin stated, taking Angela’s hand. “I would like to take you some place fancy, but I don’t think you would want to go in your nurses’ uniform.”

“Some place fancy, hmmm, let’s see. My house is only a few miles away from here. I can go home and change and come back,” Angela stated with a smile. “Is that going to be too much trouble?”

“No, it’s no trouble at all,” Kevin replied as he checked his watch. “Or, I can follow you to your place, wait for you and we can go on to the restaurant from there.”

“Okay, that’s doable,” Angela said as she looked at her cell phone and then slid it into her pocket as she and Kevin walked towards the doors. “My car is in the employee parking area. I’ll wait at the stop sign for you.”

“Alright,” Kevin replied as Joshua Charles walked through the door.

“Well hi there Kevin, what’re you doing here handsome?” Joshua asked, stopping in front of Kevin as Angela kept walking, not noticing that Kevin had stopped.

“I was here to see someone,” Kevin replied as he tried to move away from Joshua, but Joshua moved back in front of him.

“Hey now, what’s the big hurry handsome? It’s been a long while since I’ve seen you,” Joshua said as he grabbed Kevin by the waist and then pulled him close, kissing his lips.

“No Josh, stop it. I’m not going to let you do this to me again,” Kevin said as he pushed Joshua away, just as Angela stood there watching. “Angela, ahhhh…”

“What’s going on Kevin?” Angela asked with a saddened look on her face.

“It’s not what it looks like Angela,” Kevin replied as Joshua tried to grab his hand again.

“What does it ‘not’ look like Kevin?” Angela asked as the expression on her face changed to an angry one.

“Angela, I can explain,” Kevin said as she turned and then walked towards the door. “Wait, please let me explain.”

“What is there to explain Kevin? Wait, whatever that was, it’s your business, not mine,” Angela said as she continued walking, not slowing down. “It looks like you and he are an item.”

“No we’re not. It’s not what you think,” Kevin said again.

“Then what the hell is it? I’m waiting for you to explain to me what it is that I think it was,” Angela sarcastically said as she pointed her finger at Kevin. “I’m waiting, well… why did you kiss him? Are you gay?”

“He kissed me,” Kevin replied, standing in front of Angela. “I wasn’t kissing him, I wouldn’t…”

“You wouldn’t what Kevin?” Angela asked, looking Kevin in the eyes. “Make a date with me and then turn around and then kiss this guy here, in fact, the same guy I saw in the ER earlier today. I should’ve figured, you celebrity types are all the same.”

“No we’re not all the same Angela,” Kevin said, looking down. “Please Angela, give me a chance here.”

“Give you a chance to what Kevin, lead me on?” Angela asked with a sad expression. “I’m outta here.”

“Good riddance if you ask me,” Joshua said, walking up behind Kevin. “Come on handsome, why don’t we go back to my place and do the horizontal mambo, like we used to.”

“Get the hell away from me Josh!” Kevin screamed as he rushed out the door towards the parking garage, trying to follow Angela. “Angela! Angela wait! Please… Don’t leave like this!”

“I’ve had enough of this! I’m going home; I’ve had a very long and tiring day. I don’t need any of this crap right now,” Angela said as she continued walking.

“Please Angela, please don’t go,” Kevin pleaded as they arrived at a car.

“I said I was going home,” Angela stated with a frown as she unlocked the car door, opened it and then got in.

“Fine, let me come with you,” Kevin said as Angela pushed the button on the door panel as the passenger side door unlocked.

“You better get in here before I change my mind,” Angela stated as she watched Kevin walk around the car quickly and then get into the car.

Later that Evening – Back in the Hospital – A Veranda on the First Floor

“Hey Bro, what are you doing out here?” Aaron asked, walking up behind Nick. “I thought you were up in your room still.”

“I was in my room, but I’m out here now,” Nick replied as he rubbed at his eyes and then walked away from Aaron. “If it’s not too much to ask, I would like to be alone out here A.”

“Why?” Aaron asked.

“Because I don’t feel like being bothered by anyone and it is—was quiet out here,” Nick answered as Aaron looked down and then sighed.

“Nick…” Aaron said as Nick shook his head.

“I just want to be left alone, it’s really simple,” Nick said with a sigh. “So just go ahead and leave me alone here.”

“I’m not going to leave you out here alone Nick,” Aaron stated as he walked closer to Nick.

“There’s no reason for you to stay here, just go away. Can’t you understand that I want to be by myself?” Nick asked as Aaron sighed again and then ran a hand through his hair.

“Is it me Nick?” Aaron asked as he moved around in front of Nick and looked at him closely. “Is it me that you don’t want to be around?”

“It has nothing to do with you A, I just want to be left alone,” Nick said as he walked over to the other railing. “It seems the concept of being alone escapes people. Is that too much to ask for in this place?”

“NO, ah… Well I guess not,” Aaron replied as he turned around and then walked away from Nick. A sad expression on his face, Aaron stopped and looked back at Nick. “If you need or want me, I’ll be in your room. I love you Nick.”

To Be Continued…