The Past Comes Knocking – Chapter 9

Chapter 9 – A Failed Love Attempt

May 25, 2004 – Philadelphia, PA – The Radisson Plaza

“So, have you calmed down now?”  Mo’ette asked, looking at Justin closely.

“No, not yet, but I’ll let you know when I do,” Justin replied, looking at her and then wiped at his eyes as she shook her head.

“What in the world has gotten into you?”  Mo’ette asked, looking around quickly.  “What possessed you to knock the hell out of that guy like that?”

“I—I didn’t want him hurting JT more,” Justin replied as he sniffled and then wiped at his eyes again.

“You really do love him, don’t you,” Mo’ette said as Justin nodded his head.

“I fucked up a long time ago, but I’ll be damned if I let someone else cause him hurt and pain,” Justin said as he looked down.  “I’m going to do my damnedest to make sure that he’s okay and no one else hurts him.”

“Baby, you don’t have that much time, control or power to do that,” Mo’ette said as she rubbed Justin’s back.

“Well, to make sure that he’s okay, I’ll have to,” Justin stated as he shook his head.  “I’m not going to let him be hurt more Mo.  I—I was a fool once, but I’m not going to be a fool again.  I’m not going to let anything and I mean anything stand in the way of the two of us being together, that’s if he wants to be with me.”

“That’s a lot to take in, considering that he just got out of a relationship with someone else baby,” Mo’ette said with a frown on her face.  “Adding to that, the drama of what Marc has done and the things going on in the media, it’s just too soon.”

“Maybe so, but I’m here for him Mo,” Justin stated as he looked down and wiped at his eyes again.  “I’m going to do everything I can to show him that I mean what I say and I’m going to stand by that.”

“Okay baby,” Mo’ette said as she looked down.

Down the Hall

“No Vanessa, I’m not going to leave him alone, I love him,” Cameron stated as he shook his head.

“If you loved him, you wouldn’t have left the way you did Cameron,” Vanessa said as she stood in front of Cameron.  “You did this to yourself.  What’s going on had nothing to do with Justin; it had something to do with you and your actions.  You had no right doing what you did, on either account.”

“I know, but I…” Cameron stated as Vanessa shook her head.

“No Cameron,” Vanessa said as she turned around.  “Leave here and don’t come back.  If you come back here again or go anywhere near my son, I’ll make you regret ever meeting me.”

“Hell, I already regret meeting you,” Cameron stated as Vanessa’s eyes widened.

“Okay then, have it your way,” Vanessa said as she pulled out her cell phone and then dialed a number.  “Hi, this is Vanessa Jameson.  I need a security officer down the hall.  I’m currently standing near the lobby.  Someone needs to be escorted out of the building and then barred immediately.  If the police needs to be alerted, please do so.”

“What!  You can’t do that!”  Cameron snapped as Vanessa looked at him like he was crazy.

“On second thought, go ahead and get the police here quickly,” Vanessa stated with a smile.

“Now wait a minute, you don’t have to get the police involved in this,” Cameron stated as Vanessa looked at him as her smile grew.

“It’s too late for that,” Vanessa stated, turning around as she walked down the hall.  “You have a few minutes to try to get away from here, before security and possibly the police get here to lock you up.  You might want to use your time wisely instead of trying to argue more with me.”

“Fine, you win you stupid bitch,” Cameron stated as he shook his head, turned around and then ran down the hall to exit the hotel.

May 26, 2004 – 22nd District Police Department – A Holding Area

“I can’t believe that fucker actually had me arrested!”  Marc screamed, kicking a wall as a person in the cell with him looked at him strangely.  “After all I’ve done for him… He did this shit to me!  Oh he just wait until I get out of…”

“That kind of talk is the reason why you’re here right now guy,” the jailer said, walking passed the cell.  “Keep it up and you’ll never get out of here.  You’ll become a permanent visitor, if you know what I mean.”

“I’m not going to be a permanent anything here.  I’m still waiting for my damn phone call!”  Marc snapped as the man in the cell with him shook his head and then got up off the cot and moved closer as the jailer smiled and then walked away from the cell.

“Night boys,” the jailer said, waving as he continued walking down the corridor as the man in the cell with Marc smiled again as the lights went out.  “You boys get some rest in there now.”

“What the fuck ever,” Marc said as he shook his head, turning around to notice that the other guy was standing right behind him.

The Radisson Plaza Hotel – The Swimming Pool Area


I—I thought he got the hint to leave me alone, damn it!  Does he really think I’m just going to take him back and forgive what he did?  Hell no, I’m not taking him back and there won’t be any forgiveness, not in a million damn years!  He left me and that’s totally unforgivable.  How could I ever be with someone that would just up and leave me at the drop of a damn dime, because he’s in a pissy mood, because I wasn’t spending enough time with him.  Us splitting up is his damn fault and no one else.  He has no excuse for that shit and I don’t want to hear anything he’s come up with to say about it.  I just want him to leave me the hell alone.

Speaking of being left the hell alone, why in the hell is Justin really here?  He said that he was here for me, that he was ready to be with me, but why now?  Why is he here now?  Why didn’t he want to be with me when I wanted to be with him?  Why did he have to be scared of what his family and the fans would think?  Hell, Blaine and Anthony got together on the damn show and they’re still together, in the spotlight no less.  The two of them are still acting and singing, so what sets Justin apart from them?

“When it comes to Justin Tanner, he’s ‘One of a Kind’,” I said aloud, walking around the pool.  That reminds me of a song that Aunt Donna sang back in the 70s, when she and my favorite uncle sang together.

[1]You’re one of a kind
I gotta have ya
well you’re one of a kind
I need to have ya

Right from the start
you tore me apart
you took the best part of my heart

Body and soul
you took me out of control
you stole the best part of my heart

You’re one of a kind
you’ve got magic
I know you’re one of a kind
baby you’re static

Right from the start
you tore me apart
you took the best part of my heart

Body and soul
you took me out of control
you stole the best part of my heart

Right from the start
you tore me apart
you took the best part of my heart

Body and soul
you took me out of control
you stole the best part of my heart

“Is—is that about me?”  I heard as I looked up to see Justin standing there.

“Could be,” I replied, looking back down again.

“You’re one of a kind… I gotta have you… well you’re one of a kind.  I need to have ya,” Justin sand, looking at me as he walked towards me slowly.  “Right from the start… You tore me apart… You took the best part of my heart…”

“Justin,” I said as he shook his head as he stood in front of me as he leaned in close and then kissed my lips.

“Body and soul… You took me out of control… You stole the best part of my heart,” he sang as he leaned in close and then kissed my lips again.  “I’m ready John, please—please accept me; don’t push me away.”

“Why shouldn’t I?  You pushed me away Justin.  You were the one that was scared to live your life the way you said you wanted to live it,” I said as he looked down.

“I know, but that’s all changed now,” he said as I shook my head.  “It doesn’t matter to me, like it used to matter.  I see now that I want—I need someone with me… I need someone by me, to love me and I love… I love him.  I want that someone to be you John, I still love you.”

“How can you say you still love me Justin?”  I asked.

“Because that’s what I feel John,” he replied, leaning in and kissing my lips again.  “I can still remember the night we shared.  I wished it could’ve continued, only if you hadn’t walked out on me.”

“Right from the start, you tore me apart,” I said, repeating the words to Aunt Donna’s song.

“I—I know, but I want to make your heart whole again,” he said as he wrapped his arms around me as we shared a deep, passionate kiss.  Hell, I don’t care who saw us out in the open like this.  I’m really enjoying this kiss.

A Few Feet Away

Vanessa’s POV

Dear God, I hope my boy knows what he’s getting himself into this time.  My boy has gone through a lot of heartache and pain and it doesn’t look like it’s going to get any better.  With his hesitance to solve the current problem at hand, I don’t think him getting involved with someone else, another celebrity no less, is going to do him any good.  The cameras were already on him and if he’s with Justin, that’s going to be double the coverage.

But why is Justin here now?  That young man will more than likely cause him more hurt and cause a great deal of pain too, just like Cameron did.  Why is it that my boy always falls for the young ones?  Why Justin?  There’s a six-year age gap between them.  They shouldn’t be trying to get together right now, especially with all this madness going on in the media.

I heard Mo’ette say that Justin was here to help and support my boy and Nikki, but is he really here for help and support of them or is he here for himself?  What’s the real angle to the reasons why he’s here?  If he’s here to help, he can do that as a friend, he doesn’t have to be a lover.

“You two might want to take that someplace else,” I said, walking towards JT and Justin.  “You’ve been out in the open for far too long.  You don’t know what kind of prying eyes can be out here right now.”

“It’s after three in the morning,” JT said as I shook my head.

“Boy, you know the paparazzi never sleeps,” I said as he sighed and then looked down.

“She’s right Justin,” he said as Justin looked down and then moved away from him.  “We might need to take this inside, behind closed doors.”

“We, as in the two of us?”  Justin asked as I wanted to shake him a bit, but I said I wouldn’t interfere with my son and his relationships anymore.

“Yes,” was all he said as Justin smiled.  “Let’s go.  Are you coming mother?”

“No, I think I’ll sit out here a bit longer,” I replied as the two of them walked away.

I can already tell that Justin being around is going to cause unneeded trouble for him.  What’s wrong with that boy?  He was never this careless with Cameron or Wes.  He’s taking chances with his secret now that Justin is here, that he didn’t take with the other two.  Does he even care about that sort of thing now or has Justin done something to his damn head?  I guess we’ll all find out in time.

Early Morning – Mutual Attraction’s Suite

“What the hell is going on here?”  JT asked, walking into the main room.  “What’s the problem here, at this time of morning?”

“The problem is I’m out of this little circus!”  Glitter screamed, throwing a newspaper at JT.  “It was one thing having to deal with your ass being a drunk and a possible drug user, but now we have to deal with your ass being a fucking fag too!”

“Excuse me!”  JT snapped, moving over to Glitter quickly as she stepped back.  “Somebody better get her ass!”

“What the hell is wrong with you?”  Nikki asked, rushing into the room as Josh followed behind her.  “It’s too damn early in the morning for this shit, what’s going on now?”

“He and Justin is what’s going on!”  Glitter snapped as she picked up the newspaper and handed it to Nikki to show her.  “They’re in the fucking paper!  They’ve been outed!”

“What?  Oh, that’s just fucking great,” JT said as he looked down and then covered his mouth.

“What did you fucking expect to happen with all the shit you two pulled last night?”  Glitter asked as she looked at JT like she wanted to hit him.  “You were literally singing to each other on that damn stage, in front of every fucking body!”

“Just calm down Glitter, this can easily be solved,” Nikki said as she turned and looked at JT.

“Really?  Really Nikki?  How is this going to be solved?  Hell, he hasn’t done anything to solve the first damn problem!”  Glitter snapped as she threw up her hands.  “I’m done with this, I’m outta here!  You two can deal with this shit, but I’m not!  Esta La Wago Bitches!”

“Glitter!”  Nikki snapped as Glitter shot her the bird and then walked out of the room, slamming the door as she went.  “JT, are you okay?”

“Yeah, I—I’m okay,” JT replied as he looked at Nikki.  “I guess it was bound to happen, sooner or later.”

“Well, what are you going to do about it?”  Josh asked, looking over at JT.  “You have to make a statement or something.”

“Why should I?”  JT asked, looking over at Josh.  “Why fight the truth?”

“You still need to say something about the drugs,” Josh said as he walked over to JT.  “You can’t just let that stuff keep on going or you and Nicole won’t have a career at all.”

“Why do you even care Josh?”  JT asked, looking at Josh like he was crazy.

“I—I care,” Josh replied as he looked down.

“You could’ve fooled me,” JT said as he turned and walked back into his room, slamming the door behind him.

“What was that all about Josh?”  Nikki asked, looking at Josh strangely.

“Just the past and it seems to be catching up to the two of us,” Josh replied as Nikki raised an eye.  “What?”

“I would like to know what’s going on Josh,” Nikki said, crossing her arms across her chest, looking at Josh with a stern expression.

“Where do I start?”  Josh asked, sighing.

“Why don’t you start with the scene from last night in the hallway,” Nikki replied.

“Ah… Well, maybe I shouldn’t,” Josh stated, looking down.

“If you’re looking to have another shot with me, you better,” Nikki stated, looking at him closely.

“Do you and John talk often?”  Josh asked as Nikki cut her eyes at him.  “Okay, does he talk to you about his life?  His life before he got famous?”

“Well no, he never talked much about his life in that way,” Nikki replied, looking down.  “Why do I get the feeling that there’s a whole lot that I don’t know about?”

“There probably is,” Josh replied, looking around as he led Nikki over to the sofa.  “When I first met John, he wasn’t the person everyone knows now.”

“Meaning what Josh?”  Nikki asked, waiting for Josh to tell her more.

“Meaning that when John first showed up, so long ago on the Mouse, you probably wouldn’t have recognized him then,” Josh stated. “He was a shaky kid that was very jumpy.”

“Really, why is that?”  Nikki asked.

“John’s home life wasn’t all that it should’ve been.  Based on how Vanessa made it out to be, throughout the years, he—they went through hell,” Josh stated with a frown.  “Between dealing with his mental instability at times, the only reason why he was on the show was because of his singing.  Had it not been for his singing, he would’ve been kicked off the show a long time ago.”

“What’re you telling me Josh?”  Nikki asked, looking at him strangely.

“John has some very bad mental issues.  John suffers from depression and some other issues that he didn’t fully tell us about.  Back then, he got into trouble because of his anger issues, but as I can see, he’s learned to control his anger and better handle his feelings,” Josh stated as he looked down.

“I don’t think he has a problem controlling his anger or dealing with his feelings,” Nikki stated as Josh looked at her and then shook his head.

“Back then, he had a big problem,” Josh stated.  “He started drinking on the show, to help him better deal with the issues in his life.”

“Really,” Nikki said, looking down.  “So, he was drinking way back then?”

“Yeah, Vodka was his drink of choice,” Josh said as he looked down, not noticing that JT was standing nearby, listening.

“If you had some questions about my life, you could’ve asked me Nikki,” JT said as he turned and walked out of the room.

“JT!”  Nikki called out, turning to Josh.  “Oh great, now he’s gone.  Is this day going to get any better?”

“Probably not,” Josh replied as he sighed.

Outside the Hotel

“We’re standing outside the Radisson Plaza Hotel here in Philadelphia where it’s rumored that JT Poole of the singing group, ‘Mutual Attraction’ and Justin Tanner are staying.  Rumor has it that JT and Justin performed together in concert last night and as fans stated, it seemed like it was the duo’s coming out party,” a news personality stated, moving towards the main doors of the hotel.  “Follow along as we try to get inside to find out more about the so-called rumors.”

“What in the world is going on out here?”  Vanessa asked, stopping at the door to the hotel as she noticed the throng of people standing around as she turned quickly, rushing into the hotel as she pulled out her cell phone.

“Look, it’s Vanessa Jameson!”  Someone screamed as people rushed towards the hotel’s entrance.

“Security, this is Vanessa,” Vanessa stated as she spoke into her phone while walking towards the elevators.  “There are reporters and paparazzi outside the hotel.  Alert everyone to be on their guard.”

The Hotel’s Bar

“Look man, I don’t see what the problem is.  Just give me a Vodka and OJ damn it!”  JT demanded as he slammed his fist down on the bar-top.

“We’re not open right now sir,” the person behind the bar stated.  “Look, I don’t work here behind the bar, I’m just cleaning up.”

“Well, while you’re back there cleaning up, you can grab that bottle of Vodka over there and get some OJ from out of the cooler down there,” JT stated as he pointed at the man.  “I don’t have time for this bullshit!”

“Look guy, I don’t want any trouble.  Don’t make me call hotel security in here for you,” the person stated, looking at JT as if he were crazy.

“Go ‘head, call ‘em!”  JT snapped, getting up from the bar stool and grabbing the person by the collar of his shirt.  “I want that damn bottle of Vodka and I want it now!”

“Here man, just take it already!”  The man screamed as he grabbed the bottle of Vodka and then handed it to JT quickly.  “Just let me go, please!”

“Thank you,” JT said, moving away from the bar.  “Never mind, I don’t want the OJ, this will do just fine.”

“Fine by me,” the man said as JT threw some money on the counter and then walked out of the bar.  “Fucking freak.”

“Are you alright?”  Nikki asked, walking up to JT.  “I should’ve figured you were down here.”

“I’m fine.  What do you want Nikki?  Did you hear something you didn’t like?”  JT asked, looking at Nikki with an angry look on his face.

“No, that’s not it,” Nikki replied with a sigh. “I’m worried about you JT.”

“I’m sure you are,” JT replied, opening the bottle of Vodka as he started drinking straight from the bottle.  “Leave me alone Nikki.  Do what Glitter did and leave.”

“I’m not leaving,” Nikki stated, grabbing JT’s hand, stopping him from moving away from her.

“Look Nikki, I’m not in the mood right now,” JT said as he took another swig from the bottle.  “I’ve had all I’m going to take from…”

“Do you really think I’m in the mood?  In the span of two days, I’ve found out staff I didn’t know about the person that calls himself my best friend,” Nikki said as she slapped JT on the arm.  “How do you think I feel right now JT?  I thought I knew you, but I—I guess I was wrong.”

“I guess so,” JT replied as he shook his head and then took another swig from the bottle.  “It doesn’t really matter anymore.”

“It does matter JT!”  Nikki snapped.  “I’m your best friend and you’ve kept parts of your life secret from me.  It sounds as if you don’t trust me at all!”

“Should I?”  JT asked, taking another swig from the bottle.  “Like I said, it doesn’t even matter.  Save yourself the trouble and just follow Glitter’s example.”

“I’m not following Glitter no damn where,” Nikki said as she looked JT in the face.  “If I’m going to follow someone, it’s you back to the room so that we can talk some more.  Let’s go.”

“Whatever,” JT said as the two of them walked down the hall.

The Lobby

“We’re here in the lobby of the Radisson Hotel here in Philadelphia, the city of brotherly love.  From rumors of last night’s concert starring ‘Mutual Attraction’, there was a lot of brotherly love going on between JT Poole and Justin Tanner,” a reporter from a nationally syndicated talk show stated as he stood in the middle of the lobby as loads of people did their best to get into the building as camera flashes went off all around.  “Today, we’re waiting for JT Poole or Justin Tanner to make an appearance so we can find out if there’s any truth to the rumors going around.”

“Well, if the rumors are true about what happened at last night’s show with JT Poole and Justin Tanner, that could be career suicide for the both of them,” another reporter from the show stated as she looked around.

“Yeah, especially with the recent events floating around with JT, this could possibly be the end of ‘Mutual Attraction’,” the man stated as the woman looked at him.  “You got to admit it, that if he had spoken up in regards to those drug accusations, maybe there wouldn’t be so much going on right now.”

“That could be true, but we don’t know the truth to anything yet,” the woman stated as some screaming could be heard.  “It looks like there’s some activity outside.  What could be going on out there?”

“Why don’t we go see,” the man stated as he and a camera man walked towards the door.

To Be Continued…

[1] Song Excerpt = One of a Kind by Donna Summer