To Protect and Serve – Chapter 5

Chapter 5 — Is It Love?

Aug 5, 1995 – Dallas, TX – NetRadio Studios

“Stop your pathetic whining and struggling, you’re mine now!”  Shaman screamed, smacking Joey across the face as he turned to walk towards the stairs as Joey continued to struggle with him.

“No!  I won’t go with you!”  Joey screamed as JT’s body started to glow as a strange ribbon-like energy flared around his body.

“Stop!  You will cause no more harm here today!  You have caused enough problems for one day!”  JT yelled as his body floated up from the floor, glowing brightly as rays of energy shot from his eyes, knocking Shaman down to the floor.

“Noooo!  You’re supposed to be unconscious!  You’re not supposed to be able to move!  I used my strongest magical spell on you!”  Shaman screamed, flinching as JT waved his hand in his direction as his head fell backwards.

‘Joey, are you okay?  Yes, I’m speaking to you in your head.  Don’t worry, I have you and I’ll make sure that Shaman doesn’t bother you again,’ JT telepathically spoke to Joey.

“I… I knew I wasn’t going crazy.  I knew you were able to talk to me without using your mouth,” Joey said as he and JT floated down to the floor.  “Why did you act like you didn’t know what I was talking about when I asked you?”

“I had to keep my secret so I could better protect you.  If you knew I was a person with special powers, then you would’ve probably did things to keep yourself in danger or freaked out and been totally scared of me.  I didn’t want any of that happening,” JT stated as he and Joey walked over to the others.

“So you’re a real protector, my super hero,” Joey said as he leaned in and kissed JT’s lips as Justin looked away as Lance and Joshua frowned.

“Do you want to explain what just happened around here?”  Justin asked as Wanda’s eyes glowed an eerie gold color.

“No, I don’t want to explain anything,” JT replied as he moved away from Joey.  “You guys need to go ahead and get back to what you were doing, so you can get the rest of your day started.”

“We need to talk about what we just saw,” Lance said as he looked over at JT.

“We can talk about that later on, after your show tonight,” JT stated as he looked down.  “Right now, you all need to finish up here.”

“Fine, we’ll talk about this later on,” Joshua stated with a frown.

Later On – After The Concert

“Wow, that song was slammin’.  I really enjoyed it.  I wonder when the guys are going to be finished with the meet and greet.  I’m ready to get on the bus and head on to the next location.  I’m ready for some much needed downtime,” Tyler stated.

“I can sense the guys walking down the corridor now.   I know they’re ready for their well deserved break for the next couple of days,” JT stated, looking around.  “I’m sure they’re going to enjoy the next  couple of days before having to do another show.”

“Hey guys, how’d you like the show?”  Justin asked, walking past Tyler and JT.

“The show was great Justin, but I have one comment,” Barbara stated as Justin frowned at her.

“What’s wrong Barb?  What didn’t you like about the show?”  Justin asked, walking over to where Barbara stood.

“Come on Justy, why are you looking sad like that?  All I was going to say was that you hit some good notes tonight.  You sang those songs as though you were really feeling it.  When you guys sang Tears from my Heart and Lost Without My Baby, I had tears in my eyes.  I—I was so moved,” Barbara stated, thinking back to the songs.

“Wow, you liked it that much?”  Justin asked.

“Yes, I enjoyed it that much,” Barbara replied with a smile.  “The way you performed tonight was so moving.  What brought that on?”

“I guess because I was so happy,” Justin replied as he looked at Barbara with a wide smile.  “I guess the others were happy too.  I’m happy that you guys caught the freak that had been stalking us for so long.  I felt I had to give it my all.”

“Okay guys, while you’re changing, we’ll be standing outside.  When you guys are done, we’ll head for the buses and get on the road,” JT stated as he and the other guards headed towards the door.

“Cool, we shouldn’t be long.  Give us about fifteen minutes and we should be ready to go,” Joshua said as he walked into the bathroom area, following behind the others.

Outside the Room

“JT, is there something wrong?  Why do you have tears in your eyes?  What’s going on buddy?”  Wanda asked, walking over to where JT stood and looked at him closely.

“These guys aren’t happy,” JT replied as he looked down and then slid down the wall to the floor.  “As Joey walked past me just now, I felt pain… I felt a great deal of pain from him and I saw hurt in his eyes.”

“Come on Tim, I’ve known you for a very long time… I’ve known you a very long long time and I know you don’t cry about something, unless you really care about it.  Are—are you in love with Joey, the same way he’s in love with you?”  Wanda asked, sitting down on the floor next to JT and pulling him close as she wrapped her arms around his shoulders.

“I—I like him, but I don’t know what to do here.  I—I don’t want to get involved with someone that I’m protecting,” JT stated, looking down at his hands.

“Tim, remember when you first discovered your powers and you were dating that guy that was protecting you?”  Wanda asked, lifting JT’s chin so he could see her face.

“Yes, I remember him all too well Wanda.  Why did you have to bring that up after all this time?”  JT asked as the tears streamed down his face.  “He tried to turn me into his own personal weapon against all of you and the rest of the world Wanda.  When he found out all that I could do, he thought that was his sign that he could get all that he wanted.”

“Yeah, but when you found out he had powers too, you still dated him and you didn’t have a problem, carrying on a relationship with him.  Remember, he was your protector for a while,” Wanda stated.

“Yeah, he was my protector and he turned into my captor.  Regardless of that, we’re talking about Joey Fallon here, not Marek,” JT stated as Wanda looked at him and then sighed.  “Joey isn’t like Marek… Joey is normal, he’s not…”

“Well Joey knows you have powers, but the others don’t,” Wanda stated as JT looked at her strangely.  “I went ahead and wiped their memories clean of what happened earlier today.”

“What?  How did you do that missy?”  JT asked, looking at Wanda strangely.

“I did it with a magical spell I learned from SpellCaster,” Wanda replied as JT shook his head.  “I know, I know…”

“I can’t believe you Wanda,” JT said with a sigh.

“Well, the guys remember their stalker being arrested, but they don’t remember you using any of your meta-psychic powers or anything along those lines,” Wanda stated.

“Why did you choose to allow Joey to remember?  Why didn’t you erase his memory like the others?”  JT asked, looking at Wanda strangely.

“To put it simply, I didn’t want to erase the love that will develop between you two.  I learned something from you a long time ago.  I learned how to spot love and I see it within you and Joey.  I want you to explore it,” Wanda stated as she shifted into her half cat form.

“What are you doing Wanda?  Are you crazy?”  JT asked, standing up as he looked around.  “Why did you change into Black Cat, is there something wrong?”

“I—I think you needed to see me for me, as I truly am,” Wanda stated, looking down.  “For some strange reason, I wanted you to see me as I was, to make you remember how I used to be when you found me, that young, helpless girl that was scared of everyone and everything.  You helped me to see that I was able to get past all of that crap that happened to me.  Now you need to do the same thing and see that within you.  You need to embrace that man and be happy for once.  Marek is gone and you’re no longer the evil person that he made you out to be.”

“You—you have a point,” JT stated as Wanda changed back to herself, just as the guys were walking out of the dressing room.  “But I don’t know Wanda.  It seems that everything is trying to mess up.  Marek called me yesterday and I don’t even know how he found my number.”

“You shouldn’t be concentrating on Marek,” Wanda stated.

“He called me Wanda and asked when I was coming home.  We’ve been apart for almost five years, but he talked as if it’s only been six months,” JT stated as Wanda shook her head.

“Are you guys ready to go?”  Tyler asked, walking past Wanda and JT.

“Can’t wait to get out of here and go on that lovely vacation.  I’ve been waiting for this, I need this,” Joey said as he turned and looked at JT and then turned away with a sad look on his face.

“Tim, go to him and change the outcome of his sadness,” Wanda stated, nudging JT with her arm.

“But Wanda, oh alright already, but if I get hurt by him, I’ll blame you forever,” JT stated as he pointed his finger at Wanda and then walked away, heading towards Joey.  “Remember Wanda, I’ll blame you forever and you know I will.”

“Hi Hank, can I talk to you for a moment?”  Lance asked, walking over to Hank and held his hand out to help Hank up off the floor.

A Few Minutes Later – Outside


Damn, what am I going to say to Joey?  What, am I just going to walk up to him and tell him that I love him?  Walk up to him and tell him that I want to love him and be his husband?  Yeah right, like I could really do something like that.  What chance do I have of becoming Joey Fallon’s husband?  What brought that on?  We haven’t even gone on a date yet.  How in the hell did I jump on the subject of being his husband?

“Hey Joey, wait up,” I called out as Joey stopped walking and turned around to look at me.

“Hey JT,” he spoke as I caught up to him as he had this strange expression on his face.

“Hi Joey,” I said, not really knowing what to say as I looked down at my hands.

“Something you want to say JT?”  He asked as Chris walked past us and then got onto the bus.

“Well… Ah… I… Ah…” I stuttered, looking around quickly, still not knowing what to say.

“JT,” he said as I pulled him close and then kissed his lips.

“Wow!  JT, whyd did you just kiss me?”  He asked as I looked at him like he was crazy.  Didn’t he want me to kiss him?

“What!  What do you mean, why did I just kiss you!  Didn’t you want me to kiss you?”  I asked, wondering what was about to happen.  I really need a premonition now.

“Yes, I want you to kiss me, but you were the one that screamed at me when I kissed you the last time,” he said, looking me straight in the face.  “You’re giving me mixed signals here and I don’t lie that.”

“What!”  I snapped as he turned and then walked onto the bus.  “I—I don’t believe this!  I kissed him and then he walked away, saying that I’m sending mixed signals!”

“Hey buddy, you okay?”  Tyler asked as I walked past him, heading towards Wanda.

“JT, why are you looking at me like that?  JT?  JT, why are you looking at me like that?  JT, we’re in public and your eyes are glowing and your clothes are starting to reveal a hint of magic,” Wanda stated as she started walking backwards as my clothing started to change into my previous costume.

“You said go to him, embrace him, love him and things would be okay!  I went to him, I kissed him and he basically walked away from me, saying I was sending him mixed fucking signals and he didn’t like that!”  I snapped, sure that my appearance was revealing a new look, one that she hadn’t seen before.

“Calm down JT and go get on the bus.  Sit with him and things will work out, believe me,” she said as I shook my head as she started pushing me backwards towards the bus as my clothing settled back into what I was wearing previously.

After everyone had put their belongings on the bus and was situated where they wanted to be, Jon arrived and it seems things took a turn for the worst.  Sometimes I wonder about that man.  If I didn’t know any better, I’d think he was a slave driver or something.  He works these guys like mules and don’t care fi they get any rest or not.  He only cares about his pocket’s bottom line.

“What is it that you want Jon?”  Justin asked, sitting across from where I was seated.

“I came here to wish you all a happy vacation,” Jon stated as Justin raised an eye at him.

“You didn’t have to come here to do that,” Lance spoke up next.

“I want you guys to get some rest because in a few days, you’ll head to your next venue and you got to put in a hundred and fifty percent.  Some new executives with the label will be in attendance and they want to see what you guys are capable of.  I want you guys to show them what ‘All Star’ is all about.  When they leave the show, I want them to think that they can’t do any better than you guys.  Do you feel me?”  Jon asked, looking at the guys as I just shook my head.

“Yeah, we feel you,” Chris replied as he shook his head, got up and then walked towards the back of the bus.

“Alright guys, I’ll see you all in a few days.  Enjoy your mini vacation,” Jon said as he waved and then walked off the bus.

Joey’s POV

“Hi, is this seat taken?”  I heard as I looked up to see JT standing there with a small smile on his face.

So, is he back again for another round?  Are we going to kiss again?  I don’t want to run from him, but I don’t want things to be awkward either.  I want him all to myself, but since we’re on this damn tour bus, in the lounge.  There’s not really much I can do but keep it PG-13.  Not knowing what to really say and do, I threw caution to the wind and stood up and kissed his lips.

This is so hot.  We’re kissing and he’s not pulling away and I’m not about to pull away.  Wrapping my arms around him, I groped his ass as he did the same thing to me.  I guess that’s a sign that he’s really into the kiss as I am.

“That was so awesome, let’s do it again,” I said as we kissed again.

“What in the hell is going on in here?”  Justin asked, standing in the doorway.

“Shit,” I muttered, pulling away from JT quickly.

“JT, why were you just lip-locking with Joey?”  Justin asked, sitting down on the sofa across from where we stood.

“Damn… I… Don’t… Ahhh…. Well… Ahhhhh… Well Joey, why don’t you answer him,” JT stammered out.

“Well ahhh, I… Don’t… Well… Shit… Who gives a flying rat’s ass here.  Justin, I’m gay and I think… I think I’m falling in love with JT,” I said, sitting back down as Justin watched us like a hawk.

“You’re what?!”  Justin screamed.

“Hey hey hey, what’s with all the screaming in here?  What’s going on?”  Joshua asked as he and my other friends walked into the room.

“Joey, I think you need to tell your friends, so everything can be out in the open,” JT said with a smile as he waved and then stepped backwards, slipping out the door, leaving me all alone with these guys that look like they want to beat the hell out of me right now.

“Guys, just sit down, I—I need to tell you all something,” I said.

“What is it Joey?  What’s wrong?  You look like you’re in pain or something,” Lance said as he got up and then walked over to where I was and then sat down.

“Well guys, I—I think I’m gay.  I know what all of you are going to say about what this can possibly do to us, if it ever went public, but for the last nine months, I’ve been sleeping with men.  I know this is a lot to take in, all at once, but as JT said, I might as well put everything out on the table,” I said as Chris shook his head and then got up from his seat.

“Is that why you broke up with your girl?  Is that why you stopped going out clubbing with the rest of us?”  Chris asked, staring at me.

“I stopped clubbing with you guys so I wouldn’t get caught doing anything gay in public.  I broke up with Brooke because I wasn’t sexually attracted to her and I didn’t see any reason or me to carry on a relationship with her, since I wasn’t sexually or romantically attracted to her,” I said as Chris shook his head again.  “Can’t you see where I’m coming from Chris?”

“She was my friend and you dumped her!  You told her in the beginning that you loved her!  She loved you man!  She loved you with all of her heart and soul.  You stepped on her heart and ripped it up!”  Chris snapped as he pointed his finger at me.  “I hope you experience the same kind of hurt and pain that you caused her you fucking faggot!”

“Chris,” I said as he held up his hand and then walked out of the room.

“I wasn’t trying to hurt anyone.  I can’t help it that I don’t like chicks like that anymore.  I’ve been lying to myself for a long time and I can’t hide those feelings anymore,” I said, wondering what the other guys were going to say.

“How do you expect him to feel Joey?  You hurt his friend.  With this new information about you, you can possibly hurt the group also,” Joshua stated as I shook my head.

“I can’t believe this.  All this time you’ve been gay and you didn’t tell us.  We… I… I’ve been in the same dressing room with you, changing, revealing myself to you… we’ve been revealing ourselves to you all this time and you didn’t tell us.  Joey, this is something I can’t deal with.  I—I can’t be around you if you’re going to be gay!”  Justin snapped, getting up from his seat and then walked out.

“Joshua, Lance… Do you two feel the same way about me too?”  I asked as the tears slid down my face.

“I can care less if you’re gay or not, as long as you’re not trying to put the moves on me.  I like the chicks and it’s going to stay that way.  You’re still my friend and all, but keep it friendly.  These guys will come around some time,” Joshua stated as he leaned in and gave me a hug.  “Keep it friendly bro.”

“I—I understand how you feel.  Just don’t let Chris and Justin get you down.  Just keep your head up and things will be alright,” Lance said as he leaned in and hugged me also.

“Thanks you two, that means a lot to me.  I don’t know what I would do if all of you were mad at me.  Now I need to go talk to JT.  I think Justin scared him a lot when he came in and caught us kissing,” I said as Lance looked at me strangely.

“You and JT were kissing?”  Lance and Joshua said in unison.

“Yeah, we were kissing,” I replied with a smile.  “I like him and I think I’m falling in love with him.”

“Really,” Lance said with a smile as he looked down.

“I think he likes me too.   I hope he does because it would break my heart if he doesn’t,” I said, waving and then walking out of the room.

“Well, I wonder what Jon is going to say about all of this when he finds out,” I heard Joshua say as I saw him leave the room too.

“I don’t know, but I’m going to sleep so I can be fully rested up.  I feel we’re going to have a rough break here,” I heard Lance say as he followed behind Joshua.

Aug 6, 1995 – Somewhere in Texas – All Star’s Tour Bus

“I don’t know what he’s going to do Wanda.  As I was leaving, I heard Justin and Chris yelling at him and then I telepathically overheard all of the horrible things Chris said to him,” JT spoke as he shook his head.  “What should I do Wanda?  What can I do, short of erasing everyone’s memories of what was said and done?”

“Just be there for him Tim.  That’s all you can really do for him right now.  All you have to do is support his decision and be by his side,” Wanda stated, noticing that Joey stood near them.  “We have company.”

“Excuse me Wanda, can I steal him from you for a bit?”  Joey asked as he sat down besides JT.

“Sure,” Wanda said as she got up and then turned around.  “I’ll be in the back, if anyone needs me.”

“So, can we talk JT?”  Joey asked as JT nodded his head.  “I need to say a few things and I need to ask some questions, if that’s okay with you.”

“What’s on your mind?”  JT asked.

“Where do you see this going?  Do you like me?  Are you looking for a relationship?”  Joey asked, grabbing JT’s hand and holding it in his own.

“I do like you Joey and I’m looking for a relationship.  If we’re compatible for each other, maybe one day we can go further with this and take it to the next level,” JT said as he squeezed Joey’s hand.

“What’s the next level… sex?”  Joey asked.

“No, marriage silly… if we’re compatible and love each other, then I would be open to getting married, if our love is strong,” JT stated.

“Really?  I would like to settle down and have a partner for life, someone to keep me happy, someone that I can keep happy, someone that loves me and someone that I can grow older with.  I hope that person is you JT.  When I first saw you, I knew I wanted you as my boyfriend,” Joey stated as he slid closer to JT.

“I must admit that I’ve had a small crush on you for a long time, since I discovered you guys’ music.  When you guys first came out, I listened to your music, I watched all of your videos and I even bought those teen magazines that showcased you guys.  Then, my life and reality started to take precedence and my crush was put on the back burner because I felt it would never happen, but now that it’s happening, I don’t believe it,” JT stated as he shook his head as his body glowed.

“Why are you glowing like that?  Is that a special part of your psychic powers or do you have other powers?”  Joey asked, looking around quickly.

“I have other powers Joey.  All of my powers aren’t psychic,” JT stated as Joey raised an eye at him.  “I’m a bio-morph, which means I have the ability to copy the powers, skills, talents or abilities of other people around me and I also have magical powers like Wanda, except I don’t change into a cat, but I could if I wanted to.  Believe me, Black Cat is enough by herself, we don’t need two talking cats.”

“That’s so cool, but someone’s coming down the corridor.  Don’t you think you need to stop glowing…” Joey said as he stood up and walked in front of Justin’s view of JT as JT stopped laughing and then turned around.

“Excuse me, I would like to talk to JT for a moment.  Could you please leave us alone,” Justin said as he walked past Joey and then waited for him to leave the area.

“I’m not about…” Joey said as JT held up his hand.

“It’s okay Joey, I’m a bodyguard, I think I can protect myself from Justin here,” JT said as he laughed again.

“Hey, that wasn’t funny man!  Look, I don’t know what you did to Joey, but I’m telling you now that if you cause him trouble or do anything to hurt him or this group, I’ll see to it that you never work again and I’ll do what I can to make your life miserable,” Justin stated as he glared at JT.

“I haven’t done anything to Joey.  The only ones that have done something to hurt him is you and Chris.  I’m his bodyguard here, my job is to protect him and make sure nothing happens to him!”  JT yelled at Justin.

“Look, I have nothing against you or anything for being gay, but I just want to ensure the safety of this group.  I want to make sure nothing happens to mess us up.  Do you follow that JT?”  Justin asked.

“I understand that very well Justin.  I know about the publicity thing.  We all signed the required statements to keep us from revealing any of you guys’ personal information or activities that take place in your private lives to the media or anyone.  Besides, I wouldn’t do anything to cause problems for any of you.  If that were my goal, I wouldn’t have used so much time to catch your stalker,” JT stated as Justin looked down.

“Well you got me there, but just don’t do anything that can hurt this group.  I haven’t worked this hard to get where I am now for nothing.” Justin stated.

“I understand all of that.  I know how the media works and I know how the world is.  I’ve done this job before.  You don’t have to worry about me doing anything, except for my job,” JT said with a frown.

“I guess we’re finished here.  Oh and JT, if you break Joey’s heart, I’ll kick your ass,” Justin said as he shook JT’s hand and then got up and walked away down the aisle.

To Be Continued…